i feel like a monster.

Independent RP blog for Koujaku of DMMD Includes side muses Kou, Beni, Sei Written by Jakey

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His brow furrowed, and he found it hard to stay his hand from reaching out to brush the hair from Kou’s eyes.

“Is that wise? I might hurt you,” he fretted. He wanted nothing more than to take the other into his arms and shield him from whoever had done this to him. He squeezed his hand back before very reluctantly letting go. “I’ll go and get something to ease the pain, then. And if you’re sure, I would like to…’snuggle’.”

He leaned in, pressing his forehead to Kou’s as he had done with Aoba so many times before. A quiet assurance that he’d be back. He headed out of the room to look for the painkillers.

And, again, he was back as quickly as humanly possible with the medicine and a glass of water. “Can you sit up?” he asked.

Such pleasant gestures made him feel warm and fuzzy despite the pain still lingering in his body. Ren was so nice and sweet, a drowsy smile making it’s way to Kou’s face as he lay there following the gentle actions.

Ren was gone and back in a flash anyway, prompting him to sit up.

Could he? He winced a bit as he tried, but managed somewhat okay even if he couldn’t sit up fully, shaky hands reaching for the water and pills. “I’ll be okay, might... need a bit of help though, my hands are still all shaky.” It was embarrassing, but he didn’t want to spill water everywhere either, which would be equally embarrassing in front of Ren.

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Despite the seriousness of the situation, Koujaku couldn’t hold in a laugh. “I’ve got sexier things I can do for you then wear a set of boxers.” He stated after that, setting aside the items for now and moving up to straddle Aoba for the time being. “Speaking of boxers, I think it’s time for you to lose yours. I don’t want to be the only one baring myself fully here.” He reached for them, fingers toying with the band as he shifted back a bit to try and pull them off his boyfriend.

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He nodded. ‘I made myself some earlier, before I fell asleep on you,’ he signed with a chuckle. ‘How is it?’

Nowhere near as good as Granny used to, but hey, he’d tried, at least.

“It’s amazing, since you made it.” Sappy? No, not at all. Once his plate was empty, he set the tray aside and reached for the coffee to sip it slowly. He definitely needed the pick me up.

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“I’ve had it, but I waited a bit to use it.” Koujaku replied, brow raised a bit. “I do... sometimes use my personal ones to get off, just not as often now.” He added as he moved to slip out of his pants for the moment. He probably should’ve chosen to do that sooner, but at least he didn’t have to fuss with a kimono today since he’d just been lounging casually at home. 

“This...uh, works pretty simply... the small end on the back will be inside me, and I’ll be able to put the other end inside you. That alright?” 

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‘We’re a little behind schedule, since I couldn’t wake you up the first time,’ the angel signed with a chuckle as Koujaku talked with his mouth full, carefully sitting at the foot of his bed. ‘But that doesn’t really matter. We’re not really strapped for time.’

“We do have all day. I didn’t plan to set up shop or anything today.” He replied. He was determined to relax on his birthday, especially since he needed it with how easily his stress piled on these days. “Did you eat anything?” He asked after a bit, rearranging the food on his plate a bit before continuing to eat.

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Once back in the room, Koujaku paused in slight surprise before giving a laugh. Needy had been an understatement, huh? Though he was glad to see Aoba hadn’t stripped off completely. Once he’d stepped closer to the bed the other man would see what he had in hand; a fairly sized toy and of course a bottle of lube. Apparently this had been what he had in mind with the proposition of doing something different.

Situating himself on the bed again for now, he looked to Aoba as he shifted over closer, silently checking his reaction.

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“Look-- it never hurts to be too sure. Before now it was always the other way around.” But he could definitely work with this. Having the go ahead, uh, verbally by Aoba’s standards, he shifted to sit up and leaned back a bit. “I have to go get something first, so sit tight.”

He was reluctant to move up off of Aoba at all, but he needed to retrieve a couple of things if he wanted to properly please him in the way he intended.

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He chuckled.

‘It’s your birthday. I’m not just gonna not spoil you,’ he replied, setting the tray on the bed in front of him. ‘You’re not going anywhere all day. I’ve got a movie set up in the living room, some new stuff for the bath, lunch and dinner planned, and I even called in to work. You’re stuck with me for the whole day.’

“Wasn’t a complaint.” Koujaku moved to pick up the tray and set it on his lap carefully, slowly beginning to eat the more he woke up. Though he set the coffee mug on the bedside table first so as not to spill it.

“...You had all that planned?” he asked around a mouthful of egg, before wiping his face a bit with a tissue, a smile forming on his face. He had to be the luckiest man alive.

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He wasn’t sure at first how it’d be taken, maybe a bit antsy about even propositioning it in the first place. But Aoba despite squirming a bit against his hold briefly, moved up against him once again. That told him about all he needed to know, though from here he had to decide which method to actually go with.

“And you’re sure you’re up for it? I’ve been wanting to try for a while.” He said, despite the need evident in his own voice now. He rested their foreheads together for the moment.

He just had to be sure he really was alright with it. Wait... he let go of his wrists for now, in case he needed to communicate.

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And squirm he did as he felt Koujaku’s hands tighten lightly on his wrists, returning the motion of his hips. His teeth set lightly in the other man’s lip, playfully tugging at it before kissing him hard again. Koujaku was right; he was needy.

Koujaku shivered a bit at the feeling of Aoba pressing up against him with his hips in return, again insistently rolling his own forward to keep the friction going. It had probably been too long for him since he’d had the chance to do this, giving an eager response to the hard kiss, before pulling back to take in a deep breath of air. Eyes half-lidded as he spoke, “I want to be the one to fuck you this time.” He finally managed, pinning Aoba’s wrists down a bit tighter. 

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He smiled softly and got up, kissing his forehead before heading out of the room to make breakfast. He yawned hugely as he headed for the kitchen.

Not long after he came back in with a tray of the aforementioned eggs and bacon, plus a mug of coffee. He set that down before leaning in to kiss him awake again.

Nestled almost completely into the blankets once Aoba had returned, his eyes fluttered slightly and he pulled himself up a bit to lean into the kiss. He felt as though he was being spoiled, murmuring against his lips, “I didn’t expect this much.”

Cake, breakfast in bed, coffee... and morning kisses too. 

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He managed to stick out his tongue before Koujaku leaned in for the kiss, then wrapped his arms around the other’s neck. He tilted his head slightly to get a better angle. His knees came up to lightly squeeze Koujaku’s sides.

He’d have laughed, but too quickly became preoccupied with the kiss as he held Aoba down against the bed, lightly pinning his wrists and taking everything in. Maybe he should tone down the teasing a bit, but he enjoyed being able to make his boyfriend squirm. Thus more insistently rocking his hips to get more of a reaction.

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Aoba scowled a bit and set the cake aside, then gestured for the door, deciding that maybe he should make an actual breakfast.

‘Eggs and bacon?’ he asked.

“Mm, sounds fine to me.” Koujaku wiggled a bit underneath Aoba, trying to curl back into the blankets for now. “‘M gonna rest for a little longer...” 

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He chuckled softly before sitting down, letting himself sink down into the mattress. He looked up with needy eyes at his boyfriend, gesturing for him to come closer.

Though he raised a brow, Koujaku did move to straddle Aoba on the bed and purposely pressed his hips a bit firmly against the angel’s. “Needy.” He said a bit teasingly, before leaning forward to kiss him.

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Aoba came awake slowly, at first resisting and burying his face in his boyfriend’s neck. He finally pushed himself up and glanced around, suddenly noticing the cake he’d left on the nightstand.

Grabbing the cake he proffered it to Koujaku, almost apologetically.

“Hm...?” Still admittedly being a bit sleepy himself, Koujaku blinked in confusion before a light smile appeared on his face. “You brought cake, huh?” He brought a hand up, fingers just lightly touching to Aoba’s cheek. “That’s fine, you can put it down. It’s too early for sweets yet but I appreciate it.”

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Aoba closed his eyes and felt himself relax under Koujaku’s fingers, shallowly moving his hips forward–almost goading his boyfriend to go further. The teasing only served to make him a little impatient.

Which, he supposed, was sort of the point.

He nodded and eagerly followed Koujaku to the bedroom, reaching out to grab his hand on the way. He wanted nothing more than to return Koujaku’s favor of pinning him against the wall, but anticipation made him restrain himself, wanting to know what the other had in mind.

‘The bed?’ he pointed.

He gave a slight nod of his own, squeezing the hand in his own before nudging Aoba back toward the bed. “Get comfortable, Aoba.” He instructed, first wanting to ensure his boyfriend was relaxed and the atmosphere appropriate. No sense rushing things too quickly, right? Not that Koujaku wasn’t excited still himself.