Where was she when it mattered? How many “social experiments” did you have to do to prove YOU had to initiate contact? How many times does she have to change and get better before you realize it won’t stick? How is it you can call me at 2 am and have meaningful talks but go back to her? I told you it was stupid. You could ask if I was mad at you for hanging out with her, but when it comes to getting back into a relationship with her, I didn’t earn enough respect to be told?! Oh, but I’m good enough to call every day you’re in the hospital, a stay she knew NOTHING about. Who looked up the legal information, all the broken laws? Who didn’t run away screaming when you told me what you did? Who called you after your surgery versus who showed up three days afterwards asking when it was because it was “coming up”. Who told you you were in the right for being mad? Who told you she was the problem? How many people have told you the same fucking thing I did? But I guess you need to figure it out the hard way. Repeatedly. Go ahead. But you ripped me apart by bullshitting me and keeping it a secret so you could do so. You’re damn right I feel betrayed. I was strung along like a fish on a line only to find the hook in an inopportune place and you could only rip it out and throw me back hoping I could still swim. Don’t drown yourself jumping after me when you come to your senses...
