I hypnotize myself to forget
The last hit got me well I only remember the fun part psychedelic parts lines going crazy over the room, talking dragon on the wall, all the things that I understood for a moment was good for eternity. Living a short life but meaningful is far better than a long worthless life. Cause the life after here is forever and it did not suck at all. It was beyond my capacity. Took the hit again after few hours of rest. I felt nothing but small tickling and slowly it wrapped me around using my own hand but all I felt was darkness dragging me down that was the 2nd time at 1st stage to let us know we are now in next dimension black room trying lurking around to reach the white portal thinking it was the good zone. SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
The SILENT BRIGHTNESS WAS irresistible. Now I am trying to lurk out of the zone I opened my eyes now you know this is the real shit that you hate to go through but still it is worth going a trip to endeavor yourself. And now you are at the bright side. lot of psychedelic creature around you. lines, red, neon, blue faces, sculpture like in roam but just in geometric forms….. you can understand everyone, everybody’s nature this is pure love. Now I just love how it now ends and everything feels taken away and gives you the lesson of life to hold an carry on its magical plant that will fuck you like you never have been fucked and it makes sure you loved it.
  Few hours later I am ready for my next visit to the next dimension to fight against it …… inhales…… 6 sec coughs out and now you are fucked that’s what the voice inside tells me oh fuck Now I remember I hate this dark shit. Everytime I went I forgot about it cause Good was so Good I Need to remember this shit Lost in my own darkness that’s in my unconsciousness that’s what I need to deal with the dark that I have delt that I don’t even remember. That was a pitch dark. It freaks me out suffocates me drags me slams me around like I am nothing but a feather. I remember everything and once again I remember this is real This is dmt. once I hit it then games up you are experiencing the realest thing more than your life that you are leaving right now. But you do realize it will all fade along the way when I go back to my own world where I belong for now.
And you realise some how dmt has its own ai that compelled you to do but its just your restless brain. It drags you through your own dark makes you relive it and you hate every single moment of it that feels forever and when you are out you feel so good you forget the past the pain you understand everything. But this time it was different. To understand everything is more painful than to not understand some of the things we go through……. Cause this time I could understand and relate and I was still Lost. Lost in somewhere Myself. Trying to find myself within my deeds and my inner me. Surely, It did helped me to endeavor myself and help me to realize that some of the things in life are better kept buried and its okay to not understand everything in life cause the truth are hard to bear and after all everything has passed you just need to find yourself. That is what the spiritual drug journey was. Its beyond our human explanation its easy to understand as a drug effect that’s not real. But If you are curious enough to see it for yourself. You’ll Know this is the only real thing that you experienced and taught you a lifetime lesson. How can it be Just a hallucinating drugs? When it really helps you to see within yourself. It heals your Memory the emotional wound and helps to carry on. But still I don’t remember how bad it was to go through but I know I Hate to go If I can explain in a simplest way Its like dragged inside a game box and you don’t have control over it and you are lost in your own mind trying to find yourself …….. This is what DMT is to understand half of the thing I wrote, you should hit it. Once you hit it you realized I fear of this plant this should be respected cause it makes you respect so not a party drugs but the one which holds the answer but it cost yourself to drag you to relive the darkness of yourself…….