CONDITIONAL

Im the only thing keeping you alive

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My zeal is often diluted without a muse. Relationship and Connection animates life.

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Patterns of Water

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It’s Hard to Win, It’s Hard to Lose

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My courage doesn’t extend far enough past my nose. I can’t see my own accolades and progression. I’m not blind so in saying I can’t see doesn’t mean, “I can’t see it”, it Is a statement of perception. I still am; Codependent on external gratification.

Life is one large balancing act between selfishness, consideration, courageousness and humility.

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Just returned to a bad habit of mine for the first time in like 6 months. This is a dark time for me. Really been rough since Brasil

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I’m going to the Grand Canyon

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I want to open a few schools, or an Academy. Going from Daycare to Secondary. Focusing back on the importance of self reliance, morality, ethics, and gratitude.

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THERE DOESN’T EXIST AN EXCESS OF GRATITUDE

AND IT NEVER WILL BE, BE EVEN MORE THANKFUL! IT HEALS EVERYTHING IN YOUR LIFE! OUR TRAUMA WEBS AND RESTRAINS US FROM LIVING …. GRATITUDE RELEASES US FROM THOSE CONSTRAINTS UNDERSTANDING EVEN WITHIN THE BAD IT WAS OVERARCHINGLY GOOD AS THERE ALWAYS EXIST MORE BLESSINGS THAN BURDENS. Even when you were wronged consider all the magical occurrences that allowed you to live that moment and the current moment from your perceptive capability to you winning the race to fertilize your mothers egg. Looking at a bad experience as a member of the puzzle not as an ill-fitting piece. And the trauma is not erased as it is history, though the response to your history is augmented for you see the blessing first instead of the burden. How disrespectful of you to diminish the magic. Settle yourself. Think of your heart beat.

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Self-Loathing and Self-Pity is not a hobby. Fill your time with more desirable pursuits and gratifying actions. You’ll look up and have missed great deal of your life. Your life begins when you occupy yourself with enriching experiences. There’s not much memory of wallowing that’s why you barely remember your young transformative years as you may have still been figuring out life as a result measuring yourself by an improper standard. Please travel and fill your time with experiences and joy that you can look back to that’s the only way to slow time down.

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From Your Head to Your Toes (2024)

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I don't want to see anymore white women with ass.

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Change is only as Hard as your Habits.

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ORATION

so important the craft most of your messages— well thoughtout, intentioned and patterned, will miss their mark. Based on your resistance against the intentioned speech, cadence, tone. No matter how profound the statement if orated in a haphazardly manner it will appear as beneficial and noteworthy as the joke.

What produces the Perception of Jest vs Jewel? You’re taken as a joke even within seriousness based on the lazy articulation of yourself put as much focus, if not more, on the delivery and how you guide your listeners ear and by virtue, Mind.

Verbal Language is unique in that it takes on different meanings and character based on the tongue. Whileas script is flat and inanimate. Tongue is a sword! Focus on this Truth!

THINK FAST, SPEAK SLOWLY

PAUSE/BREAK WHEN YOU WANT

ENUNCIATE EACH WORD

MONITOR THE PITCH AND VARIATION MAINTAIN ONE PICTH. PITCH INFLECTION IS FOR SINGERS AND SARCASM.

DO NOT RUSH TO REPLY

AVOID AUTOMATIC RESPONSES

LISTEN TO LISTEN

LAUGH ONLY WHEN HUMORED BY THE CONVERSATION, NOT BY YOUR MIND (I have the habit of humoring myself indiscriminately, even within a conversation. This may create a false comfort or familiarity as internal dialog is not perceivable outside of your mind

FOCUS ON MESSAGE AS OPPOSED TO PLEASANTRIES AND KIND MANNERS (Maintain manners)

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play 1.25x speed or regular either or