An explorer wanna be

[khayeoo]

“From Scratch”

This Netflix series is a 100/100 for me.. This series revolves on the love story of Amy and Lino who first met in Florence, Italy where Lino was a chef and Amy is learning about art, despite of having so many differences in life, cultures and beliefs, their love grows and they fall in love so deeply. They eventually got married. Their love story faced so many challenges, for one Lino and his father long feud, also, Amy’s family wanting her to be a lawyer instead of being an artist, and worst of it Lino got health problems. I think if you have a weak mind and heart you’ll not be able to overcome those for it really requires a sane and open mind, an understanding, courage and the will and might to face this challenges. Amy’s character here is so admirable, her love is genuine and kind, her bravery and optimism is something to emulate. Moreover, the series will make you realize that in every relationship you should know how to compromise, be grateful for one’s presence in your life and appreciate each other because you’ll never know when will the time ends.

[khayeoo]

It was few days ago, that I've come across again the guy I've met last September, I was quite amazed that in many people we would literally bumped with each other, we've blocked each other on all social medias, he liked me before and did some courting but It didn't worked out since I'm not ready, then yeahh we've met again and he was so surprised and amazed we did, and at first we were questioning each other what happened back then, so we said both positive and negative about what happened in the past, also he said how he suffered in the past because he assumed that I have no interest in him, So he asked me again if we could give it a try, and I said yes.. We talked almost all the time, exchange pictures and checking on each other but as we do this I felt scared that I might hurt him coz I am such a complicated person.

[khayeoo]

Nobody knows what my pain is, nobody knows why I felt sad, NO one has ever tried to ask.. Well thats life, we just need to live with it...

[khayeoo]

A few months ago I've met a man online, we've talked, share thoughts, checking on each other and give company even just in chat, as days goes by, I've learnt that we are almost alike in hobbies, favourites and what makes us happy. With the different time zones, it's really hard to have a constant communication but he made it a habit that every after his work he would send a msg in which it is almost like 12 midnight in my place, its hard but atleast he's making an effort and so the day came that he told me he liked me and wanted me to become his girlfriend, I knew it was coming seeing his efforts there's really something to it, and I candidly refuse it by saying I don't do long distance relationship he made me explained and so I told him that I was just not ready to be in a relationship knowing that I'm still trying to figure out myself or my purpose in life and I don't want him to get hurt in the end. I feel like I'm not whole yet to be with someone else. What I wanted to say is its really hard to fell in love with someone without loving the whole you first.

[khayeoo]

What's Happening to the WORLD???

I am so sad, I'm scared, the world is not okay, Covid is not Okay,It so depressing seeing and hearing that a lot of people died. Just this week I've seen so much deaths from social media, wife, husband, sons, daughters, grandparents, uncles and aunts of people I know, I didn't thought I would be hearing mine too. I have signs, I have bad dreams, I was wondering who? Just until now my dream was explained.

[khayeoo]

Why people has to change? I wanna be like I was before, brave and wouldn't hesitate to speak her mind. What happened? Where were you lost old self?

[khayeoo]

People would always see me laugh but they just don't know how broken my heart is. #sadtruth

[khayeoo]

Few hours earlier, I’ve finished watching this movie and I really like it to the point that I decide to write about it, so start of let me give you a short introduction of the movie, the movie is about a writer whom had met a girl in a bar where they spend the night together, where that one night made the writer crazy about her that when he knew that the girl live in a psychiatric hospital he pretends to be mentally ill so he could spend time with girl and later on he wrote an article about the people in there. What I like the most in the movie is that they showed that even if you’re mentally ill you’re still capable of love, to love and be loved without prejudices they are all humans like us, they maybe different from us in a way but as a rational being we must understand them, treat them with kindness and help them heal by showing our support and never ever judge them. Let’s be kind with one another.

[khayeoo]

I was having dinner with my bff and it was so quiet that we could only hear the raindrops falling from our roof, we were savoring the fried chicken we've made together, when she suddenly asked me "Are you going home this December?" and I was like "Yes, I am going home", you'll gonna have a swab test, aren't you scared?, and I said to her, if I'm not going to have it I can't really go home,. And then my friend said I really hope we could go home. It is really depressing, the thought of how this pandemic really affected me and the lives of many people. There are so many questions overflowing in my mind.. like, was my decision right for living away with my family? why am I so stubborn for not listening to my parents? What if I won't be be able to make it this December bcoz of my commitments, Will I be okay celebrating Christmas and New year without my family?, I guess Not, I've been trying to be okay all the time, I laugh yes, But I'm not okaaayyyyyyy 😒

[khayeoo]

I'm happy that I've been spending time with HIM😇😇🙏🙏

[khayeoo]

I Still Believe

A movie which loudly shouting that One LOVE and FAITH Can change your LIFE, indeed, the indescribable, incomprehensible and undying Faith of Melissa had totally changed a million of lives. Melissa always believed that God always have purpose for each one us, where we need to unfold one day on the perfect time, she suffered with cancer but she and her husband still believed that God will create miracle. And so as I watched the movie it moved from the other side crying not the fact that the character died, well also a part but the feeling of being so grateful that I have an Amazing God that I may not see but I know that HE is there for me, healing and gracing me with all the wonderful things that happend to good or bad. I'm very Thankful to God for everything! At times we don't get to choose what life we will have but this teaches us that no matter what STILL BELIEVE in HIM😍😇😇🙏🙏♥️♥️

[khayeoo]

Today is Easter Sunday, many would say it's a start of a new beginning, a new chance of living a precious gift that we called life. Today, I recollect on what God has done to me, harking back on everything that has been going through in my life made me realise how truly blessed I am for giving me such an imperfectly perfect life, I am just so grateful to have a wonderful family and friends that has been there for me through thick and thin, in good and in bad times, I'm truly thankful for all the experiences that I have, heartaches and stress mentally, emotionally and physically, that I have learned to stand and face with might all the challenges I'm going through. My heart couldn't contain the happiness that I felt upon writing this though the fear of being sad and weary is still there. The happiness that I feel right now will be replaced by tension and disappointment but I know God will never leave me behind thats for sure. As I start my new chance, the experiences that I have will not be forgotten but will serve as a motivation that I can be better, I will cherish the people who are so dear to me and I will continue my faith in God no matter what. GODBLESS!

#Easter #sunday #Christisrisen

[khayeoo]

Where is this now?

[khayeoo]

Be a Butterfly

Today, I've read the story about a caterpillar . The story started with a caterpillar who's eating a lot and just settling in one place and later that caterpillar meet another caterpillar which became his friend, so everyday they would just play and eat all day long, then one day the friend did not show up so the caterpillar decided to visit the house of his friend and when he got there the friend was covered with its cocoons,after which the caterpillar heard a voice saying that he must be like his friend too but the butterfly was so persistent and answer back the voice telling that he doesn't want to be enclosed like his friend, no freedom, no food and no more playing because a caterpillar needs to be in its cocoon until such time that they become mature and become a butterfly. Afraid of not doing the things he used to do he left and went back to his place, doing the same thing all day. Then, one day the caterpillar heard the voice of his friend and to his surprise, his friend became a beautiful butterfly, free and flying up in the air. The caterpillar became sad because he is still crawling so the friends cheer him up telling that it is not too late you still have the chance and the story ended with the caterpillar being enclosed in its cocoon.

As I am reading the story, I was imaging and relating the story to all human being.. that at times we are too afraid to explore and take a risk, we would just want to settle to the things we used to do, but our really beauty and success will not be at our hands if all will just be like caterpillars. We need to be a butterfly, beautiful and keeps on soaring up in the air, free to do whatever we wanted to do. But becoming a butterfly is not that easy we need to face every challenges with might, learn to persevere, take risk and Wait for a sweet success and a colorful life awaits for us in the end of our journey.

[khayeoo]

Oct. 31, 2019

Someone shattered my heart into a million pieces that I could not bear to laugh genuinely. I don't know now.. I couldn't find my way back to what I am before him... This really makes me totally sad.

[khayeoo]

Since last week, I couldn't totally fathom why he'd left.. Then I came across this quote on fb that slapped me.. Yes! I was uncertain about many things but not for him nor with what we have but thats not what he feels.. and that "I don't know" in which I replied on his question . made him let go of my hand😭😭

[khayeo]

Everybody wanna go to heaven, but Nobody wanna go now..

#sunlitup #clearsky #likeheaven #peace