Who is he to say that’s not the case.
The rot that plagues the existing world infects the mind of Enoshima’s followers - outer despair and the crumble of civilization are only a reflection of true decay within. She plants it there - grows it and lets it fester like a fungus, and only when it is ripe and matured does it manifest in the form of death, of fire, of men holding a handful of their own spilled insides in one hand and a bonesaw in another -
…It’s only in the later stages that they begin to crave it in themselves, crave that effect - maybe the seed she planted inside of him never flourished, never took root. But an oak is still an oak when it’s a seedling. Perhaps the same could be said of despair he doesn’t covet.
Enoshima used what she needed to, and she knew what she needed to. That was always an inarguable truth. Do not let despair know. Do not let them have this.
Oh. But she already does.
It’s for that reason that Sakakura makes no move to defend himself. But the decision to give Munakata the truth has always involved every piece of it, so he answers.
“…She’s as good as they say.”
And she is. It isn’t praise. Her talent is something they’ve known of all along.
“Enoshima Junko blackmailed me. She knew the only thing about me that she could twist, that she could use - the only way she could get me to lie to you…”
He wonders now if the whole truth involves that - and it’s not because he’s still afraid. It’d be forward, yeah, and he wishes more than anything that he could tell him under different circumstances, but…
…what she was really saying, what Enoshima really held over him ( he’d be disgusted with you, you know that - he’d hate you for loving him, for loving another man ) isn’t a factor anymore. Munakata is the same. Munakata wants him.
( The point still stands, though. )
…Now, telling him feels selfish, like a last-ditch attempt to keep him from walking out that door. I’m in love with you is a phrase that’s both summoned and halted death. He doesn’t deserve to wield it.
…This may very well be the last chance he has. If Munakata truly believes him to be one of them, he’ll drive a stake into his heart. That was the arrangement they have always, always agreed on. And if Sakakura Juzo is to die holding this secret inside of him, Munakata will never know. It died with Enoshima and the reserve course, and it would die again with him.
If for nothing else, he deserves to know. He does.
“ - Enoshima… knew I was in love with you.”
That the Remnant--does he deserve to bear the name of his closest friend? Is Sakakura still in there?--makes no move to attack, or overwhelm comes as a shock. He seeks to bring despair with words, then--let the fragments of suggestions hang around like shrapnel in his brain until it rots, until he is reduced to no more than a pawn, a puppet to the endless chaos. In many ways this form of despair is far more dangerous than its other, more violent brethren--impossible to see until it’s too late, it seeps through every opening and into every heart it can reach. Munakata stands on guard, and slips his hand into his pocket.
There the hilt of his sword is dead weight, ever a reminder to stay vigilant, be ready for anything--even to smite down those he cares for most. It’s what must be done--he knows this, knows that there is no other path for a Remnant of Despair than death, quickly and clinically by his hand or in a blazing fury by their own which swallows everyone unfortunate enough to be caught in it.
It’s the kind thing to do. To save them from themselves.
But he can’t--not here, not while his power is still minute and his every move is under scrutiny, betrayed and cast aside by the very same man he’d once been proud to follow.
...He can’t. So he listens as the story unfurls itself, as his conviction wavers--as the word blackmail is mentioned, then love--
When Sakakura is done, all of a sudden he can see no clean-cut way to categorise him--hope or despair?--and Munakata finds himself at a total loss for words.
Yukizome... was she blackmailed, too...?
It’s a situation he’s never encountered before, never had to--for the world consists only of despair and its victims, remnants and survivors.
The Sakakura he has always known is a victim.
The Sakakura he now knows lied to him about Enoshima Junko.
The Sakakura before him now is telling him all of this openly and freely and for the life of him he doesn’t understand--why would a Remnant tell him all this? Why?
But, Munakata thinks, if he was blackmailed, then--
--then, what does that mean?
Is he a Remnant or not...?!
(...And,for now, the word love pushes itself into the back of his head; dormant and most likely unprocessed until later, much later.)