You with your green eyes...so green...eyes I could look into forever.
My mind could be in a million different places...then I look at you and I remember to breathe. I remember you're there. I remember you've never really left. It may have felt like it some times, but you've always been there.
All you want is for me to be happy. I want that too. I want it for me, for you, for us. I want us to grow, I want us to flourish, I want....I want it all. For us.
I spent so long healing from all we went through that I didn't ever think that day would come. The day where you said "I want us." I had that convo so many times in my head that I got to a point where I was okay with telling you no. I was going to tell you no. Then it happened, and my heart that I had spent so long rebuilding and reinforcing, and you walk in like a damn wrecking ball. I have never been good at keeping you out. I have always held space for you. My heart remembered what it feels like to have someone know all of you. Someone who knows you inside and out...and still love you.
I went numb for a long time, and then I thought I was coming back to me. Coming back to someone who didn't love you.....MAN was I wrong. It's always been you, you're this tall, dark, and handsome green eyed enigma that I cannot get out of my system....you've made yourself right at home in my cold, dark heart. You've made a space for yourself that is so deeply ingrained in me that I couldn't remove you even if I truly actually wanted to.
Please don't make me regret this. Please do right by us.







