不是你一个人有痛苦

sarah, +65

[unchildhood]

part-time art ho, full-time @wifiwife

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cut my own hair for the first time

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Also an emotionally intelligent person knows another doesn't need to match your...exuberance....for a relationship to work

definitely.

For context, outside these texts, this person was someone who I got to know through circumstances that made it challenging for me to be sure that we were really friends in a real sense.

I think they’re distancing themselves from me, which is nothing new and it just is what it is. I’m just pretty tired of having hope in people only to be disappointed , and isn’t that something almost all of us go through

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First text low-key seems like they're not gonna be able to accept you. Saying you speak exuberantly and it takes effort to meet that with sensitivity. I feel like your actual people won't give a fuck babe, it won't be effort to love you no matter how sensitive or 'exuberant'

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conversations i had with two different people this week

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mortifying on my ordeal until i’m known

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CHARLOTTE ERIKSSON

Everything Changed When I Forgave Myself (2018);

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i would actually pay so much money to make this blog my main so people know its me liking their posts

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I don’t know if u will see this but…

I feel this blog in my soul ❤️ thank u

the coincidence that am checking my tumblr inbox for the first time in years to see this message

🥹 for anyone who has felt that way about this blog, it is always going to be me thanking you for being here ❤️ for all that that has meant to me since this blog first started

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It’s been a minute. How have yall been?

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something new for me ^^

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costar really chose to end my life today

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I stg medicine is so amazing. Being on the right medication that works has changed everything. So it turns out shitty things can happen, I can still CARE but I don’t have to be crushed by self-loathing??? I can still move on with the rest of my life and enjoy things?? WHAT IS THIS. I love being alive and feeling everything?? I’ve been missing out on this my whole life, and I wasted so many cool experiences and opportunities from just being in too much pain to appreciate any of it while it was happening — I should be heartbroken and devastated about all of that, and I am, but. The pure hope and healing of it all. I can’t help but forgive myself for letting me down in the past. It turns out she was always doing her best the whole time and it was not her fault that she never knew that Things really could be this different.

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Coming on to two months since my friend passed. No matter if pain and guilt is lifelong, time passes regardless and other things enter to take space. That feeds the guilt too. Maybe I want it to.