In the Middle of Chaos

My name is Kip Kaizer. I live in a city filled with both monsters and humans. I appreciate both. This blog was meant to prove the equalities between the two species. (Independent RP blog of Kip Kaizer from Monsterkind) (nsfw at times, under read-mores) Magic Anon: N/A Status: Blog is Closed.

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Goodbye!

Yo so. This is going in my queue at the very, very end, and it's best there!

As many of you already know, lexi-shapiro and I are no longer going to roleplay as Lexi or Kip. We both have a lot of reasons for it, but the long and short of it is we neither of us are having fun RPing any longer.

I know that for a very long time while I RPed Kip, I had multiple problems with RP. I think--and bear in mind a lot of this is likely just my thinking--I did a lot of things that made people want to RP with me less and less, and that gave me a lot of anxiety, especially most recently. That's all I really have to say in the matter.

Beyond that, I have a lot of personal projects coming up. For those of you interested, I'm working on a comic, over at flashcomic. It's about a cartoon villain whose shows is cancelled so he attempts to find a new hero to defeat. I'm so excited for Flash, so incredibly excited, and this will be my main project as I venture into my first year of college.

I'm really grateful to have spent these past.... just about two years, writing with you all. This community is so great and so well-woven, and I'm sad I won't be a part of that anymore but it's for the best, and I'm glad to have been on this adventure with you.

I've really grown, a lot--I grew out of my worst stages of depression with this blog and I feel I've learned a lot about myself. Thank you guys for everything.

A few shoutouts, to those who really helped me along:

cdwalker: Thank you a lot, TJ, for RPing with me straight for 2 years, even when I was in a state where people rightly didn't want to. I'm grateful you stuck it out with me, and I'm sorry I could never skype you cos I panicked easily. That's my bad. Charlie is such a great character, and I hope you do more with her, because you are a great writer and an intelligent woman.

lukewren: Sam, I know I was repeatedly an ass. I'm grateful you tried to explain to me what I was doing wrong and I'm grateful you tried multiple times to bring Kip out of his low points, and tried to be optimistic. I know we never really talked, since I stopped RPing Sparrow, but I hope you do well in life. And please let Luke keep that arm. That one arm.

imnotaterriblevampire: Jeff I love you. Like holy crap, thank you so much for chatting with me and for having so much fun with me and listening to me when I felt so low. I still plan to skype you, often, and I'm sorry we didn't RP as much as we should have. Maybe it's better that way, though--better that Conrad didn't break Kip's dumb hopeful heart. It's better Conrad always has that support, even if it's shadowy.

And of course

lexi-shapiro: Jess I am so glad Kip had Lexi for this past year. Her support is what got him through a lot of bad days and RPing with you such a happy if damaged pair has been an honor. I really hope your last year at university goes well, and please feel free to skype me at any time I am online.

I'm so glad our babies grew the way they did, and I'm so glad they got a happy ending.

There are many other people I'm grateful for, and I hope their time online lasts, but there's not much more I can say without repeating myself.

I love you all a lot, and I want to end on good terms with all of you. If you ever want to hit me up, my personal is may-sparrow, and my Skype is mayachenleck.

I hope you all have a good one, because you all have a lot of potential.

Goodbye.

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i feel like a hug is not enough.

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I’m crying like a baby.

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[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in]

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)                                                i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true) and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

e. e. cummings

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RPers: Reblog if you are 18 or older

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((I am so emotional right now I should go to bed holy shit))

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And that's how it goes.

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((I am in an emotional place no one speak to me))

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THE COAT IS OFFICIALLY OFF and I am in my vest with my sleeves rolled up

it's time to party

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I ain't even mad bro.

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((I CANT FIND ANY HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER FINALE GIFSETS BUT THEY ARE SO ACCURATE TO THIS BLOG RIGHT NOW WHY))

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[/Aaaw Charlie, if Hanna was gone, you’d feel it. You’d know it. And you wouldn’t be here you’d be gone and that’s why Kip never gives up on you.

He stares at her for a long moment, and then pulls her in. One last hug. Very last hug.]

You’re a good mom.

Stay safe.

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[She hugs him tightly, even if it does hurt a bit. Takes a deep breath and sighs into his shirt before she’s pulling away and giving him one of those sad, yet sincere smiles.]

I will.

Love you, Kip.

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[/He smiles back, almost as sadly, but it's got hope in it. He's got hope in his smile.]

I love you too.

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kipkaiser replied to your post:[/After the wedding, Kip knows Charlie won’t stay long. She has a kid to find. So he approaches her at the beginning of the reception quietly, offering her a bottle of wine.] You’re going to head out soon, aren’t you.

[/He lets her take it, and sighs gently through his nose.] For the road, and Worth. [/A hand sort of reaches out. Pats her head.] You take care of yourself, alright? You’ll find him.

[She doesn’t have the heart to admit that she already figures that Hanna’s dead. Nooo Kip doesn’t need to hear that on his wedding.

So she just nods.]

Yeah. I will.

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[/Aaaw Charlie, if Hanna was gone, you'd feel it. You'd know it. And you wouldn't be here you'd be gone and that's why Kip never gives up on you.

He stares at her for a long moment, and then pulls her in. One last hug. Very last hug.]

You're a good mom.

Stay safe.