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L ✶ 24 ✶ they/she my current hyperfixation is iwtv so either i’m sorry (not) or you’ve found the right place

[le0-venus]

hii!

i’m L (they/she)

bisexual, cinephile, bad taste enthusiast, philosophy enjoyer, overly curious individual, creature of the night

may or may not occasionally post art that i make (still entirely undecided 🙃)

here’s my letterboxd link if you‘re curious ;) i write a LOT on there.

feel free to send me asks! i love to yap hehe

(minors and sh/ed accounts please refrain from interacting thx, bigots disrespectfully fuck off)

[le0-venus]

assad zaman looks like a caravaggio muse in the new autumn brown interview

[le0-venus]

wish me luck i’m starting the artists way week 4 (the media deprivation week 🙃) starting tomorrow i will miss you all and catch up with you next monday evening/tuesday morning

[cloudabserk]

thinking about armand trying so so hard to understand what he’s doing wrong in relationships and going to support groups and reading psychology books and handwriting those letters to people he’s hurt… like yes he kills people yes he’s crazy but he’s TRYING he’s trying to be better he’s trying to be good…

[weirdlandtv]

DISCO DRACULA (1982). From German horror series, John Sinclair.

[chupachups]

Anna Sui Fall 1993 Ready-To-Wear

[le0-venus]

here are my thoughts regarding armand and lestat in s3e4 spoiler warning, duh

it‘s actually something that i think i picked up on because of a specific reaction lestat had to a part of armand‘s letter, i‘ll put the transcription here:

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ARMAND: when i had the opportunity to speak truth to louis concerning my involvement in the matinée production of—

LESTAT: not a production, an actual trial with definitive sentences of death.

A: i retreated to cowardice and was dumbfounded by your silence in the ruined tower of your former maker.

i walked the rest of the century on a carpet of egg shells, knowing at any moment you could reach out to louis and make him the wiser.

at first, i felt it was you torturing me.

L: i was.

A: now i know it was richness of character.

L: no. it was torture.

i knew it would eat you alive and, tangentially, make louis miserable. and that is how i chose to spend the latter half of the 20th century.

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what this scene shows specifically is the amount of things armand is willing to be blamed for in order to resolve his estrangement to the vampires he considers the closest thing to „community“ (lestat, daniel, louis). and not because he is trying to weasel himself back into their lives without actually feeling sorry, i do actually think he feels very sorry for these things, but because he believes he is the ONLY being to blame for his estrangement. and that by taking ownership of EVERYTHING, that will absolve himself enough to be back in the others’ lives.

it doesn't surprise me that he is reconciling by way of the 12 step program either, which is a faith based recovery program. the fourth step, which i believe is the accountability step, is one born in the same vein of catholic self flagellation (in my opinion). it is a type of accountability taking that is better suited for people who suffer from addiction who's behaviour during active addiction has inflicted harm in a one way direction. it's not surprising given armand's history with religion that he would resort to self flagellation as a form of repentance. but i don't personally think this kind of accountability taking is applicable to the cycles of abuse and betrayal that vampires inflict on each other.

which is why lestat doesn't let him do that. lestat interrupts him and tells him that he meant armand harm. and even if it is a deflection from lestat, it is a deflection because armand is actively taking ownership of lestat's own monstrous actions, the monstrosity that lestat has held on to almost as an identity marker. lestat knows that as monsters, this is the nature of their relationship, and that it isn't either of their faults. which is also why lestat tells armand at the end of the scene to either go be himself on the other side of the moon* or kill himself because what he wants from armand is the monstrosity that they both possess, not reconciliation.

which makes the song that lestat dedicates to armand all the more an act of overt humiliation. lestat talks him up a bit, calling him a smokeshow and saying that he has respect for him, but only when they are being monstrous towards each other. i think that's lestat’s way of saying that, again, he is doing this because he wants to, not in reaction to what armand has done. lestat is also probably doing it because armand is an easier target to him than gabriella, and so it's a redirection of anger, not all that different from what happened in paris.

god these bitches are messy but i love them but i also want them to stop fighting and kiss.

[shinjiaratani]

Light at an old Japanese house, Nowhere but Hayama

©Shinji Aratani

[phantomofthehoepera]

I want the record to state I have never been this hard in my entire life

[nicostiel]

He's doing so well

[chicalepidopterareblogs]

I don't think it's a coincidence that the Fang Gang and Gen Z vampires in the show are being portrayed as susceptible to propaganda and longing for the good old regressive puritanical ways of the Children of Darkness, now that irl fascism is on the rise esp among younger generations.

I usually don't like meta commentary on fandom, but I am enjoying it in this show. The writers know the fandom quite well.

This! I love that the show basically said that haircuts and pronouns are not a passport out of religious fundamentalism and some of the fandom didn't take the hint and took it as an offense

[oddbookreport]

I think this is actually a super class sensitive read in a cool way. It’s a bit of a joke to say that count dracula wasn’t like that because he was a vampire, he was like that because he was a count, and we see that dramatically with the generational clashes between the vampires in iwtv. The Fang Gang run a dive bar. Bruce lives in a modest tumbledown victorian with roommates. These are people who were extremely recently dealing with generational poverty suddenly granted access to far more power than their former human peers, but who lack the abilities of older vampires both in magic but also in access to wealth.

They resent the political order of the older vampires because the aesthetics and the resources that make up that order and pursuant lifestyle are inaccessible to them, and use vampire fascism to strike back at the vampire elite.

I think it’s a particularly apt metaphor because although it’s true that Lestat and Louis think that the great conversion is dumb, they don’t see it as “their problem” to stop. Vampires like Bruce on the other hand see vampires like Louis and Lestat as behaving wrong, they just want to rub the aristocrats noses in shit and then take their place. Also, whoever wins, you lose.

[le0-venus]

whoever is singing the harmony on the chorus of ‚why do i have to feel?’ girl come out get your flowers those harmonies are a feast for the ears

[visenyaism]

I ❤️gossip I ❤️eavesdropping I ❤️asking nosy questions I❤️ looking for and acquiring information. On account of my curious and inquisitive nature #mynature

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

i wish you kinder, softer days that put your heart at ease

[fagbag-diketrike]

the vampire lestat ep. 4. spoilers//

okay, so I've seen a lot of posts talking about how daniel cursed armand out but he was upset by lestat doing the same thing, essentially. However, context is extremely important, and I have a theory as to why the Lestat Concert Scene is a lot more cutting and humiliating than the Daniel Bowling Confrontation, and I will be referencing another post/person (I will credit them/it once I find it. It discussed Lestat).

It is pretty much known that Armand was trafficked. Marius abused him and he was abused before Marius. Armand was sexually abused for years, and has a complicated/nuanced relationship with sex and relationships because of it. He loved Marius, he 'saved' him, but he was also his abuser, and put him out to be 'witnessed' by others as his own little object of desirability and youth. Armand has already experienced being exposed and exploited to an audience for the purpose of the one exposing him. This is, essentially, what Lestat did during the concert.

Daniel's confrontation, although in a public place, was private, was intimate, and although his words were cutting and he did throw some of Armand's trauma back in his face, it was in a safe environment where Armand could respond, because that's what Daniel wants--he wants Armand to respond. He wants Armand to engage. He doesn't want and he has no need to present Armand to an audience, or to pin him in place where he cannot react or engage, because he wants Armand to. He, desperately, wants Armand to engage, to choose. Daniel needs that. Which is another reason why it isn't so cutting, isn't so horribly humiliating and punishing towards Armand (though hurtful, cuz damn, that's Armand's love of his life).

Now, I don't believe Lestat humiliating Armand was necessarily 100% about Armand. I really don't. As Lestat states, he respects Armand and Armand did him a favor (and this is all from Lestat's perspective, so who knows really) but this is what he offers us. What Lestat is doing, I believe, is regaining control and pride after his mother has absolutely belittled him and abandoned him and withheld her affection again, to control and humiliate him, a-fucking-gain. And ya know, deflecting, cuz that's what Lestat does (which I'll link the post that elaborates on that because I think that's also a good point to provide reason for Lestat's actions). But mainly, Lestat wants to be shiny, and beautiful, and in control. He mocks Armand's trauma as a projection of his envy over Armand's 'detachment' and also to gain control and feel strong (when he very much doesn't).

This is my theory over all of that.

Also, pls, those that read this. Think critically over what I'm saying. I am NOT saying Lestat is as bad as Marius or that he pseudo-sexually assaulted Armand through the concert. I am simply providing a possible explanation as to WHY it was so humiliating/grating/triggering to Armand, why there was more consideration to Daniel's confrontation, and WHY Lestat did all that pissy shit now.

I will probably be posting more theories. Lemme know what you think in the comments/reblogs.

Thanks!

[demonpoppyseed]

Imagine if people watched Interview with the Vampire and it inspired them to think about how the past is in a very real way inaccessible to us and memory can be misleading even when you're not being dishonest and different people can have different experiences of the same event that feel emotionally true and are very real to the people who experienced them even if they contradict each other and often you will never be able to know what really happened and how this can make repairing damaged relationships difficult and threatening to a person's sense of self

[derinthescarletpescatarian]