MOON / * REVENGE

I     JUST     WANTED     TO     BE     LIKE     YOU     .

[kokoshibou]

@enburn thinking about the fact that yoriichi cried for the only time when he saw sumiyoshi's child, and that he did likely because it reminded him of the childhood innocence he and michikatsu (he thought anyways) shared before it all went wrong

[kokoshibou]

😳...

[kokoshibou]

takin a hiatus from this blog and all my others to focus my energy into something else. really havent been feeling koku + my other muses lately... ill be back eventually though rest assured... ill prolly come on here to reblog a promo or something and then take a break

[kokoshibou]

yoriichi      tsugikuni      .

@kokoshibou··     :     FLEE KOKUSHIBOU IS MUSE A

/     meme.     kokushibou  breaks  out  of  yoriichi’s  arms  mid-hug.

perhaps  it  was  too  bold  of  a  move  to  make,  too  presumptuous  of  him     :     to  see  his  brother’s  face  long  lost  since  childhood  years  resurface  right  before  him…  legs  acted  on  their  own  as  he  stepped  onward,  careful  to  balance  between  the  limbs  and  torsos  of  the  other’s  fallen  comrades.  dirtied  blade  is  sheathed  instinctively,  absentmindedly,  the  entirety  of  his  attention  focused  solely  on  getting  closer,  and  closer,  and  closer,  until  arms’  distance  is  reached.  body  kneels  on  earth  to  splay  palms  against  shoulder  blade  and  the  nape  of  his  neck.  and  for  a  second,  there  is  comfort.

eyes  stay  open  while  chin  hovers  over  shoulder,  reveling  in  a  warmth  all  too  unfamiliar.  an  act  so  utterly  ephemeral,  so  trivial,  and  yet  this  fleeting  handful  of  seconds  feels  like  an  eternity  granted  to  yoriichi.  even  when  bodies  are  forced  separate,  a  serene  stare  is  maintained,  an  unusual  air  of  tenderness  radiates  off  unreadable  mien.     ———     after  all  these  years  apart,  thank  god  you  are  safe.

despite  this  acceptance,  there  is  a  noticeable  pain  in  his  chest.  hidden  behind  unchanged  glacial  features  and  swallowed  down  behind  rib  cage,  how  tragic  this  all  was.  for  something  so  yearned  for  to  be  just  out  of  hand’s  reach.  there  is  nothing  to  say,  careen  of  face  away  being  the  only  allusion  to  the  despair  held  tight  within.  he  reassumes  standing  position  shortly  after,  leaving  not  even  a  single  word  behind.  glazing  over  the  corpse  -  filled  sight  while  hand  settles  back  down  on  sword’s  grip.

❝          …my  apologies.  for  not  arriving  soon  enough.          ❞

he      angles      himself      away      from      yoriichi      .      away      ,      away      ,      away      ...      away      from      the      turmoil      that      after      so      many      years      lies      awake      ,      begging      to      be      put      to      rest      .      it      isn’t      yoriichi’s      fault      at      all      ,      and      to      a      point      ,      it      isn’t      michikatsu’s      fault      either      .      the      heartstrings      that      pull      on      michikatsu      ,      tug      him      from      side      to      side      ,      offer      no      conclusions      as      to      why      he      feels      the      way      he      does      .      there’s      no      rationality      to      it      ;      empiricism      ,      perhaps      ,      but      michikatsu’s      experience      with      life      is      spread      between      only      a      few      fleeting      moments      .      michikatsu      has      never      really      lived      ;      the      emotions      he      wanted      to      feel      only      came      in      modest      ripples      ,      before      returning      to      the      endless      serenity      and      silence      of      his      mind      .      

❛      i’m      sorry      ,      yoriichi      .      i      ...      please      do      not      take      offense      .      i      didn’t      mean      to      ...      i      didn’t      mean      to      pull      away      like      that      .      i’m      just      ...      struggling      with      this      .      this      sudden      revelation      ,      this      sudden      reunion      ...      my      head      is      spinning      .      forgive      me      .      ❜      michikatsu      sits      down      ,      trembling      in      the      hands      ,      fingers      apparently      incapable      of      staying      even      with      each      other      .      he      sighs      deeply      ,      staring      into      the      ground      as      if      he      was      analyzing      every      blade      of      grass      ,      swaying      softly      in      the      evening      breeze      .

❛      it      has      simply      just      been      a      long      time      since      i      have      seen      you      .      i      didn’t      know      whether      to      embrace      you      ,      or      break      out      ,      or      something      else      ...      please      don’t      be      upset      with      my      actions      .      i’d      rather      our      first      meeting      since      childhood      not      end      so      soon      like      this      …      ❜      another      sigh      .      ❛      don’t      apologize      ,      please      .      i      should      be      the      one      singing      my      sins      into      the      open      air      ,      not      you      .      i      abandoned      you      ...      left      you      alone      in      the      world      simply      because      i      didn’t      understand      you      .      ❜      do      you      understand      him      now      ,      michikatsu      ?      

❛      i’m      glad      you’re      okay      .      that’s      what      matters      .      ❜

[kokoshibou]

musashi      .

❝ you thought about it. you didn’t quite go through with it, did you ?? I wonder why.. ❞

❛      whether      you     live      or      die      is      not      up      to      me      .      my      lord      deemed      you      useful      ,      and      we      wouldn’t      be  able      to      utilize      you      if      i      killed      you      .      ❜

[kokoshibou]

tazz      kurookami      .

@kokoshibou· asked:♡: | Send me a symbol! [Angst] | Accepting! 

After she had done so well to dodge his attacks, she eventually messed up. She missed her footing and slipped, giving the Upper Moon an opening that led to the current situation.

She is knelt down in front of him, leaning back from his sword sticking through her chest. She couldn’t feel the pain from it, the movement of the blade plunging through her having been to fast to register. Her shoulders slumped as she stared at him, her blood dripping down the blade to the ground as more heavily flowed from her mouth.

Her body felt incredibly heavy as she lifted her hand, wrapping her fingers around the blade which only caused her to cut her hand. She coughed out more blood as she grit her teeth, her strength quickly fading.

❛      weak      .      you’re      absolutely      weak      ...      disgusting      .      disgusting      .      disgusting      ...      you      make      me      sick      .      sitting      here      bleeding      out      on      my      blade      ,      making      a      martyr      of      yourself      .      absolutely      no      respect      for      your      superior      ...      had      i      the      time      ,      i      would      let      you      suffer      for      hours      until      you      finally      bled      out      ,      and      i      would      savor      the      sight      .      but      ...      my      time      here      is      limited      ,      as      is      yours      .      i      have      more      important      people      to      deal      with      than      bottom      -      rung      scum      like      you      .      ❜      right      on      cue      ,      he      twisted      the      sword      in      her      chest      to      its      side      ,      before      pulling      it      out      ,      leaving      her      to      collapse      on      the      ground      .      ❛       if      you      have      any      final      words      for      lord      muzan      ,      i      can      pass      them      on      ...      you      ought      to      thank      him      for      giving      you      your      life’s      purpose      ,      after      all      ...      be      grateful      to      those      above      you      .      ❜

[kokoshibou]

tazz      kurookami      .

“You’re more than welcome to shut me up. Might make me rethink my attitude, yeah? I won’t deny I’m a little scared, but at least I’m stepping up and facing it instead of running away, right? It can likely all be put as me being an idiot, but at least I’m a determined idiot.”

no      quicker      than      tazz      sees      him      move      does      she      feel      the      searing      pain      in      her      legs      .      in      a      flash      ,      kokushibou      has      slashed      across      both      of      her     thighs      .      he      says      nothing      ,      leaving      the      pain      to      speak      for      itself      . 

[kokoshibou]

its 1130 and im in bed on my phone but i really wanted to write up a basic idea of how a swapped michikatsu would act because me and @enburn are working (we havent started ngl LFNKGKDK) on a human michikatsu/demon yoriichi au so...

most of kokushibou's anger comes from trying to cover up his self hatred and sadness but without that transformation he doesn't really hide it. michikatsu is really melancholic quiet individual who tends to keep to himself. however, his views on hierarchy remain; he sees himself as the samurai that all must learn from, and he doesn't possess empathy; instead, its just pity. michikatsu never feels a "i'm sorry"; it's more a "i'm sorry for them". michikatsu still uses the breath of the moon because even taking yoriichi's spot in this universe he isn't/will never be as good as yoriichi.

another thing i wanna touch on is how michikatsu goes about interacting with people. like i said he's a very sad, lonely yet haughty individual. he laments about living on a mountain but he is the one who trekked it, in a sense; he's often too concerned about his own sadness to notice others. he isn't really a good friend nor a good partner (necessarily), but he is a good father. his children (because this time he stays with them thank god) are what are most important to him because he feels that they are an extension of himself; if he can keep them happy, he should be happy, too. while he's a good dad it isn't really for the right reasons; everything he does for people is centered around himself. a lot of it comes from the hatred he has for himself for letting yoriichi slip through the cracks. he ate himself up over it again and again until he was nothing but bones and he truly doesn't have the spirit to care about anything anymore.

TL;DR: kokushibou is an introverted and sad individual who is often self-centered. he takes pity on those who considers below him, and doesn't understand or notice the nuances of other's emotions.

[stephysource]

i’m kind of annoyed at the communities belief that dropping threads or liking a starter call and not responded is a terrible thing. like that belief of “oh they didn’t reply to that one starter i wrote one time they’ll never reply to anything why should i even bother”

i don’t support that at all.

so basically, if you don’t mind that your partner may drop threads or not reply/maybe forget to reply to a starter, please reblog this? its so unhealthy for someone like myself who gets afraid to drop threads on the chance that my partners may think i don’t want to write with them, or worse BECAUSE i dropped it they won’t want to write with me.

its a bad cycle to end up hoarding drafts because you’re afraid they’ll be mad at you for dropping it. so if you don’t mind at all and will still continue to want to write with them, reblog this and let your followers know that you are okay with them dropping threads, and you won’t hold it against them.

[kokoshibou]

❛      i      thought      about      killing      you      .      ❜      /      @benosuke​

[kokoshibou]

tazz      kurookami      .

“Correction:  I expect nothing but evil from demons. That way there can be some pleasant surprises.”

❛      your      small      -      minded      accusations      of      evil      ...      are      sad      .      pitiful      .      do      not      apply      your      outdated      morals      to      demons      .      they      hold      no      water      ...      they      hold    nothing      .      ❜

[krabat-art]

have reference

[kokoshibou]

tazz      kurookami      .

@kokoshibou· asked: “ your blood tastes so sweet. “ | from here!

“Oh, should I take that as a compliment? Thank you! You better savor it ‘cause that’s all you’ll be tasting from me.” Bracing her stance, she brought her weapons up to continue the fight even though she could fee exhaustion creeping up on her. The Upper Moon One’s strength was truly overwhelming, giving her doubt that she’d survive the fight.

❛      your      lack      of      respect      for      authority      ...      you      disgust      me      .      i      am      your      superior      ...      and      yet     you      defile      me      with      such      arrogance      .      you      are      the      worst      type      of      person      ...      not      only      are      you      cocky      ,      but      you      are      in      self      -      doubt      ...      i      can      taste      your      fear      just      as      well      as      your      blood      .      ❜

[kokoshibou]

* kokushibou / relations.

MUZAN: kokushibou gives muzan all the respect that he (rightfully?) deserves. kokushibou, despite his reverence as upper moon one, thinks extremely low of his position. he treats muzan like a god. he has unresolved feelings regarding yoriichi and muzan's relationship, but doesn't ask. this could possibly become romantic, but it likely wouldn't be a healthy relationship.

DOUMA: kokushibou, simply put, despises douma. douma is everything kokushibou hates; childish, indecisive, never serious. he tolerates him for muzan's sake, but would kill him quickly given the chance.

AKAZA: kokushibou pities akaza. he thinks his endless pursuit to become stronger is pathetic, and he views akaza as someone with no true impact on the world. because he's important, however, he keeps his disdain and cruelty towards akaza under wraps.

NAKIME: kokushibou doesn't feel strongly one way or the other about nakime. she's convenient, and that's what she's good for.

HANTENGU: words cannot describe the hate kokushibou harbors for hantengu. he absolutely loathes him at a basic fundamental level. his speech patterns, his blood demon art, his looks, his personality. kokushibou just wishes he could step on that bump on his head and watch his cranium implode into itself.

GYOKKO: he doesn't feel strongly on gyokko. he thinks his artwork is beautiful, but his demeanor and arrogance annoys him to no end.

GYUUTAROU: kokushibou is neutral on him. his fighting intrigues him, but his self loathing tendencies hit too close to home for him.

DAKI: he hates her. kokushibou thinks that she holds gyuutarou back, and that she's basically a tumor, a blemish on gyuutarou's record as a demon. she makes him too human to be truly useful.

KAIGAKU: despite being responsible for kaigaku, kokushibou hates him even more than douma and daki and hantengu. douma may be childish, daki too human, and hantengu a coward, but they all respect authority. kaigaku's cockiness, arrogance, and disrespect to his superiors infuriates him. more than once has kokushibou beat him to near death or left him outside before the sunrise to torture him as a "lesson".

@kibtsuji @incrtae @pasttorn @umerot thought you guys would enjoy

[unchildhood]

ANN LAUTERBACH x NIGHTCORP

“Eclipse with Object”, And For Example (1994);

untitled photos/edits by @nightcorp, published 14 July 2019

[kokoshibou]

❛      don’t      say      you      will      ...      one      day      you      will      ...      i      pray      you      will      .      ❜      /      @kibtsuji​

[kokoshibou]

❛      i      have      nothing      to      forgive      you      for      ,      yoriichi      ...      stop      it      .      stop      berating      yourself      ...      stop      trying      to      fix      an      unfixable      problem      .      stop      trying      to      reason      with      an      unreasonable      per...      being      .      don’t      say      you      will      unless      you      will      ...      and      you      shouldn’t      .      i      created      this      vortex      of      hatred      and      guilt      with      my      bare      hands      .      i      live      in      a      house      of      matchsticks      ,      yoriichi      .      just      set      me      ablaze      and      watch      me      burn      ...      it      is      what      i      deserve      .      ❜

pinocchio’s      story      goes      ,      ‘      i      want      to      be      a      real      boy      ‘      .      and      yet      ...      he      never      does      .      sacrifices      oft      -      made      for      someone      else      end      up      being      nothing      more      than      a      falsified      martyrdom      .      you      die      at      the      stake      ,      burned      alive      tied      to      a      post      .      they      use      your      words      as      firewood      .     

❛      stop      it      ...      stop      it      ...      stop      it      ,      yoriichi      .      stop      pitying      yourself      .      you      weren’t      the      last      to      know      .      you      were      the      first      …      the      only      ,      and      it      seems      the      last      as      well      .      i      do      not      plan      on      ‘      living      ‘      any      longer      after      this      conversation      concludes      .      besides      ...      you      were      never      meant      to      have      anything      ,      brother      .      i      mean      it      in      the      best      possible      way      ...      ever      since      birth      ,      you      have      been      a      crutch      to      others      ...      figuratively      and      literally      .      mother      ...      you      sacrificed      your      heirdom      for      me      .      you      think      you      have      nothing      ,      yoriichi      ...      but      in      fact      ,      you      have      everything      .      you      have      nothing      to      show      because      what      you      have      done      for      the      world      is      deeply      ingrained      in      the      earth      .      it      lies      in      seeds      deep      beneath      the      ground      ,      laying      dormant      until      the      topsoil      blows      away      and      allows      it      to      grow      .      your      accomplishments      ,      yoriichi      ,      lie      not      in      the      tangible      realm      .      you      are      a      prophet      ...      a      hero      who      has      changed      countless      lives      .     

as      for      me      ...      i      have      not      changed      lives      ...      i      have      ended      them      .      i      …      ❜      he      stops      at      the      unveiling      of      the      flute      .      that      old      ,      yet      still      pristine      ,      flute      .      despite      it’s      condition      ,      the      notes      are      still      likely      offkey      ...      ironic      .      ❛      ...      i      pitied      you      ,      yoriichi      .      i      still      do      .      moreso      now      ...      but      i      can      only      thank      you      .      even      if      i      don’t      understand      why      you      kept      it      ,      or      why      i      feel      this      way      ...      i      am      glad      you      kept      it      .      please      remember      me      by      it      ,      and      not      by      ...      this      .      please      .      ❜