the broken-hearted

thoughts and images that flood my mind.

[learntobe-human]

it hit me so bad today. did i do the right thing? i miss you so much, you don't understand how much you meant to me. i didn't realize that i really do love you until i didn't have you anymore. i had the chance to get you back more than once but i knew and know that it still wouldn't work and our time isn't now. i can't help but cry of sadness. now, you're all i can ever think about. you made me so happy. it's all my fault we didn't work out, it's all cause of me. every time i think of any time we were together, i break down in pieces because i know i should have appreciated that time to the most of my ability. although you're never going to read this, i just want you know that i do love you and i'm so sorry. i can't tell you that because i know if i do, it'll complicate things even more. i'll hurt you and myself more than i already did.

you are the greatest guy i have ever met. you made me forget about anybody else i have ever been with. you took away any doubt i ever had in my head. i'm so sorry that i hurt you like this. it wasn't my intention. i was just doing what i thought was best for the two of us. you were and still are my everything. i don't remember ever being so heart-broken. 

i'm so so so sorry. i cannot express that enough to make you understand how sorry i am. i can't blame anybody but myself and neither can you. 

i loved spending time with you. we'd laugh so much and never run out of anything to talk about. i never thought anybody as amazing as you could come into my life and make me so happy. i absolutely love your gittiness. i love how you love my cute, tiny hands. 

[learntobe-human]

handing someone your feelings is the scariest thing to do

[learntobe-human]

him

he's absolutely the greatest guy i have ever met. he make me happy and i think i make him happy too. words can't recount how perfect he is. i love talking to him; we never run out of subjects to talk about. he makes me feel special and really cared about. in my eyes, he's the most intelligent person i have ever met. he makes me smile and laugh. i feel so comfortable around him, i can be myself. he's so respectful and wants to listen to me. usually, it takes me a really really long time to like a guy because i get scared that once i do, i'll get hurt.. but i trust him. i love how he holds my hand, makes me feel warm when i'm cold, hugs me, and i love his kisses. i get that funny feeling in my stomach just by talking to him. i can't stop asking myself if this is all real or not. because how could i deserve someone so special? so unlike any other? why am i the lucky one? i look forward to talking to him even for a few minutes because he brightens up my day and doesn't stop making me happier and happier. it's so different than what i'm used to. going from a relationship where he would say "i don't like your hair" "go put on makeup" "you need to lose weight" "do this with me" to now, where it's "i love you" "your small hands are cute" "we're made for each other". it's just so different, but in a really really good way. i don't feel insecure about myself. i like him so so so so much. he thinks he does more, but nah i know i do. i love you <3

[learntobe-human]

i think i really really like him but i just can't seem to admit it to myself. everything about him is absolutely perfect. every time i look into those beautiful, deep green eyes of his, i just can't help but stare. the way he talks, walks, hugs me. the smallest things he does make the biggest impact on me and with every word he says i begin to like him more and more.

[learntobe-human]

today i went to the beach. it's the middle of winter. but then again... who gives a fuck ? it was actually the funnest thing. i was able to act like a total idiot with my friends

[hersheykeaton-blog]

Me when someone rejects my high five

[thesunandtheseasons]

I was so sad I didn’t get a high five…

[learntobe-human]

do you want to know what the worst feeling is? it's when your best friend is terribly sad and you can't do anything about it. knowing that he's crying kills me. knowing that i can't be there with him right now to comfort him, hurts me. this girl treated him just as well as he treated her. she made him believe, so strongly, that she really liked him. he put his heart and everything on the line for her. he opened up to her and told her how he felt only to get shot down by some insincere bitch who only wanted "a thing" with him. first of all, you are a girl! have some common sense, please. think before you destroy my best friend's heart. he is in pain. i have known him for way too long and i know he does not get like this over a measly situation. he really likes you and look what you did to him. 

[learntobe-human]

why do you have to do that? right when i am about to move on forever from you, you come back running into my life again. why would you do such a thing? you know how much it hurts me every time you do. why would you continue? i love you and i always will. i just want to be happy again, and i know it's not going to be with you so why even try. that's why i try to move on, so please give me time alone and let me. let me be myself and not anyone else. i don't like the feeling i get when i receive your messages. they make me feel empty inside like i'm missing something. i'm missing you but i will not and i cannot get you back. you hurt me over and over again, and the worst part is you don't do it on purpose. it's just part of your character. i don't know what to tell you. but just please stop. i don't want to love you anymore, it's killing me to be like this. 

[learntobe-human]

there are some days where i just want to be with you, hug you, and kiss you over and over again. but there are other days where i wonder why i would ever want any of that? i think i'm just confused about me being confused. is that a thing? sometimes i wonder, how do i miss you so much? why do i miss you so much? and then other times i think i know why and how i miss you so much. i don't know how to explain it but it's just so hard to comprehend, even myself. 

[learntobe-human]

that moment when you realize the person you thought cared about you the most really doesn't

[learntobe-human]

i love not missing you. i feel free from your chains that wore me and kept me down. 

[learntobe-human]

I think I'm finally over and done with you. You hurt me, you made me cry, you made me suffer, but you showed me something that I want to thank you for. You showed me that you aren't worth my time. You are not worth my love or my appreciation. I am not being conceded, you just don't deserve me. So thank you for showing me what I didn't see before (:

[ajnns]

[mal-dita-sea]

[learntobe-human]

Is it bad to think you're attractive? (;

[learntobe-human]

Thinking that you love me is honestly the worst feeling in the world. Believing a lie and knowing it. Trying to convince myself that it really is all true. But in reality, it's all a make believe story made up by a hopeless romantic. 

[learntobe-human]

I thought I was okay until we made eye contact. You were laughing, I was laughing and suddenly we both turned to white. I stared into your deep, dark brown eyes and you stared into mine. Did you feel that same thing I felt? Hurt and Sadness. It turns out I wasn't okay. I realized in that very moment how much I actually missed you and wanted you.