Chris was…always sweet but her response isn’t what she initially expected. It was a lot, so much to the point that she didn’t know exactly where to start or which part to even respond to. Miku knew she could help out by just being herself, and she didn’t need a Gear or Robe in order to suddenly change her worth. Chris made sure to point out even the little things, at least they were little within her mind, that she did in order to help them.
Calling out to them, offering support when needed; it was enough to help them? If Miku wasn’t good at expressing herself then how would she be good enough when it came to others and their feelings? It was merely…hard for her to see that she could help someone that much, especially to this extent that Chris was saying. It very well could be her own ignorance to her actions but it was different for people looking on the outside. Miku just constantly kept thinking there were things she could improve on, that she wasn’t as ‘good’ as people saw her, nor was she always that ‘sunshine’ that people needed. Wouldn’t they judge her for that?
‘Or at the very least, I’m the only one that judges that side of myself…’
“I…”
Miku felt speechless, wiping at her eyes to hopefully stop the tears before they could fall but she wasn’t exactly able to stop them either.
“…I love you too, Chris…”
It felt like such a weak response after everything Chris had just said. Miku didn’t have a counter, Chris knew how Miku felt about her and she didn’t want to make a retort about her being worthless. It left Miku feeling overwhelmed but not in a negative light. It made her happy, even if there was a part of herself that hated making Chris worried.
“I’m sorry…”
But she was right; there were plenty of ways to help. But because of her emotions, Miku couldn’t really showcase her agreement right now.
She meant everything she had said, the words were earnest and heartfelt and she really did think that about Miku, she was amazing in every sense of the word and getting the Faust Robe was, if anything, fate in her eyes. She was the shining light that Chris always fought for, the thing that kept her going, and she just wanted to relay that to her. How she loved her, worshiped her, adored her.
“You don’t need to apologize.....I just said what I felt, what I meant. That’s all.” She did however pull her into a tighter hug, stroking her hair gently, soothingly.