āBad Habits 3: Ulterior Motiveā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I honestly didnāt know why my ex-boyfriend Cadric was hitting my phone up all day that day. He didnāt text me or hit me up on one of my social media accounts. He just kept calling. I was booked for photoshoots all day so I didnāt answer his calls while I worked in my studio. Usually, it would be my current fiancĆ© Lionel calling me to remind me to pick something up from the grocery store or to grab the mail from the mailbox. However, I hadnāt gotten a call from Lionel that whole day. Instead, I received nearly fifty calls from Cadric.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhat do you want, Cadric?ā I asked after finally answering my phone that afternoon. āYou have been calling me all fucking day and I donātā¦ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āCalm down, big daddy,ā he said with a giggle on the other end. āI thought there were no hard feelings when I left you?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhat the fuck do you want?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIām back in Atlanta.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āFor what?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI need your help with something and before you say no, Iām willing to pay.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWilling to pay? You want me to take some shots of you?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āExactly. Iām trying to get my name on the audition list for this new reality show for black gay men in paradise. Weāll be spending a month at a resort in Jamaica andā¦ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āCadric, I donāt know. I mean, maybe you should get someone else.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI need these pics to look professional, Marky. Youāre the best photographer I know. If I didnāt trust your skills then I wouldnāt have invested my money in your studio. Please, Marky, I really need this. Like I said, Iām willing to pay.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I thought on it for a second and quickly told him, āIām charging my standard rate plus time for keeping the studio open after work hours. Itās six oāclock and Iāve already been closed for a half-hour.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āDeal.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āHow fast can you get here?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWell, Iām heading to the park a few blocks away from the studio. I was hoping you could meet me there and we could walk back to the studio.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhy?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI miss you. I would like to know what your life has been like since I moved away last year.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI met someone else, moved in with him, and now weāre engaged. There, weāre caught up. Walk here so we can do this.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āMarky, youāre engaged? Wow, congratulations.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I blushed a little and rolled my eyes as I said, āThank you.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIām so happy for you. I had no idea. Iām pretty sure youāve noticed I havenāt been very active on any of my social media accounts in a while.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYeah, Iāve noticed that. Why havenāt you?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āCome meet me at the park and Iāll tell you. Iām almost there.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āBut Cadricā¦ā The phone beeped because heād hung up. Not wanting to waste any time, I headed out of my studio building and walked a few blocks over to the park. I didnāt see him anywhere so I sat down on some steps and waited for him.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Me (Marcus)
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOh my God,ā his voice called out. I looked up to see him standing there with a big smile on his face. āYou look soā¦different.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI do?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYeah. I mean, youāre still your usual sexy, tall and beefy self but thereās definitely something different about you.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWell, you look good, too.ā I stood up and pointed to his duffle bag and asked, āYou got everything youāll need in there?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI sure do. But firstā¦ā He dropped the duffle bag and then wrapped his arms around me. āIām sorry for this but I really have missed you, Marky.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Reluctantly, I hugged him back and told him, āI kinda missed you, too. I canāt lie, I miss you calling me Marky all the time. Nobody else did that but you.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He pulled back and stared into my eyes as he asked, āIs your fiancĆ© at the studio? Iād love to meet him.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Cadric
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āNah, heās probably still at work right now. Heās a nurse over at Piedmont Atlanta.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āA nurse? Ooh, I bet heās resourceful, huh?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āHe takes his job seriously and he works crazy hours, but itās worth it. He loves helping people.ā I pulled out my phone and pulled up a pic of me and Lionel to show him. āThatās my boo, Lionel.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAw, heās adorable. I didnāt think you were into the high yellow petite type. Thatās definitely not who you cheated on me with.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āCadric, I thought everything was gonna be cool between us. If youāre gonna throw the past up in my faceā¦ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIām sorry. I really am.ā He softly touched my arm and stared into my eyes as he told me, āI really am happy for you and Lionel. You make an adorable couple. I hope I get an invitation to the wedding.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āHmm, weāll see about that. You ready to go to the studio?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI sure am.ā He picked his duffle bag back up and we began walking out of the park. āSo, how did you and Lionel meet?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI first met him while getting coffee one morning before heading to the studio. We had a conversation that amounted to nothing but a few nights later, we found each other on Jackād.ā I laughed as I continued, āWe hooked up and had sex and then we argued because I wouldnāt let him spend the night. Even though we argued, we made plans to go see a movie and that was it. Weāve been attached ever since. He moved into my place a few months after that and I popped the question a little while after that.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWow, all within a year.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āHuh?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āMarcus, itās been exactly one year since I broke up with you and moved to Charlotte to live with my sister.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOh yeah, it has been a year. Damn. So, what have you been up to?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIāve been dating but nothing serious. I stayed with my sister a few months until I got on my feet and then I got my own place. Charlotte is nice. There arenāt as many messy queens there as there are here, but I do miss Atlanta.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhy did you move away? I know you got tired of my bullshit but you couldāve stayed here, Cadric.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI needed a restart. It had nothing to do with you. Thatās another reason why I wanted you to do my photoshoot. Marky, I donāt want you to feel guilty for how our relationship ended. I still love you and care about you so I feel like I should tell you that itās okay. I forgave you a long time ago. And Iāve accepted the fact that there was nothing I could do to change the situation.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Hearing him say all of that actually did lift a big weight off my shoulder. I did feel guilty for how I treated Cadric. Weād been together off and on since high school and I cheated on him a lot. Even when we moved in together after college, I had trouble remaining faithful. I loved him so much but I couldnāt stop hurting him and I still donāt know why. With Lionel, I was faithful. I put his needs first every single day. It was almost like Iād become an entirely different person.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āDo you remember where the changing rooms are?ā I asked Cadric as we entered the studio.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āBoy, I remember everything about this place,ā he replied. āI know you remember when we set this place up. We fucked like animals all over this building.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I laughed as I asked, āYou remember our freaky photoshoot?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āHow could I forget? You licked whipped cream off my ass and I licked a cherry out of yours.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI still have those pics. I havenāt looked at them but I do still have them in my secret vault.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI wouldnāt mind seeing them again.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I chuckled and said, āMaybe another time. You go ahead and get ready while I set my camera up. Iāll be in room B.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He went into one of the changing rooms and I grabbed one of my Nikon cameras and headed into one of my photoshoot rooms. I set my camera up on its tripod and then turned on some lighting that would work with Cadricās skin tone. I was in the middle of getting the lighting right when I finally got a call from Lionel.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āHey baby,ā I said after answering the call. āIāve been waiting for you to text or call all day.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI uhā¦Iāve been busy,ā he said with a weird tone in his voice.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āBoo, is everything okay? You soundā¦weird.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIām okay. Iām just tired, baby.ā He sniffled and asked, āWhat time will you be home?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI have aā¦uhā¦thing Iām doing right now. Iāll probably be home in a couple of hours. Is your shift over?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āNo. Iām still at the hospital. I should be home around nine.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOkay. You want me to pick anything up on my way home from the store?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āUhā¦no. Thatās okay. I was just calling to check in. Iāll see you later.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAlright. I love you.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āLove you, too.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I ended the call and suddenly got this feeling that everything wasnāt okay. There was something about the way he sounded over the phone that didnāt sit right with me. I finished setting up and the moment I turned around to check on Cadric, I saw him standing right there in the doorway holding a bottle of cocoa butter in nothing but a pair of orange and black briefs that fit him perfectly in all the right places. He looked so damn sexy but he had this serious look on his face.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhat?ā he asked me. āIs something wrong?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āNah,ā I said while stepping behind my camera stand to hide the erection forming in my pants. āYou look fantastic.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āThank you, Marky. Can you help me put some cocoa butter on my back and lower back?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āUhā¦sure. Just give me a second.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I pretended to do something with my camera for a little while as I thought of different things in an attempt to make my erection go away. When it finally went down enough where it wouldnāt get noticed, I stepped from behind the camera stand and took the bottle from him. I squeezed some of the cocoa butter out onto my hand and then sat the bottle down. I rubbed the cocoa butter all over his back and lower back. I rubbed it in and it took every ounce of power within me to keep my dick from getting hard.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAll done,ā I said to him as I stopped rubbing his back. āYou can go ahead and step up on the platform.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He stepped onto the raised platform and asked, āHow should I pose?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āDo whatever you want. With the way you look, I donāt think those reality show casting people will care about the poses. Are you ready?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYeah, Iām ready. Make me look sexy, Marky.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He didnāt need help in that department. I was damn near on the verge of drooling. Hell, when he laid down on the platform and raised one leg up I did drool a little. I snapped the first shot of him and that kind of broke the ice in the room. My camera was definitely in sync with him because each and every shot was simply beautiful. His beautiful chocolate skin connected with the lighting and glistened whenever the cameraās flash hit him. As much as I wanted to remain professional while taking shots of him, I couldnāt help but get turned on whenever he looked at me. By the end of the session, I was beyond horny. It got stronger as I reviewed some of the shots.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI think itās safe to say youāre gonna get picked for the show,ā I told him.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI think itās safe to say youāre gonna get picked for the show,ā I told him.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āReally?ā he asked with a big smile.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āHell yeah. You lookā¦you really look amazing, Cadric.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āThank you, Marky! I knew I could count on you!ā He hugged me and I hugged him back. āNot only am I going to pay you the amount you said I had to pay, Iām gonna give you a tip. Thank you so much!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā It was during that hug that I lost control. My nine inches of uncut dick got hard and there was no stopping it that time. I knew pulling back wouldnāt have worked because he still wouldāve noticed. It poked him and he immediately looked down. He backed away a little and just stared at it as his own dick began to get hard in the briefs he was wearing. Without saying a single word to each other, we began kissing and touching all over each other. I grabbed and squeezed on his ass while our hard dicks were pressed together, only kept apart by our clothing.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āTake them briefs off,ā I told him.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYes, big daddy,ā he smiled as he pulled the briefs down and stepped out of them. He turned around and climbed back up onto the platform and parted his ass cheeks for me.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āDamn, when was the last time you got fucked? That ass looks tighter than I remember.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āStick your tongue in it and see if it tastes like you remember, Marky.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I first rubbed on it with my index finger and got turned on every time he made it pucker. I then put my nose to it and sniffed it, taking in its sweet cocoa butter flavored scent. My mouth watered and when I gave him that first lick, I was hooked again. I rimmed him the way I knew he loved being rimmed, nice and slow and wet. He arched his back and put his head down on the platform floor so that I could shove my tongue deep inside him.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā After just a few minutes, he pulled away and told me, āI wanna go somewhere more comfortable.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āLike where?ā I asked. āI canāt take you back to my place. I know you used to live there, too but I live there with Lionel andā¦ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI was thinking of my hotel suite, Marky.ā He laughed and asked, āCan you drive me back there?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIām not sure I can drive with my dick being this hard.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He slid his hand into my pants and grabbed my dick before saying, āJust think of all the things Iāll do to it once we get to my hotel suite.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAlright, letās go.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIām gonna go change and you go ahead and send those shots to my email. You remember my email address, right?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYeah, I do. Go ahead and get changed. Iāll send them to you. Iām ready to give you the dick I know youāve been missing, baby.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He dashed out of the room and I bent down to pick up the briefs heād left behind. I sniffed them before stuffing them into my back pocket. I then headed over to my camera, took out my SD card and inserted it into my MacBook. I emailed him each photo and then shut my computer down. Within minutes, we were in my Chevy Tahoe headed to the Hilton where he was staying. The moment we entered his suite, we were all over each other. He immediately got down on his knees, pulled my pants and boxer briefs down and started sucking my dick.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYou have no idea how much I missed this uncut dick,ā he said to me while licking on my foreskin. āI miss how you used to stretch me out with this thick piece of meat.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI am gonna nut all inside you like I used to,ā I told him as I pulled my shirt off. āAnd then Iām gonna suck the nut out your ass.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOoh, I see youāre still nasty as fuck.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOnly for you, baby. Only for you.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā We got naked and climbed onto the bed and I fucked his mouth the way I used to when we were together. I choked him and had him gagging like crazy as I pushed my dick into his throat. Iād never admit it out loud, but Cadric was the best partner Iād ever had in bed. I cheated on him but I never wanted it to end because he did please me sexually. With him, I never had to tell him what I wanted. He always seemed to just know. Like once he started rimming my asshole without me telling him I wanted him to do that. It was never that way with Lionel.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā With Lionel, I had to suppress a lot of my sexual desires. He was more conventional and conservative in bed. Yet, I loved that about him. He was my little innocent boo that had only been with two other guys before me. Thinking about him suddenly changed the mood for me and I knew Cadric noticed it. He stopped sucking my dick and sat up on his knees and began kissing and sucking on my nipples. I just wasnāt feeling it by that point so I stopped him.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhatās wrong?ā he asked. āDid I do something wrong? You like having your nipples sucked, right?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYeah, but I canāt do this. Iām sorry Cadric but this is wrong. I canāt do this to Lionel.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOh, wow.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI know youāre probably pissed at me butā¦ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āNo. No, itās fine.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āReally?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āMarky, itās fine. And youāre right, this is wrong. Youāre engaged and I shouldnāt have pushed for this.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYou didnāt really push for it. I caused this. I shouldāve known seeing you would bring up all sorts of feelings, especially seeing you in nothing but underwear. This whole thing was a mistake now when I think about it.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWell, thanks for taking the photos of me. Thereās nothing wrong with you helping me with that.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI should get going.ā I picked my clothes up and began getting dressed. He climbed under the sheets to shield his naked body from me. Before leaving, I looked at him and said, āIām really sorry, Cadric.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āMarky, I already told you itās fine.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āNo, I mean, Iām sorry about everything. Look, I guess Iām always going to love you. Iām always gonna have a thing for you because we were great together for a time. You were my first love and I was yours. That never really goes away, huh?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āNo, it doesnāt. But Iām happy for you and the man youāve become. I envy Lionel. He doesnāt have to go through what I went through. I hope it all works out for you and him.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āThanks. Goodnight.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āGoodnight, Marky.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Without saying another word, I left his suite. I tried to call Lionel as I was driving home, but he didnāt answer. I was so happy that I hadnāt caved in and gone all the way with Cadric. I messed up but I didnāt complete it. Lionel was all I needed and I had to stay committed to him. So when I got home and noticed his car was in the driveway, I jumped out of my truck and ran in.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āLionel, baby,ā I called out as I ran upstairs. āBoo, Iām so glad youāre home. Iā¦ā I stopped when I noticed him standing there with his luggage packed. āBaby, whatās going on?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Lionel
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYou dirty bastard,ā he said while staring at me with his shades on.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhat? Boo, whatās wrong?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI thought he was bullshitting me until I saw you with him! I saw you hug him! And I saw you go from your studio to that damn hotel!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āSaw who? Baby, what the fuck is going on?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYour fucking ex, Marcus! You fucked him, didnāt you?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhoa, hold up. How do you even know what my ex looks like?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āDid you fuck him?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āNo, I didnāt.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āBut you did meet up with him and you took him back to your studio?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āHe wanted me to take some pics of him for some audition or something like that. Did he call you or something?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āHe showed up at the hospital yesterday and told me you were a serial cheater.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhat? Lionel, Iām not like that anymore. Whatever he told youā¦ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āNot like that anymore? Marcus, you never told me you had that kind of problem. If you had, I wouldnāt have given you the time of day!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āBaby, Iāve been faithful to you. Iāve been one hundred percent faithful and loyal to you the whole time weāve been together. Iāve changed, baby.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He looked me up and down and took off his shades before asking, āYouāve changed, huh? Oh, youāve changed?ā He reached behind me and pulled out the pair of briefs Iād forgotten was in my back pocket. āYouāre disgusting.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āBaby, wait. Thereās a story behind that andā¦ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI thought he was playing me but youāre the one playing me. Youāve been playing me this whole time.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āLionel, this is bullshit! I didnāt cheat on you.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYeah, and you didnāt cheat on Cadric either, huh?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI did but that was a long time ago.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āLast year is a long time ago to you? You told me you and your ex broke up because you argued all the time. You didnāt mention anything about fidelity issues on your part. I canāt believe I accepted that whack ass proposal! I am so stupid!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āLionel, you have to believe me. Nothing happened between me and Cadric. I donāt want him like that anymore.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIs that right? Well, he told me that you have these pics of him and you having sex in your studio. Do you still have them or did you destroy them? And have you deleted the pics you took of him today? Prove to me that you donāt still want him and that you didnāt fuck him just now in his hotel suite!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I looked down at the floor and told him, āAll I have is my word, baby.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Tears rolled down his face as he told me, āYour word doesnāt mean shit to me anymore.ā He took off the ring Iād put on his finger and hit me in the face with it before shouting, āStay the fuck away from me! I hate you!ā He dashed out of our bedroom and seconds later, I heard the front door open and slam.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āDamnit!ā I shouted as I kicked over the nightstand beside the bed. I almost lost my shit for a second but then pulled it together and pulled out my phone. I called Cadric twenty times in a row and he finally picked up on the twenty-first call.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWassup, Marky,ā he said happily.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYou piece of fucking trash! Why did you lie to Lionel like that? He just walked out on me.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āLie? Motherfucker, where did I lie? You are a cheating ass bastard and Iām glad that poor boy had enough sense to leave your ass before you ruined his life the way you ruined mine.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āRuined yourā¦ā I snapped and said, āListen here you fucking bitch, you better call Lionel or meet up with me and him and straighten this shit out!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOr what? What the fuck are you going to do? Iāve already checked out of my suite and Iām on my way back to Charlotte as we speak.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhy did you do this to me? I thought we were cool.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWe will never be cool because you hurt me, Marcus. Iām damaged because of the shit you put me through and it doesnāt matter how many therapists I go see, Iāll never be able to trust anyone the way I put my trust in you. I couldnāt sit back and let you do to Lionel what you did to me.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I cried and my voice cracked as I shouted, āI love Lionel! I wouldnāt do that shit to him!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWell, I considered that possibility and I wanted to believe youād changed but you failed every single test. Agreeing to do the photoshoot was fine, but you got turned on and you touched me and kissed me. You put your tongue in my ass and then fucked my throat before you even thought about Lionel. Do you know how fucked up that is? You are a lost fucking cause, Marcus! Once a cheater, always a cheater.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āFuck you! You faggot ass bitch!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I hung up on him and threw my phone against the wall before breaking out into a crazed fit. I tore the bedroom up and punched several holes in the wall. In all my frustration and anger, I realized Cadric was right. I only had myself to blame. Coming to terms with that realization took me into an even darker place. I needed serious help and I didnāt know where to start. All I knew was that everything wasnāt going to be okay and my life had been changed forever.
[Disclaimer]: Pictures used do not reflect the sexuality or personality of people in the pictures. They only serve as visual examples of the characters.
Ā© D.A. Morrison 2018











