[thecollectibles]

Art by Robbie Aldis

[lazyandtiredatthesametime]

Reunion 5 years later

Yesterday at the university...I've seen an old close friend of mine for the first time in 5 years since the quarantine...let me say how emotional that was, all build up that tears that didn't want to come out but body felt how heavy and long it has been and then it felt like that feeling of not seeing each other for 5 years were all washed away once we've hugged and somehow it felt like it was only last week since we've last ate lunch together when we were still teens.

Even shared an umbrella together while it was raining hard, ate lunch together once again as if no time had passed, and catching up with each others lives and reminiscing good old times, oh how I LOVED that feeling of being remembered and remembering something I've almost forgotten, or being in someone's thoughts just because they saw something that reminded of us back then.

And then being added to the reunion group chat that that one guy classmate I had memorable moments with had made but blocked me on IG a couple of months ago.

Man I'd cry as second, honestly, not seeing your old friends for 5 years and suddenly you see their teenage features turning into a young gentlemen/lady is so oddly specific kind of way to feel about how time had passed us by without knowing how long it really has been, from 15 to 21.

[ether--net]

[thecollectibles]

Art by lei min

[lazyandtiredatthesametime]

What should a girl even do in this situation of wanting to drop out from a toxic college environment where I only wanted to learn something new and finally found what it was postponing for to learn, to not wanting to let that passion get crushed again by some weird teachers wanting to put you down. But once dropout, I have to find a job, or something to keep me busy, so why am I scared of doing what I wanted?

[flickrat]

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[lazyandtiredatthesametime]

I still don't know how to use Tumblr in an aesthetically way, so I'm here using it as a messy sketchbook instead. Someday I'll learn how to code...

[just-a-girl-07]

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[lamignonette]

[smugcomputer]

aquarium screensaver

[lazyandtiredatthesametime]

Anywho, I feel like I just want to do cozy interior designs and that's it, hence my love for the sims 4 and ACNH, happy home paradise here comes my money baby.

[lazyandtiredatthesametime]

drenched

what a day, I thought this one would be like satisfying in a way of not expecting so much which I haven't had in mind, rather, curious of what it would be like once I get inside the place I felt like going to since the last time I've visited, over 2 years ago or so...wanted to surprise visit an old teacher...but she wasn't there, and when I came back home I found my water bottle empty when I haven't even tried a sip out of it before leaving, in case of saving up extra thirst after all that talking (which didn't even happen), but instead it was my fav book (the seven years slip fyi) that was dehydrated. now I'm at the verge of crying very hard because this isn't the first time that something like this has happened. first my sims 4 gameplay, everything's gone after the update + deleted every-single-thing to save up extra storage for the exams and assignments had to do online, but at the end I couldn't send the assignment because internet felt like saying no on that day, and then the therapy-app "stoic", I had to delete 3 years worth of the healing journey for extra storage for downloading apps the college suggested...and then the sd card with over 1k photos, crashed, two weeks before the jury exam. AND NOW THE TEACHERS THREATENING ME WITH SUSPENDING ME FOR SIX YEARS IF I DON'T DO WHAT THEY DEMAND??? heck they've been sending mails back and forth "hello, please contact me." "hello, please do contact me. kind regards, (whole full name, job, number of their phone, school name, personal email, logo)"??? at midnight? seriously?

[lazyandtiredatthesametime]

I've finally learned how to play the instrumental audio on my keyboard lets go. thank u random yt man I've found on YouTube. its past 10pm, and it only took me 4 tries #flex

[lazyandtiredatthesametime]

prom who?

I wonder how I will ever get to experience prom, sometimes I even wonder what if I've never switched schools, bc I didn't get to experience that once-in-a-lifetime moment bc of studying arts and all the budget we had was used for our graduation exhibition without knowing we had a budget in the first place.

but I know I'd have the funnest time ever, I just know it, and the prettiest even, a princess walking down the aisle.

I've seen all the photos and clips from the previous school's prom ball...and sometimes I wonder if maybe there's something greater n bigger than the prom I didn't get...even though I wish it could've been an experience with the people I've been used to be around with during my entire childhood, to complete a missing chapter of the childhood I had to leave of.

[lazyandtiredatthesametime]

back in 2019

sometimes I wonder if my ol' classmates & childhood friends still remember me and if they also reminisce those good days before 2020. Especially around this period of time in autumn-winter, because there's this odd feeling of back then, after classes ended somewhere around 5pm and it was still dark outside and one time a classmate of mine wanted to like accompanying me home for no reason with his bike. And so we rode towards my house (which was his first time ever, I remember that) and somehow he was in front of me like 1meter away as if he was guiding my own route?? but kept looking behind and asked "which way now?". I asked him if he was perhaps bored and didn't know what to do after school and thats why he went with me or if he was that curious to see why I almost always came as last in class, but no....nothing of that.

(spoiler: he said because it was too dark outside for me and "just"felt like it.)

And he said go inside so he could take off but it was too cold and I was stunned because I thought he had left already but no, he was waiting, and I said no you go back first bc its too cold to stay waiting for me to find my keys, but he stood there waiting anyway, and the moment I opened the door, we waved each other bye, and I yelled u better text me when you get back home or else I'd worry, and he said don't worry about it, and I acted as if I went inside, and he took off and I went back outside to see him SPEEDING WITH HIS BIKE as if someone was running after him, that was one of the funniest sight I've ever seen of him. and yeah, that was the moment I knew he was actually a good guy outside of school, and also the moment we were starting to become closer. I wonder if he's fine, we've seen each other coincidentally these last 2 years and it felt like no time had passed but he acted quite distant but still remembered random information I've told him years ago before I've moved away.

(spoiler: he blocked me a couple of months ago though...I do wonder why, but yeah.)

sighhh those moments felt like a movie scene with that navy dark blue sky, warm lights guiding the path on empty streets but houses were lit inside, interiors were decorated for either halloween or Christmas...to be young again man, to cherish that moment once again please.

[tuckedinbugw]

Nothing like holding my love

[lazyandtiredatthesametime]

that voice. I had to sigh and nod