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everybody knows i'm a motherfucking MONSTER [ indie kiyotaka ishida ]

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if anyone who follows me is still around, i remade! unfollow this blog if you want, and follow me at my new one.

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if anyone who follows me is still around, i remade! unfollow this blog if you want, and follow me at my new one.

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A K A Z O M E  +  N O M U R A  burn victim box preacher

despair days dangan oc, the usual rules, no icons, para and one-liners

It’s a very Greek idea, and a very profound one. Beauty is terror. Whatever we call beautiful, we quiver before it. And what could be more terrifying and beautiful, to souls like the Greeks or our own, than to lose control completely? To throw off the chains of being for an instant, to shatter the accident of our mortal selves? Euripides speaks of the Maenads: head thrown I back, throat to the stars, “more like deer than human being.” To be absolutely free! One is quite capable, of course, of working out these destructive passions in more vulgar and less efficient ways. But how glorious to release them in a single burst! To sing, to scream, to dance barefoot in the woods in the dead of night, with no more awareness of mortality than an animal! These are powerful mysteries. The bellowing of bulls. Springs of honey bubbling from the ground. If we are strong enough in our souls we can rip away the veil and look that naked, terrible beauty right in the face; let God consume us, devour us, unstring our bones. Then spit us out reborn.

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To be honest, your eyes are freaking me out! They’re already red normally, so this just makes it a hundred, thousand, million times scarier! Not that I’m scared. But it’s off-putting!

Educator? Are you a teacher now?! You’re a student! Remember your place, vermin!

…T-That was a little harsh.

But I can’t drive a car! I can’t even ride a bike! How am I supposed to walk all the way to a grocery store!? Or a convenience store?! I’m not built for walking long distances!

…Okay, you’re right. They’re very American. But they’ve become more Japanese here, is what I’m saying! They have been assimilated! Something like that.

W— Wait, young people?! You’re my age! We’re the same age! How can you label me as a ‘young person’ when you’re my age?! You’ve lost your marbles!

Admittedly, I should have already gathered as much, but I hold my stance! You are 100% bonkers!

I-I’m no anarchist! I just don’t like the word normal! I don’t like the idea! Conformity is helpful, but should be tested! Individuals are individuals! Or…something! I-I’m not too educated on the subject, but…I do know that ‘normal’ is probably the most oppressive word in the Japanese language!

…!

…!!!!!!!!

N-N-N-NO SHE ISN’T! She’s not a boy! She— I mean— She’s— She’s too cute to be a boy! I refuse to consider her a boy! Plus, if I take your opinion, it doesn’t even matter, because she’s an AI! There! So she could be a boy or a girl! Haha! Her gender is meaningless! Take THAT!

Hahahaha! I win this round, then! If you can’t beat them, make them incredibly uncomfortable! That’s what I always say! …Actually, I’ve never said that in my life, but regardless—

Eh?

Criminal?

…Who are you talking about, exactly..?

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What. The fuck. Are you talking about?! What's the matter with my fucking eyes? Are you just such a goddamn wuss that looking into the eyes of a real man makes you piss your pants? Pathetic!

Are you an idiot? I'm a prefect! I have a duty to educate students too, and even if I didn't, I'd still take the time to impart some knowledge into your tiny onion brain! If there's one thing I can't stand, it's wasted potential, and you seem like you could be a smart kid if your thoughts weren't so fogged up by your goddamn sketchy-ass manga all the time!

You have nobody to blame for your build but yourself! Maybe if you spent more time exercising and less time sitting on your ass in front of a drawing tablet, you'd be able to run more than half a lap! You've trapped yourself in a vicious cycle! And I give exactly zero shits about the assimilation of potato chips or whatever the fuck, the fact remains that they're disgusting and have no place in the diet of any proper Japanese student.

Did I ever say I wasn't a young person? Huh? Did I?! No, I fucking didn't! You're the insane one here, if you're so stubbornly determined to twist all my words! I'm labelling you as a young person because that's what you are, and your standards are shit! I'm set apart from you, with the simple addition of a moral fucking code!

... Bullshit. There are probably at least a dozen more oppressive words than that. Conformity is a baseline! You're free to be an individual, but for kami's sakes, have some common decency! If you abhor "normality," you're gonna end up in some bad fucking places!

... If the gender doesn't matter, why are you still calling "her" a "she?" Y'know what, no. I'm done. I'm not discussing this with you, 'cause my prefect senses are tingling out the ass, telling me that this line of conversation is just going to get creepier and creepier as it goes on!

Taeko fucking Yasuhiro, according to her student profile, no matter what shitty pseudonym she wants to call herself. Y'know, the girl whose talent is, let's see here, fucking illegal?

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for those who didn’t know, Ishimaru’s execution  (unused of course) is that he’s trapped to a car seat, and all these fake citizens in the background ask him questions like “Why did you cheat on all those tests?” “Why did you kill *victim*, mr. president?” “Why are you such a failure?” etc, and at the end monobear snipes him.

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I didn’t really want to put it on my blog because SPOILERS!!!, but….. the version I know of is a little different. I got it from the wiki:

“Prime Minister Kiyotaka Ishimaru’s Inaugural Parade - Ishimaru sits on a vehicle and answers people’s cheers in the middle of a huge, gorgeous parade. The crowd has posters that say things such as “Hooray for Prime Minister Ishimaru”. In the next moment, Monobear pops up resembling Golgo 13 (an assassin with great eyebrows) and kills him with a shot through the heart. This execution is shown in the Official Fanbook.”

Since he’s answering the cheers, I’d say that culprit version of Ishimaru is delusional.

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W-Well, there are people who are into that…

It just seemed…I don’t know…queer?

By the way, if I can ask…

…H-How are your eyes doing that, exactly?

Are they emitting some kind of gas? And then you just…light it? Does it hurt to touch? A-Are your eyes in pain? Are your eyebrows on fire?

And how did your hair turn white? Did it just…go?

—NO! No, wait! Don’t ruin it for me! This is exactly the kind of thing I shouldn’t be questioning! In the realm of fiction, nothing is out of the question! Or…something like that. I’ll take my miracles where I get them.

E-Eh? D-D-Do you research this stuff or something!? Your pool of knowledge is astounding! Okay, maybe potato chips aren’t Japanese. But they’re still good! And they’ve been adopted by the Japanese market, and made to be consumed by the Japanese public! I don’t see what the problem is! They’re important, a staple, the food you eat when your parents are out and there’s no other food in the house—!

For your information, monsieur, no good doujinka worth their peanuts can’t write a little, too! And normal is overrated! Normal is a setting on a washing machine! Normal is the casual scum’s level on a video game! Normal is…disgusting! I spit on your normal!

J-Just because she’s an AI doesn’t mean she doesn’t have feelings! I’m sure if she heard you right now, she’d be crying! Have some manners! What kind of honest, traditional Japanese boy would trample on the feelings of an innocent young girl?! You’re cruel! For shame!

You were the one that caused a ruckus! I simply had quiet conversations with her, dimly lit by the glow of her screen…a delicate green, illuminating the bathhouse…It was romantic! And would never tip Monobear off!

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Yeah, well, your entire character seems pretty fucking queer to me, so I guess we're even.

What's the matter with my eyes? These are the eyes of a man filled with anger and fighting spirit! I think I'd know it if my eyebrows are on fire, wouldn't you? And I neither know nor give a shit about what happened to my hair. Make up whatever dumbass story you want, "miracles" or whatever, but leave me the hell out of it! I'll have no part in your little fantasies!

I'm an educator, fuckass, it's kind of my job to know shit! Besides, isn't it common knowledge that potato chips are American? A junk food lover like you should know that! And if you have no other food when your parents are out of the house, I feel bad for you! Take the fucking time to buy some fresh fruit, it tastes better and it's healthier! Kami, the standards of young people today make me throw up a little in my mouth!

For your information, "normal" is the set of values and precedents that keep Japan from falling into anarchy! Is that what you are? An anarchist? You may as well spit on the Japanese flag if you spit on my normal! For shame yourself!

The kind of honest, traditional Japanese boy who actually knows that he! Is not! An innocent! Young! Girl! How many times do I have to explain this to you before you get it?! Did you just forget the entire trial? Fujisaki was a boy, so anything in his image must also be a boy! So whether it's Kyoudai or your precious fucking "Alter Ego-chan," that AI is a boy either way! You're the one who's a fucking BL here!

That's... I don't even have a damn comeback to that. That's the creepiest thing you've said so far, and that's really fucking saying something. But the fact remains that I didn't tip Monobear off either, so either you're lying or it was somebody else! I suspect that criminal that you bow and scrape to like you're her fucking slave!

[oukime]

無印の詰めた | ひこ [pixiv] 

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█  ▌ █ ▌❀ {text to:  ✰ きょうかん} okay, perfect. ☆ﾐ(o*･ω･)ﾉ i’m going by the library to check out some more books anyway—so that’s wonderful. 

{text to:  ✰ きょうかん} well, i’m not really struggling in my classes or anything, so…i think i’ve covered everything but the math test tomorrow, but i’d hate to impose upon you. you’re really sure? 

{text to:  ✰ きょうかん} only a person interested in pursuing a friendship—and you’re kinder than a lot of people give you credit for. only natural to be curious, after all, right? ヽ(・ω・ヽ*)

{text to:  ✰ きょうかん}  oh…! well, thank you—i’m flattered someone thinks so… 

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[ TEXT TO: NORIKAZU, CHIE ]

    ► great. i'll see you there.

    ► yeah, i'm fuckin sure. math is one of the most important subjects you can take, and i won't have you failing a test. you're not imposing, it's my duty as a prefect after all.

    ► kind, my ass. i ain't some softie, i'm just not imposed to socializing with those rare student's that AREN'T worthless delinquents. it's kinda in my job description.

    ► curious? what've you got to be curious about? i'm a prefect. i get angry at stuff i don't like. i swear a lot. not much else to it.

    ► flattered, nothing. it's the truth. don't mention it.

    ► literally. don't mention it. that was a one-time thing. don't get used to it.

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Y-You aren’t?! I thought it was obvious! Anyone would think it was BL!

…But, at least it isn’t. I no longer feel like my chastity is in danger around you!

Hoho, if you think calling me ‘fat’ will damage my resolve, you’re sadly mistaken! Petty adjectives will never penetrate my armor! And who says potato chips aren’t Japanese!? They are! Inherently Japanese! Just like ramen is! And for your information, my skills at cooking are zero to none! So that’s completely out of the question!

I use -chan because she’s adorable! And I don’t! What ulterior motives would I have?! She’s a delicate, beautiful young maiden, and I wouldn’t dream of anything ulterior!

…Huhu…even…if it would be nice…

…REGARDLESS! My plan is to save her, and then resume building our relationship, hitting all the flags and winning her heart!

—Uwaa…! P-Please, it’s not my fault she’s gone! It could very easily be your OWN fault she’s gone! How do you know it’s me, hm?! It could have been you! Yes, that’s right! Your yelling and turning white and flamey could have easily tipped Monobear off to Alter Ego-chan’s location! If anyone’s to blame, it’s you!

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No. No, they fucking wouldn't! That's the point! It's only you and your sick, twisted mind that would think anything like that! Weren't you listening? He's my Kyoudai! My brother! Would you get the hots for your fucking brother? On second thought, don't answer that!

Wrong! Do your research! Potato chips are the opposite of ramen! They're as American as it gets! Plus, knowing you, your definition of "ramen" is probably that shitty fake stuff that comes out of a cup, so I don't want to hear you spoiling the name of real ramen with that trash! I forbid you from saying the word "ramen" ever again!

It's exactly because you think he's a "delicate, beautiful young maiden" that I'm suspicious of you! That sounds like creeper talk to me! Who even talks that way? What are you, the Super High School Level Poet all of a sudden? Talk like a normal person for once!

Plus, "she's" a computer program! An AI! "She" doesn't have a heart to win! The fact that you think he does just proves how nasty and delusional you are!

Are you kidding me? If Monobear had any sense, me becoming who I am should have scared him away from Kyoudai! If that goddamn bear showed his ugly monochrome face anywhere near Kyoudai, I'd kick it into next Saturday! So it must have been you, with your secret night visits to the hiding spot! And don't even deny that you did creepy shit like that, I know you did! I don't even wanna know what you were doing in there, but it's clear that you're to blame!

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Aaaaah!!! Don’t say that! She’s so much more than that! How are you better than me, saying I’m wrong for “crushing” on a “computer program” when you’re doing the exact same thing!?

There’s nothing wrong with potato chips! There wouldn’t be a market for them if they weren’t enjoyable! The mere fact they’re in production is an indication of their success! If you’re too blinded to see that, then I don’t know what to tell you!

M-Maybe I am her knight in shining armor..! What’s wrong with that?! I may not look the part, but my feelings for her are true…! I-I’d save her any day! 

Hnnrgh…!! But I don’t have her! And, once again, if I don’t have her…and you don’t have her…

Who does?

Monobear?! You don’t think Monobear got his filthy paws on her, do you..?! Oh dear…oh dear. I-If we got her taken away…Kirigiri Kyouko-dono would really let me have it..!

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Excuse me? You think I'm crushing on Kyoudai? That's fucking disgusting! Way to prove what a goddamn filthy pervert you are! Imply that one more fucking time, and I'll punch you in the gut so hard your entire online fanbase will feel it, do you understand me?

The mere fact that they're in production means only that too many people are becoming fat slobs like yourself who are too lazy and unhealthy to pack a proper bento lunch like a decent person! You're the blind one if you're losing sight of Japanese values in favour of some mass-produced horseshit like that!

That's as delusional as it is nasty! I suppose you'd have me believe that you're so pure of fucking heart, that you just want "Alter Ego-chan's" safety and you have no ulterior motive! Why the "-chan," anyway? That positively reeks of sleaziness to me!

That's what I was fucking saying in the first place...! Oh hell no. If you let that plushy motherfucker swipe Kyoudai from under your nose, Kirigiri's gonna be a fucking pushover compared to what I'm gonna do to you! I need to start an investigation on this shit, but you can bet that I'll still have my eye on you!

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kiiritsu

          good evening, ishimaru-kun! how are you today? ｡◕ ‿ ◕｡

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First of all, and I'm only gonna say this once, it's Ishida. Second, I'm doing terribly, just like I do every day I spend surrounded by the horde of good-for-nothing delinquents that inhabit this school. And I'd ask you how you're doing in return, but I honestly couldn't give less of a shit. Does that clear up the need for small talk, because I am really not in in the fucking mood.

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She’s not your Kyoudai! She’s Alter Ego-chan! They are not the same! Just because she played a program of Oowada Mondo-dono doesn’t mean she is him! I-It’s your brain that’s warped with sick thoughts! The forbidden realm of BL…!

And it’s art, thank you! Ecchi is an artform! It’s been around since the beginning of time! The 2D world has always existed! And it isn’t my fault potato chips taste good, either!

If anyone around here is creepy, it’s you! You’re definitely a creep! Preying on a poor girl like Alter Ego-chan…it’s disgusting! Just because she looked like Oowada Mondo-dono for one second..! Don’t you have any decency!? What’s dead is dead! 

—Wait…

You…you really don’t have her?! Then who does?! Who else would have her?! I find you to be hiiighly suspicious, Ishimaru Kiyotaka-dono!

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No, no, I'm pretty sure that the guy who's fucking crushing on a goddamn computer program is the one with the sicker thoughts here! And don't drag me into your goddamn greasy orgy of perverted manga tropes! Unlike you, I'm not inclined to waste my precious brain cells on this "BL" and "2D" bullshit!

Fuck potato chips! Potato chips are to food what idol groups are to music, and they don't even have the benefit of being sweet! They're just oily-ass slivers of what I suspect isn't even real potato! Although I guess this is a good example of the saying "you are what you eat!"

I'm preying?! You're the one who's so intent on yanking her away from my "dastardly clutches," so who's the predator here? What, you think you're some kind of knight in shining fucking armour? The only armour you have is made of the disgusting otaku fantasies that keep you so separated from reality that you think you can date a goddamn AI!

I could say the same thing to you! Shoving all the blame on me, away from yourself... that's typical culprit behaviour, is what that is! You're just as suspicious as I am, and then some! And my name is Ishida!

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✙ ✙ 

—Dulled wit in sardonic tonality, likewise, m-makes me less inclined to leave you in peace since you’ve disturbed the tranquility surrounding my area. If you need anyone to validate my claims, then I suppose you should start asking, not that I seek your approval. Old Tokyo is by large, economically dependent upon me—thus, by extension, operates under my thumb. A prefect’s microcosmic influence matters little.

To answer your question, I wouldn’t bring myself to filthy my hands with your innards. 

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Boy oh fucking boy, what do we have here. I'm supposed to believe that an entire region of Japan hinges on the financial support of a teenage girl? Right. Get in line with that bullshit, sister, you look like you barely make enough pocket change to support your own damn self. Stop acting high and mighty just 'cause you're the playground queen of a fucking slum, and I'm an upstanding citizen who just so happened to walk into the wrong neighbourhood.

Well, fucking thanks. That's really comforting. I'm so glad to know that your swelled head prevents you from murdering me. What are you trying to do with this shit, scare me off? Get real! You sound like you're just borrowing lines from a goddamn horror manga!

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█  ▌ █ ▌❀ {text to:  ✰ きょうかん}: is that so…? well, you’re in luck, because i’ve already finished so let me know whenever i can drop it off. 

 {text to:  ✰ きょうかん}:  oh, um!! hey, i haven’t had the chance—courage?—to ask yet, but um…i’d like to know if we could…i don’t know. hang out sometime? study together? whichever you prefer, really—because i know you’re a busy man…but i enjoy spending time with you, if that doesn’t sound…forward or weird…or anything, really. ´･ᴗ･` 

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[ TEXT TO: NORIKAZU, CHIE ]

    ► good. i'll wait for you in the library at 3:30. don't be late.

    ►  hang out?

    ►  if you need remedial studying, i'll be glad to help you catch up. but... that's it, you hear? it's not some kind of buddy-buddy feelings jam, don't act like we're fuckin besties just because i wanna borrow a book from you!

    ► tch. that's great. i'm SO pleased that i, a figure of authority who's supposed to intimidate good-for-nothing students into performing well academically, now have a fuckin groupie.

    ► ...

    ► that said, you're pretty tolerable.

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[ TEXT TO: NORIKAZU, CHIE ]

    ► amazingly, i haven't read that book you were hauling around the other day. if you're done with it, i'd like to request to borrow it. i'll return it as soon as i'm done.

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“ b - but, you’we not           a teacher … “

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Psh. Do I gotta wear a fucking badge? I'm a prefect, in case you've forgotten, which means that I'm just as responsible for your academic success as any teacher. Now, would you rather stay at lunch, or after school? I'll be nice and leave it up to you.

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“ now i w - weally           don’t understand ——- ! “

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Basic math, girlie! You really don't understand how to classify and verify? Looks like somebody's in for some hardcore remedial lessons after school!