The Carefree Sima

"Hello, I am Sima Zhao, son of Lord Sima yi! I welcome you! ((Independent RP blog for Sima Zhao from the Dynasty warriors series. Very friendly mun, be not afraid of saying hi!)) M!A: None OC friendly

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  "Why not?”

[lazysimazhao]

"You only like him because of his looks. Besides, he is DEAD. He died around ten years before your birth or something."

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"Hee. He is cute~"

[lazysimazhao]

"Lady Jingzhao. NO."

[imperial-babysitter-blog]

  "Then that leaves spring and autumn for us to do things while you hibernate! I’m getting big enough that I can take care of myself without having to be watched. I’m sure since it’s pretty peaceful right now, Father wouldn’t be against it completely."

"Still…" He couldn’t get over the fear of it. Fire was difficult to control, and burning. It was used so often in battles, and destroyed fields, caused shortages of food, and everything. He never really saw anything good come out of fire.

"It still scares me…" That was one thing that would never change. His undiscovered element would be the thing that terrifies him the most, and only feed into his anxiety and insatiable urge to pick up a room… he was alright now, though. "Say, Zhao… think we can go into town today? To market? I’ve always wanted to see for myself how they work and everything!"

[lazysimazhao]

"I guess so, I do not really mind those seasons. At least not for now, I can't figure out anything that makes me dislike it."  "I know. " Of course, he wasn't found of fire himself, but he knew the little one next to him feared it even more because of obvious reasons. He ruffled through his brothers hair, carefully to not ruin it in any way and make it stay at place. "Ah, sure, we can do that! I have some things I need to get too, so we can take a look there!"

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Unanswered | (PAST RP/CLOSED for lazysimazhao) Sima Jingzhao and Sima Zhao

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  "But I can’t [see] him, Baba…the sky is too…" Her little voice drowned in sobs, tiny figure shaking as the tears fell, unrelenting.

“…it’s too big.”

And she was too small.

Too small to do anything. 

Too small to help in her family’s affairs.

Too small to carry a sword.

Too small to save her best friend.

[lazysimazhao]

"He will shine the brightest, just for you, Meigui, you will always see him, and he will watch over you..." Arms quickly around the tiny body, having a protective hold around her. He wouldn't let go, just let her cry for as long as she needed. Work, the future, such things did not matter at the moment. Neither could help the little one, but he was certain she was already blaming herself from the loss of her friend, just as much as he was blaming himself. This world is a cruel place.

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Unanswered | (PAST RP/CLOSED for lazysimazhao) Sima Jingzhao and Sima Zhao

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  A moment of heavy silence fell upon father and daughter.

Sky blue hues looked wide into warm brown, quivering and leaking crystal tears, trickling their course down her round cheek.

Never see him again?

Never?

Never?

Forever?

It was so hard to find friends already. And through it all, she’d always counted on that tiny little figure, even tinier than hers, and those dull cyan eyes, searching hers in silent excitement, passing a block, or a doll, or a toy bat, or-

“…But he’s somewhere-” She continued to plead, little hands holding onto his larger one, that had been caressing her cheek.

"He didn’t just go-” There had to be part of him, part of his spirit, part of who he was, still here. In Luoyang. In Cao Wei. In this whole, wide world. 

[lazysimazhao]

He let her take it in. It was horrible to watch it all. To lose a friend, someone dear to you, he knew how it felt like. He was worn out from all the ones he had lost, but, there was something he wished for more... It was for his children to be happy. For them to have friends who would stay close to them, never leaving them, making them smile when he couldn't be there.. He had failed, once more, to prevent this. "...He's one with the stars now."

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  "I know you would if you could, āgē. You’d sleep for all winter like pandas! And then wake up and be perfectly okay.” Another thing he learned about in his lessons: Hibernation.

"No. I’m like Father, but not as cold as he seems… That’s why ice fits him. It’s beautiful and ordered, structured and pristine, but oh so very cold… yet it can be refreshing on a hot day." Truly, he had most of the good parts he knew and thought about. "Some elements just have more good than bad, and some have more bad than good." Now he stopped and flicked his gaze downwards.

"I don’t… I don’t want to be fire… Fire melts ice, and evaporates water… it’s used in wars to damage, and is very chaotic and damaging… I- I don’t want to be fire at all… it scares me."

[lazysimazhao]

"I would sleep all winter and summer. Because the heat is a bother, and so is the cold. I would awaken for fun times with you and good things, of course!" It had always been one of his dreams to make that wish come true. "Fire?" he tilted his head. Mostly, only those in Wu had such a burning element, for anyone in the kingdom of Wei to have something like that was unusual. But, he just smiled to his brother. "Fire is nice too. It's soothing, warm, and is quite the show if you know how to control it. I'm sure that if you are one with the fire, you'll be just fine! Even if we've faced a lot of heating battles with fire before..."

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Unanswered | (PAST RP/CLOSED for lazysimazhao) Sima Jingzhao and Sima Zhao

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  "You mean…he moved far away, right?” The girl’s eyelids fluttered, not even pausing, not even [wanting] those words to soak in.

Not even her father’s comforting touch at the top of her head seemed to bring back her bright smile, or return the already fleeting warmth from her chest.

"…We’ll still [see] him-" A hiccup.

"Ri…ght?"

[lazysimazhao]

"..." He slowly shook his head, eyes turning blank. He wanted to smile for her, to tell good news, 'he is just sick!' or 'he is just gone for a couple of days then will be back again to play with you!'. "...No. We won't see him. Ever again..." He placed his palm on her cheek, looking at her directly. "I'm so sorry dear... We've lost him."

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  "You sure? You still seem a bit tired." He teased lightly, but rolled up the scroll again to tuck it under his arm.

"So if you’re water, what do you think I’ll be? I mean, I can understand water for you… while it can seem calm and placid at times, underneath, it’s churning and moving… so even if you seem lazy, you’re still thinking and evaluating things." Now he could stand up, and although he only came to the other’s elbow still, he was significantly taller than a year ago. "You’re always moving, even if you’re stagnate." Even now, he kept hold of the scroll he was so interested in when it came to elements and what they meant.

"I kinda hope I’m water too. It’s beautiful, and calm… but can be dangerous too… yet it also gives life… You really have the best element, āgē.”

[lazysimazhao]

"Now now, I don't sleep all the time! I would if I could though." A chuckle, and a completely honest answer. "Well, there are a lot of elements around here. We have ice, but you are not close to be something like that. Water is something I can see you with, we are somewhat similar even if you are more eager and active than me, Didi." He thought about it, thunder didn't seem like a fitting element either, his little brother did not seem to be within that element. "There is always something good in every single element!"

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Unanswered | (PAST RP/CLOSED for lazysimazhao) Sima Jingzhao and Sima Zhao

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  Her shaky breaths ceased for a slight moment, head tilted towards him as her silky blond hair slipped atop her delicate shoulders.

"What is it, Baba…?" She whimpered, restraining to bite her petal lips. It wasn’t ladylike at all, not like her beloved Mother. And really, she shouldn’t be like this, shouldn’t she? All crying and terrified. She should be a lady, poised and graceful, no matter what.’

But even her mother cried at the death of her grandfather.

[lazysimazhao]

He swallowed, then placed a hand on top of her beautiful blonde hair, stroking it comfortingly. He had practiced on this, he knew it was coming.. But, just like usual, no matter how prepared he was, when the right deal was in front of him, his nerves screamed at him.  "Your friend, little Limin... He..." How was he supposed to tell it again? She knew what death was, of course she did.  "...He is not with us anymore."

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  "It’s okay, āgē. You can take however long you need.” It seemed the pre-teen had already assumed that something like this would happen, so he moved one of the cushions to plop down on that, and wait, all with a scroll now unrolled on his lap to read. It was a part of his earlier lesson with the teacher, but he found it interesting to read.

"Hey, āgē? What’s your element? We were going on about different affinities yesterday… Father’s is Ice… so what’s yours?”

[lazysimazhao]

"No no, it's all good now..." A sigh, as he finally got up from the chair, scratching his forehead softly. "I'm not as cold as Father, so I'm water, Didi. You know, like, calm and so on..." A yawn as he joined his side. It was not that he disliked these times, in fact, he found them to be upmost relaxing and enjoyable, compared to being yelled at for being lazy. "Even if I do not think our elements represents who we truly are at all times."

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Unanswered | (PAST RP/CLOSED for lazysimazhao) Sima Jingzhao and Sima Zhao

"Baba-!"

A solitary, terrified cry stretched its song through the darkened halls of the Sima residence, accompanied by the rhythm of tiny feet pattering their way towards the taller, stronger figure.

Aged eight and usually bubbly personality void from her expression, Jing halted her pace before him, lips curling in worry as a small finger pointed behind her.

"Li-limin-days! Days, no see….!"

[lazysimazhao]

His nose turned towards the mass of work before him, he didn't expect anyone to interrupt him with his work, especially since he was actually doing something for once.  However, there was something that bothered him in his mind. Lord Jia Chong had informed about the unfortunate death of a certain little boy that his beloved daughter adored. He knew it was only a matter of time before she would-

"Baba-!"

His pencil stopped. A cold chill went through his veins, as he slowly put down the pencil. The moment was here. He drank some tea, and walked down the dark hallways to meet her.  "..Jingzhao, my darling..." He began, getting down to her level, "..:Baba has something to tell you..."

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“āgē…. āgē, are you awake?” The not-yet teenager slowly made his way into the room and moved to check if the second-eldest of his brothers was awake. “āgē… you promised to do something with me today, and it’s almost noon.”

[lazysimazhao]

"Didi...  It was today, huh..." The Sima sighed, he did remember what he was supposed to do this very day, but the lust to get out off the chair and do any kind of movement was lost. "I'll be there, just give me a minute... it's bothersome to wake up.."

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  "Maybe you wouldn’t say that if you weren’t so busy sleeping."

[lazysimazhao]

"I haven't been sleeping for all this time! I've been on one campaign after another! I promise!"

"However! How is my little darling? Have you been well?"

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"F-FATHER?! All this time-"

[lazysimazhao]

"Jingzhao! Y-you've grown so much--"

[lazysimazhao]

Wen Yin: -training near a lake with her ice clones, shattering them one by one into pieces-

"Hey, you, over there! Remember that there are koi in the lake! Please don't hurt them~"

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  "Hey! Meatbuns are essential and that was a very VERY important mission since no one else can discover the secret power of the ingredients. And you need more study time so Paperwork it is."

[lazysimazhao]

"Oh dear, beloved brother of mine, if you keep punishing your precious 'little' brother, the baozi fairy won't come and bless you every single night~ I have more important things to do, paperwork is such a bother~"

[lazysimazhao]

[Now I must go, ciaaaaaaaaaooooooo]