is this thing on?
I've been thinking about my early days on Tumblr and how myself and my peers used this space as an open diary...it really gave IYKYK - just being vulnerable for all the world to see - what a revolutionary moment. The collective healing. The sharing. Im still hella inspired by that. That's what artists do - a subtle affirmation that everyone has the capacity to be an artist as long as they have the capacity to share. Simply expressing yourself - of course it's healing for yourself, but also healing for so many others! It really could all be so simple. Now my mind drifts off to marvel at how we've become such scarce beings....? I have to check myself often when it comes to a natural scarcity mentality. That's how I was raised. There seem to have never been enough of anything, and thus making me really hold on to the things I have, and think twice before I offer to share my things. Something tells me that scarcity really effects folks from poverty who are trying to play the capitalist game, because on the other hand, those from the hood and immigrants have such a beautiful system of mutual aid that I believe is beneficial for everyone. I have my yellow candle lit, I've been in conversation with the ancestors. I'm manifesting financial stability and freedom for myself, my family, and honestly the entire black American population. We've been on the bottom of the totem pole economically for hundreds of years at this point. There's no way the reason being is because we're all lazy or a lack of financial literacy. I've been working non-stop since the age go 14, while also securing an education. I know I'm not alone in achieving such things, and I also know I'm not alone in still struggling to afford to live. We're in a constant state of warfare and war is EXPENSIVE. I'm praying tho! I'm praying for freedom, and on top of those prayers I'm studying, Im auditioning, Im recording, Im conceptualizing, I'm creating, creating, creating because that's why I was brought to this realm. I've gotten quite far by staying committed to being a thorough creative, somehow everything I need falls into place and I am able to still create the things that I'm imagining. I would love for this process to feel a little bit less stressful and financially secure, however I know this pressure can also make me stronger. It's either get stronger or implode. Fear is so unproductive. Understanding that everything is energy, and your awareness is your reality... Like you mean to tell me that the key is to actually be so delusional to the point where everything that you're dreaming of can come if you simply make it your awareness. I can't remember who it was that said this, but the universe will give you things based on WHO YOU ARE. So if I am clear with who I am as an artist, an actor/singer + a loving/compassionate/community member - that is when the universe will give me the things conducive to that identity. Again it all seems to simple, but really so complex.
Whoever created this current system we're living in is so sinister. I want my round frfr......
