S U P E R G I R L

Hi there! I'm Anne ≧◠◡◠≦ California girl living in a bizarre planet called Earth. "Believe you can and you're halfway there."

[l0veanne]

I took this photo and had to remind myself today that flowers can bloom amongst thorns, so will I.

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Occurred exactly 1 month since my last text post.. It was a rough month but the days are better now, since week 3 of the 49 days. Different prayers for a different path.

It’s been an emotionally hard start for 2021.

[l0veanne]

May 1, 2020 | Orchids from my backyard

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Just last week, I felt that I could breathe a little bit again but within 3 days, since Thursday, I feel like I’m turning to my prayers once more for solace. The news didn’t hit me until earlier today, when I heard it again in person and an overwhelming sadness took over.. I could barely say two words before my voice cracked. Why is the inevitable so painful? These are the times I wished I didn’t let my emotions control me and that I could hold it in. But life happens right? We just need to count our blessings thus far, keep praying and let life run its course with Buddha along side with us.

[l0veanne]

The last two and a half months have been rough trying to process everything. It sucked coming into 2021 with life changing news and dealing with my own personal issues but Lunar New Year came full of blessings. I’m extremely grateful and feel like I can finally breathe a bit more now. Although there’s more to come, I’m praying and hoping for the best.

[therecollection]

don’t question and make excuses for people who continuously show you their true colors

[l0veanne]

living life through a series of filters

[selectables]

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I allowed myself to momentarily forget but when the memories resurfaced, joking about it didn’t make it hurt any less.. )’; Why?!!? I thought I was done asking myself why when the million answers I’m coming up with only takes me on an emotional roller coaster. Welp, I just need to make peace with it.

[l0veanne]

Everyone has their own outlook and opinions on certain things so one comment may come off as offensive to one but another may only see it as a joke, whether or not it may be ill mannered. But when someone makes a report to HR because of an inappropriate comment, who are you to invalidate that by simply saying “wtffff. I mean tbh, so and so is worse than that”...?! As someone of the same sex, shouldn’t words be more carefully chosen and what ever happened to women supporting other women? And then reading the response of “that’s what I said” from the opposite sex just made it worse..I was absolutely shocked. Someone else being worse does not make the other acceptable?? You can not compare nor should you invalidate her. How she feels is how she feels and your opinions don’t matter.

I’ve heard horrible exchanges regarding others in the work place that shocked me and I’ve come to realize that the “workplace culture” is somewhat different than the average one. It makes me question if such exchanges are just mere concepts of dark humor to get through the day or their true feelings and thoughts. But even dark humor has its boundaries doesn’t it? Then again, I never understood dark humor since it’s all callous and rude to me. I wonder if it has to do with the years on the job.. I just hope their loved ones will never be subjected to such words. And when I’ve come across rude exchanges between colleagues, it shocks me too but I’m probably sheltered as a doc made me aware that there are more callous and much more rude exchanges he’s seen in NY when he worked there.. Sighh, work.. ://

[l0veanne]

Hurt? Disappointed? Shocked? Confused? I don’t know how to describe what it is I’m feeling but I wish I was ignorant or maybe even oblivious..yet, at the same time, I’m thankful that I’m not?! I’ve given myself so many excuses and tried so hard to rationalize something because I wanted to believe so much.. but you can’t force something and Mars is definitely in retrograde.

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night time solace

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TGIF

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sunrise in Santorini

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Life goes by so quickly; and sometimes, the future scares me a bit.. Anywho, new life update is that I’m no longer working as an EMT but now working in the ER. Applying for school again is so nerve racking arrghhs.. On another note, last summer two summers ago, my sister and I also had the chance to take my mom on a Europe trip. I revisited the same countries for my momma but added London, Athens and Santorini.

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Logging on a year later and I realized I never finished this post about the summer trip, it’s been sitting in my drafts ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (to be continued..)

[l0veanne]

Note to self: Never let anyone invalidate your feelings. But don’t let your feelings consume you.

[thegirlwhocrieswolf]

What lessons did you learn this year? xo Lang

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