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So far// it’s been a great day. Got to see friends and family! It’s been great. Still have that weird once in a while fleeting feeling. Still! Still I feel great like never better. Thank you Joe, Nancy and of course lars. ThankyouAugsburg. I love you cleo. So far for now but not for long.

// ended weird with my dad but I also feel that I really vocalized what the issue was. Headlights on the parade. I love you. Might goto kitty cat club might not!?! All this hasn’t hit me yet. I’ve [made] up my mind.// ending on weird music as usual. Things are like sunniva. As usual. Doing great, just tired sometimes. Doing good. // yoyoyo its corny! The star shine always kept you warm. With noah and the guys for a bit. It’s good. It’s not fully done it’s anticipation. But your keeping it so real. Whatever takes you mountain high. It’s great. I just got back from kitcat. A sweet life. As always there’s a lot one can say but as always I’m at a loss for words. Can’t wait for the future. Congrats karl. I’ve been thinking bout forever.

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No need to think so hard about it, there are some things you can not assume.

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Something tells me I'm going to remember this, another thing tells me I won't.

I've been listening to a lot of Ariel pink but right now I'm listening to Bibio's Phantom Brickworks. Just got back from graduation walk rehersal. It's way too melancholy. The duldrums are back. But I know I need these moments. I need to embrace them when they come. I'm not sure why tho. Finding light in the darkness? Looking out my window I feel alone and old. What a year. I think I do really like winter. Hmm. I am going to be Portland bound though. I know this summer is going to go fast! Right now I'm eating and writing about music and parks. I'm going to be meeting with lars and Jonno to discuss city stuff soon. There's a lot to do. I feel weird. I'm thinking of my dad a lot and my brother. I hope I can help my brother. He's at a time that I felt too. I guess I don't know as much about him as I really thought. I will. My relationship with my mom could not be better. I should be outside but I'm still in my room. It's because I'm bored. I need to make that routine like during the school year. And I will! I can't believe it's going to be over soon. I'm kinda almost going to be in tears even though John was laughing and being funny upstairs. This music is really getting to me. I listened to it at boom island park and it feels like I am somewhere imaginary between that park and where I am now. I'm somewhere else right now. I love reading and writing. I love making music. I love parks. They are just like albums. I should goto the MOA but I don't know. I'm not sure. I just feel weird. Whatever happens, happens I guess. I just don't know. I feel small and a little lost right now. In utero. There is so much but so little on my mind right now. I feel like a freshman right now going out on my longboard to go ham mocking alone. I feel kinda alone. I wanna meet people. I want my brother to meet people. I wanna be social. I want to make parks that make people social. There definetly is a sadness in the world. Maybe I'm taking the weight off someone else right now. Everything feels simple right now. Maybe I just need to get back to work!

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I'm back at my parents doing papers for the last time. As usual. In my old room listening to this song and feeling different emotions. I just killed a spider in the corner of my room and see the nails in the walls where I used to hang my records. I'm feeling weird but fine and sarcastic. It's weird being old and going on. I just want to make music. I want it to be good my baayybayy. Graduation is on Saturday and I can see how it's gonna be similar to south. Then again there is still the summer blog thing too. I'm prob gonna write a book or album about this whole thing. Maybe like the wrens??? Maybe!! That would be cool! There so much potency in what I do I know! Wow this has been a weird chapter in my life. To be continued, karl.

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lost my wallet like a time capsule.

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Stage 4 of the caretakers everywhere at the end of time came out and I'm re listening to it and I feel weird and high about the world.

Saw John maus last night. But right now the world seems like a board game playing board.

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ILL STAY DOING WEIRD STUFF THEN COLLAB WITH FRANK OCEAN

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I wonder what Julian is up to!? Or all my old friends. Friends.

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I'm becoming more sensitive.

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The most amazing night I've had in a while

Orange light

Repitition

Urban environment

Being social

Beauty

Finding myself

Being one with others

Maybe art

Snow tracks

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headlights on the parade

spacearchitecture was released today. Its always nice to put something out. I even made like 16$ on this one!! well i just can't wait for the next releases. Im not sure if it was from the shrooms or the placebo but I've been reading and writing notes so much. Like im totally immersed in stuff now and I can feel being great around the corner I swear. I swear. 

Maybe i will write about friday nights now idk. ha I just remembered that i still have the summer blog that goes with this. Im not sure how i will be looking back on all this. or the fact that im thinking about that now says something too. 

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