stay golden

21// “Oh, her heart is so beautiful”

[lbellefemme]

The feeling of being loved

Feels like a lifetime ago

[lbellefemme]

RM

He looked at me, almost staring

With eyes bright, like— sparkling

I don’t know if I should be scared or should notice it as sign of a good omen

I know he can’t help it but notice me

So do I

Hmmm i just don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️

Tomorrow might be the last day I’d see him

Or it might’ve been today already

Good night

[lbellefemme]

I take it back

I was a fool back then

I mistook the fake intimacy for chemistry

But everything also was meant to happen

I guess

For me to wake up

I just wish

Something like that would happen to me again

Just this time, it’s true

And im no longer a fool

And this time, it will workout

This time, it’s the one

This time, it’s stable

This time, it’s love

This time, it’s bright

This time, it’s my soulmate

This time, he’ll know when my birthday is

This time, he won’t miss a valentine’s day

This time, It’s abundance

This time, it’s clear

This time, I won’t be compromising so much

This time, it will last

This time, we’re gonna make it

[lbellefemme]

Something taboo

I love you

I still do

I don’t even know if I mean it

Or is it just because it has always been you for such a long time or that it’s only been you

It’s only you that I’ve went crazy for

It’s only you that I’ve hated

Only you that im trying to forgive

Only you that I hate

It’s only been you

I think i’m just reminiscing a time

A timeline that felt warm

I can’t remember most of it now, which i’m happy about i guess

But I hope you’re okay

Im moving now, to a place you’ve never been to before which you’ll probably never get to see or visit. It will be my own place now, no more roommates

I’ve grown up.

I think i miss you today

It hasn’t been that way for quite a while

Yesterday I wanted to vomit out your name and strangle the last bit of essence of yours

Today, I succumb in the hug of it

Today, i ask, did you mean it? The words you wrote in my journal?

I’ll never get the answer but not like it’s gonna change anything that is in the present

We’re strangers now.

I wish you well

[lbellefemme]

I dreamt about my gym crush today 🤭🤭🤭 he be hinting he likes me too. Aaaahaaaaaaahhh I haven’t woken up with a smile on my face for ages ahaaaahh 🤭 🙏🏻

[lbellefemme]

Someonte to listen music with

Who knows

Who understands

Who feels

Who respects

Who chooses good

Who loves

Who brings out the best in me

Who could help me understand what union is

[lbellefemme]

I finally got an angel number not thinking about my toxic ex smthing! Yay

444 😋🤪🤪

[lbellefemme]

God,

I pray for world peace 😔

[lbellefemme]

I was crying about love

Thinking about learning French

Crying about the past

Figuring out how to get more money

Figure out how I could achieve everything I hoped and prayed for

Praying for everything I deserve

Here’s to uncertainty

Here’s to our endeavors

[lbellefemme]

Im still a girl in her twenties living in a big city, far away from home trying to figure out life and I think that’s so chic!

[lbellefemme]

I dream about him last night, Just treating me right

Idk

I was happy

What a cute dream

[lbellefemme]

By the start of this year, i could say that i finally found me… i’ll just keep leveling her up, improving, refining, updating

[lbellefemme]

I realized that I wasn’t acting from a place of hurt, I was acting from a place of basic human decency and respect. Some people just don’t understand.

[weltenwellen]

Hanif Abdurraqib, The Crown Ain't Worth Much

[weltenwellen]

Danez Smith, “little prayer”

[probuccalfat]

[votre-parisienne]

[guccipleasure]