Going My Way

MANGO / MARCIANA. 39. Nonbinary bisexual. "She" and/or "They." INFJ-T. Libra. Feminist. Multi-fandom. Multi-shipping.

[ledamemangociana]

i'm about to make a comeback on this platform at some point and this blog is about to turn into a hardcore Stray Kids stan account because i'm beyond obsessed with them atp, thought i'd give any followers that might remember me and are still hanging around some fair warning ✌️✌️

[ledamemangociana]

hello, the tumblr, i return with three new (shorter) reaction videos, one each for the last three episodes of Legend of Vox Machina! this time with more transitions, effects, memes and references to Vine videos that few people may actually remember lmao

EPISODE 10 - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1Q302YpWtw  EPISODE 11 - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gQqtPJxtFCY EPISODE 12 - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1renBmZn7to

it’s been an emotional journey for me, as im sure it has been for most people who enjoyed CR1, especially those of us who were around during CR1′s live broadcast days. the earliest mention of any desire for an animated series of CritRole was way back in the post-show Q&A in CR1 Ep10, all the way back in 2015, and here we are now in 2022, with a full-fledged season behind us and another one already in pre-production. it’s incredible to think of where we are now, from where we started, and it’s been an incredible honor to have borne witness to CritRole’s success over the past 7 years and counting.

if you enjoy/ed my reaction vids, please consider leaving a Like and/or Comment in the videos, maybe even subscribing to the channel? I don’t have a posting schedule coz i’m very busy with work and real life, but there’s no denying that audience engagement is always good motivation for posting more v(^^v)

[ledamemangociana]

im back back back back back again with this week's reaction video to Legend of Vox Machina! AND the video is shorter this time 🙏🙏

(Spoilers and volume warning tho 😬)

If you happened to enjoy this, please consider leaving a Like and/or a Comment, and maybe even a Subscribe :D

[ledamemangociana]

hi, can you please tag your legend of vox machina reacts with spoiler tags?

Yeah ofc I'll do that, I actually thought I had already but I guess I didnt and i get why you asked me to, if it was me and i was 100% avoiding spoilers, i would too

But also

The video I posted isnt autoplay, maybe the thumbnail is a SLIGHT spoiler but doesnt give much of anything away that we didnt already know, so to be totally spoiled, one would have had to MAKE A CHOICE (which i only asked for but did not demand) to click on my video, which CLEARLY says "REACTS" so one would EXPECT that spoilery things would be discussed. Sooooooo. if someone CHOOSES to click play on my video and then complains that it's spoilery, then that's not a me problem anymore, is it? Just. Y'know. 🤷🏽‍♀️

[ledamemangociana]

hello, the tumblr, it has been A Hot Second™ :D

i’ve got a new reaction video up on my YouTube channel, reacting to episodes 4 to 6 of “Legend of Vox Machina,” come hang! 

(i wanted to do this starting with episode 3, but i wasn’t prepared enough to make a video last week)

if you enjoyed it, consider leaving a Like, Comment and Subscription maybe? :D

[ledamemangociana]

this is not a happy post

apologies in advance, especially to anyone who followed me coz of my various gifsets; i know this kind of thing isn’t what you’re here for. 

i’m unfortunately prone to a venting a lot and lengthily when my depression, anxiety and self-esteem issues get the better of me. most of the time, im feels-vomiting on my twitter, mostly coz i havent used my tumblr quite as regularly as i used to 6, maybe 7 years ago. i’m mostly doing this here now coz i feel like i need the writing momentum to not be stilted by having to click the “add new tweet” button over and over again.

so. i’m turning 35 two weeks from now. and it is getting to me, possibly because of the situation that the pandemic has kept me in for the past year and a half, maybe because 35 feels like a milestone adult age, maybe because turning 35 means 40 is right around the corner. and the closer my 35th birthday is, the more i’m plagued by thoughts of where i am now, where i’m probably supposed to be as an adult, where i wanted to be, and the thought that i’m just never gonna be good enough to not be who and where i am now.

in feb 2020, i started my new job as the digital marketing manager for a pair of upscale hotels, the biggest deal of a job i’ve ever gotten since i started working in late 2011, and the biggest paycheck i’ve ever signed on for too. for the first time in a long time, possibly in forever, the few big dreams i had ever had for myself seemed to be attainable; it felt like they could become goals. a solo trip to japan, getting a place for myself instead of living in the family condo, growing my collections, maybe having an actual social life, those kinds of things seemed within reach.

and then, literally a month into my new job, the country went into lockdown, and legitimately has never come out of it. my work situation changed drastically, to the point where i ran up both of my credit card bills before the year was over (i literally only just got one of them fully paid off last week, and only because my sister was a HUGE help), and i was living off the limited family funds and relying on dad to take care of me. i had a freelance client for a handful of months, only for them to drop me without word at the end of our contract, leaving me without a chunk of the only funds i was making on my own for a while. i’m now working sporadically at my regular job, with a significant cut to my paid hours and therefore my paycheck, but the tasks list just seems to grow longer with each task that i check off of it, leaving me overworked and underpaid (but of course,i know im not alone or special in this, some people have it far worse than me and i’m grateful that i even have a regular work schedule, even if it does look the way it does). im 260 lbs., wearing size 22 or 24 clothes, somewhat sickly and prone to constant painful gout attacks that make it difficult for me to walk, living in a condo unit owned by family because they’re letting me live here, making only a third of the salary i normally should at work without the panemic, subsisting on junk food and softdrinks (it’s an addiction) because much of my money leaves my wallet and goes to paying bills and loans as soon as the money comes in, alone, unloved, unlovable, as prone to hyperfixation as i’ve ever been, and putting up with constantly re-attaching bromides and instax pics that keep falling off of my recently completed anime wall.

i’m 34 years old. i’m turning 35 in two weeks.

you know who else is 34/35 this year? the local barangay captain, a member of the local govnerment unit, who was one of my classmates in grade school and high school. a few years ago, i had seen a tarp across the street advertising her local work-out and yoga classes.

i’ve always hated the question “where do you see yourself 5 years from now/10 years from now/in the future?” because i’ve never been able to truthfully answer it, even when i wasnt an emotionally unstable mess (which was all the way back in elementary). i close my eyes and try to imagine it, and nothing ever comes up. i’d like to think i have an active enough imagination to have been able to write fanfic a lot back in the day, so you know it’s bad when i can’t even imagine a lofty future for myself. at this point in my life, i can’t even say “just simply alive” because i truly don’t know if i will be, i don’t see it. that’s fatalistic, maybe, but i really have never been able to imagine myself living to 40, let alone past that. anything i want for myself remain dreams, things i dont deserve because im not thin, pretty, smart, cultured, skilled. and the closer i get to 40, the less of that already non-existent future i see. 

and it’s just depressing, you know. like. it’s already so hard being depressed about and hating myself WITHOUT this added thought of “you are only growing older and fatter and are headed literally nowhere and everyone your age is far more responsible and mature than you could even dream you’d ever be” mixed in there too. maybe this is just me beating myself up and being my own harshest bully, but what’s stopping me from believing that i deserve this bullying of myself by myself, lmao. 

i dread every birthday. i stopped dreaming things for myself a long time ago. these are all things i just know i can’t and won’t ever live up to, because i’m just this useless sack of potatoes rotting away in the corner of some barn while everyone else is finding some use for themselves and able to make lemonade out of their own lemons, and stuff like that. and yet knowing i’ll never be those things or have those things makes me sad. for someone with a laundry list of negative things about myself i’ve just learned to accept so i can somehow function, having that list sure does make me sad. and it probably shouldn’t, if im so resigned to all of this, but maybe that’s just what happens when you hate yourself - there will always be a reason for you to hate yourself.

oh, and i think i’m coming down with carpal tunnel in my left hand. great.

[ledamemangociana]

Hey all,

I'm sorry, I HATE to keep coming on here to beg, but with my country having been on lockdown literally since mid-March and my work GREATLY affected, money just remains VERY tight and VERY complicated for me even until now.

I have a loan payment due date coming this Friday that i had completely forgotten about until i got the reminder on my phone today. I've spent so much money already this month on other bills, essentials and the repair of my laptop (THANK YOU BTW TO EVERYONE WHO HELPED ME COVER THOSE EXPENSES, idk how i would've built it up without your help), and i've admittedly spent a TEENSY BIT for myself because i havent been able to do it in MONTHS and i thought i was in the clear for now. But my country is back in our strictest lockdown, which means im again unable to put in more than 6 hours of work a day, and that's only if my workplace has any tasks for me to do. No work, no pay. So i need to get this loan paid off in the event that i'll need to take another loan out next month to cover expenses.

the best way to help is thru PAYPAL. im SO SORRY to keep begging, and im sorry that i only come back here to beg every once in a while, but i wouldnt do it if i wasnt in dire straits.

Even a little bit helps, im not asking for a big amount, only what can be spared IF it can be spared. if you're unable or unwilling to share anything, that's fine, but i would still ask that you please reblog this in the hopes this gets to someone who can.

Thanks again for your time and kindness.

[ledamemangociana]

Hey all,

I'm sorry, I HATE to keep coming on here to beg, but with my country having been on lockdown literally since mid-March and my work GREATLY affected, money just remains VERY tight and VERY complicated for me even until now.

I have a loan payment due date coming this Friday that i had completely forgotten about until i got the reminder on my phone today. I've spent so much money already this month on other bills, essentials and the repair of my laptop (THANK YOU BTW TO EVERYONE WHO HELPED ME COVER THOSE EXPENSES, idk how i would've built it up without your help), and i've admittedly spent a TEENSY BIT for myself because i havent been able to do it in MONTHS and i thought i was in the clear for now. But my country is back in our strictest lockdown, which means im again unable to put in more than 6 hours of work a day, and that's only if my workplace has any tasks for me to do. No work, no pay. So i need to get this loan paid off in the event that i'll need to take another loan out next month to cover expenses.

the best way to help is thru PAYPAL. im SO SORRY to keep begging, and im sorry that i only come back here to beg every once in a while, but i wouldnt do it if i wasnt in dire straits.

Even a little bit helps, im not asking for a big amount, only what can be spared IF it can be spared. if you're unable or unwilling to share anything, that's fine, but i would still ask that you please reblog this in the hopes this gets to someone who can.

Thanks again for your time and kindness.

[ledamemangociana]

Hello frens,

I ABSOLUTELY hate this, but i am at my wits' end. On top of bills and loans that im having trouble paying, my laptop just stopped working, like it literally will not get past the ASUS boot-up screen, and i have a very bad feeling that the repair is going to entail a new main memory part, which would be COSTLY. Work has only just become a little steadier for me again, but even then i still wont be making enough to be able to get by properly if i have to get my laptop fixed, which i do because i need it for work. If i cant work, i cant make money that i need to get my laptop repaired so that i can work. Fucking vicious cycle, because the universe really just needs to double-down on the fact that i am a giant loser that doesnt deserve to be okay. /sobfest

Please dont mind my frustrated and depressed tone, im just very anxious and sad right now because of this, and i need help. I HATE being stuck begging for help, but this is all i can do at the moment. Hopefully i wont need much, but the last time i needed to get a laptop repaired, the motherboard needed to be replaced and it cost me THOUSANDS of pesos, and that was about 4 years ago, imagine how much a similar repair would cost now. Im hoping my laptop wont need sth as drastic as that now, but i really dont know, this doesnt seem like an easy, cheap fix.

I keep going on and on, im so sorry. Tl;dr, my country has been in pandemic lockdown for a year and a half, i havent been able to work properly for about a year, i need money to live snd to repair my laptop so i can work, i could use a little bit of help if you can spare it. If you cant or dont want to, that's fine, but i would very much appreciate a reblog of this post.

Best way to help is thru my Paypal. I can guarantee you that any help you extend would go only to the repair of my laptop and/or to paying off my bills.

Thanks very much for your time and your kindness, i truly appreciate it.

[ledamemangociana]

im SO sorry to reblog this again, i was hoping i wouldnt have to, but phone bills and credit card bills (that i havent been able to pay in full IN MONTHS because that's just how broke i am) are really piling up to the point where my phone service is abt to be cut again and credit card debt collectors are calling me weekly. I've only JUST restarted a weekly schedule onsite at work, and even then im still only doing 6 hours a week at most (as opposed to the usual 40 hours). That, on top of my laptop still being in limbo, means my financial worries are really starting to pile up. I havent touched any of the money that this post has already brought me thanks to some very kind donations because, as i promised, that would go to the repair of my laptop, so daily living and these personal bills are suffering. THAT'S how deep in the red i am. One of the biggest and quickest triggers for my depression and anxiety is my money trouble, understandably, so i am just barely holding on to stability at the moment. im not saying all this as a woe-is-me sob story, only as an explanation of why im still begging for spare change on the internet.

im not asking for a lot, only what you feel comfortable sharing or sparing. A reblog of the original post whether or not you're able to spare any loose change would also be super appreciated.

Best way to help me would be thru my Paypal.

Thanks so much for your time, empathy and kindness.

[ledamemangociana]

BIG BNHA STAGE PLAY NEWS

okay hi 👋 if you've been enjoying my BNHA Ultra Stage gifsets and you want to know where you can watch the show, this post is for you.

There's going to be an online event called JAPAN 2.5D STAGE PLAY WORLD 2021 happening althroughout August, with the intent of "Bringing Japan's 2.5D stage performances to the world." It's the first time they're doing it and they're rolling out the gate with their big guns.

The event will showcase three of the most popular 2.5D stage plays from the last handful of years - LIVE SPECTACLE: NARUTO from 2016, Boku No Hero Academia: The Ultra Stage from 2019, and Sailormoon: The Musical Nogizaki46 version from. 2019. each show will be available for streaming WITH OFFICIAL ENGLISH SUBTITLES for about a week each, starting with Naruto in the first week of August.

Each viewing is only 15USD and WILL NOT REQUIRE A VPN. you just need to choose which country/timezone and date you want to watch, and if you miss the live broadcast on your schedule, the VOD will be available within 24 hours of your chosen timeslot.

This is a pretty big opportunity coz 2.5D shows have been slowly gaining popularity outside of Japan, but also because in Japan, the 2.5D industry isnt entirely lucrative despite its popularity with local anime fans. It's been said that the cast and staff dont get paid during rehearsals, and really only start getting anything from ticket and merch sales, so sometimes some actors and crew members would do more than one show at once or back-to-back, which is tough considering these shows tour major cities across the country for an average of 30 performances. And then of course the pandemic caused ALL active shows in March 2020 to shut down, as expected, and because times were hard, some shows began performing again by August or September last year, despite the pandemic continuing to rage on in most of big cities in Japan where 2.5D shows tour, meaning cast and crew were all basically risking their lives to make money and entertain fans - in fact, some shows had to either recast, reschedule or cancel when anyone in their cast or staff caught the virus (i know Haikyuu had to recast for their October 2020 show coz two people caught COVID, and the 2nd BNHA stage play, which only got to play 4 performances before the lockdowns, got pushed back even further into 2021 because at least two people in the staff caught COVID). 2.5D shows dont usually stream outside the country, and DVDs/blu rays and merch are only sold in Japan, so international fans have had to pay more than an extra pretty penny or two to support the shows and to help spread the word internationally. The fact that 2.5D shows like BNHA, Naruto, HAIKYUU, etc. started being available to stream online in Japan is a big enough deal on its own, and the reason some of them became available to stream internationally during the pandemic is kind of a sign of how the industry needed a boost, financially and otherwise. So this paid event is a FANTASTIC opportunity to support the industry and the people who work in it while also spreading the word to more fans, in the hopes that 2.5D shows will become as much of a tenet in international anime fandom as it is in Japan's anime fandom. If this does well, it might mean that future shows will become more accessible to international fans as well.

So if you're a fan of BNHA or any of these other anime, PLEASE spread the word and support this event! I've obviously seen the BNHA musical (my sister bought a DVD in 2019) and it is a LOT of fun, i can promise that much. i know the Naruto musical was also BIG BIG HYPE when it came out in 2016, and i think the Sailormoon musical already had a beloved legacy and history on stage before the 2019 version came out. It's gonna be really good if this got a LOT of international support, so please tell your friends and fellow anime fans 😁

[ledamemangociana]

Hello frens,

I ABSOLUTELY hate this, but i am at my wits' end. On top of bills and loans that im having trouble paying, my laptop just stopped working, like it literally will not get past the ASUS boot-up screen, and i have a very bad feeling that the repair is going to entail a new main memory part, which would be COSTLY. Work has only just become a little steadier for me again, but even then i still wont be making enough to be able to get by properly if i have to get my laptop fixed, which i do because i need it for work. If i cant work, i cant make money that i need to get my laptop repaired so that i can work. Fucking vicious cycle, because the universe really just needs to double-down on the fact that i am a giant loser that doesnt deserve to be okay. /sobfest

Please dont mind my frustrated and depressed tone, im just very anxious and sad right now because of this, and i need help. I HATE being stuck begging for help, but this is all i can do at the moment. Hopefully i wont need much, but the last time i needed to get a laptop repaired, the motherboard needed to be replaced and it cost me THOUSANDS of pesos, and that was about 4 years ago, imagine how much a similar repair would cost now. Im hoping my laptop wont need sth as drastic as that now, but i really dont know, this doesnt seem like an easy, cheap fix.

I keep going on and on, im so sorry. Tl;dr, my country has been in pandemic lockdown for a year and a half, i havent been able to work properly for about a year, i need money to live snd to repair my laptop so i can work, i could use a little bit of help if you can spare it. If you cant or dont want to, that's fine, but i would very much appreciate a reblog of this post.

Best way to help is thru my Paypal. I can guarantee you that any help you extend would go only to the repair of my laptop and/or to paying off my bills.

Thanks very much for your time and your kindness, i truly appreciate it.

[ledamemangociana]

im SO sorry to reblog this again, i was hoping i wouldnt have to, but phone bills and credit card bills (that i havent been able to pay in full IN MONTHS because that's just how broke i am) are really piling up to the point where my phone service is abt to be cut again and credit card debt collectors are calling me weekly. I've only JUST restarted a weekly schedule onsite at work, and even then im still only doing 6 hours a week at most (as opposed to the usual 40 hours). That, on top of my laptop still being in limbo, means my financial worries are really starting to pile up. I havent touched any of the money that this post has already brought me thanks to some very kind donations because, as i promised, that would go to the repair of my laptop, so daily living and these personal bills are suffering. THAT'S how deep in the red i am. One of the biggest and quickest triggers for my depression and anxiety is my money trouble, understandably, so i am just barely holding on to stability at the moment. im not saying all this as a woe-is-me sob story, only as an explanation of why im still begging for spare change on the internet.

im not asking for a lot, only what you feel comfortable sharing or sparing. A reblog of the original post whether or not you're able to spare any loose change would also be super appreciated.

Best way to help me would be thru my Paypal.

Thanks so much for your time, empathy and kindness.

[ledamemangociana]

Hello frens,

I ABSOLUTELY hate this, but i am at my wits' end. On top of bills and loans that im having trouble paying, my laptop just stopped working, like it literally will not get past the ASUS boot-up screen, and i have a very bad feeling that the repair is going to entail a new main memory part, which would be COSTLY. Work has only just become a little steadier for me again, but even then i still wont be making enough to be able to get by properly if i have to get my laptop fixed, which i do because i need it for work. If i cant work, i cant make money that i need to get my laptop repaired so that i can work. Fucking vicious cycle, because the universe really just needs to double-down on the fact that i am a giant loser that doesnt deserve to be okay. /sobfest

Please dont mind my frustrated and depressed tone, im just very anxious and sad right now because of this, and i need help. I HATE being stuck begging for help, but this is all i can do at the moment. Hopefully i wont need much, but the last time i needed to get a laptop repaired, the motherboard needed to be replaced and it cost me THOUSANDS of pesos, and that was about 4 years ago, imagine how much a similar repair would cost now. Im hoping my laptop wont need sth as drastic as that now, but i really dont know, this doesnt seem like an easy, cheap fix.

I keep going on and on, im so sorry. Tl;dr, my country has been in pandemic lockdown for a year and a half, i havent been able to work properly for about a year, i need money to live snd to repair my laptop so i can work, i could use a little bit of help if you can spare it. If you cant or dont want to, that's fine, but i would very much appreciate a reblog of this post.

Best way to help is thru my Paypal. I can guarantee you that any help you extend would go only to the repair of my laptop and/or to paying off my bills.

Thanks very much for your time and your kindness, i truly appreciate it.

[ledamemangociana]

hey y’all, thank u so much for all the reblogs so far, im super appreciative. im just gonna reblog this for timezones coz unfortunately my anxiety is getting to me. i wouldnt be asking for help again if i wasnt so desperate and anxious :( thanks for your time and kindness as always <3

[ledamemangociana]

Hello frens,

I ABSOLUTELY hate this, but i am at my wits' end. On top of bills and loans that im having trouble paying, my laptop just stopped working, like it literally will not get past the ASUS boot-up screen, and i have a very bad feeling that the repair is going to entail a new main memory part, which would be COSTLY. Work has only just become a little steadier for me again, but even then i still wont be making enough to be able to get by properly if i have to get my laptop fixed, which i do because i need it for work. If i cant work, i cant make money that i need to get my laptop repaired so that i can work. Fucking vicious cycle, because the universe really just needs to double-down on the fact that i am a giant loser that doesnt deserve to be okay. /sobfest

Please dont mind my frustrated and depressed tone, im just very anxious and sad right now because of this, and i need help. I HATE being stuck begging for help, but this is all i can do at the moment. Hopefully i wont need much, but the last time i needed to get a laptop repaired, the motherboard needed to be replaced and it cost me THOUSANDS of pesos, and that was about 4 years ago, imagine how much a similar repair would cost now. Im hoping my laptop wont need sth as drastic as that now, but i really dont know, this doesnt seem like an easy, cheap fix.

I keep going on and on, im so sorry. Tl;dr, my country has been in pandemic lockdown for a year and a half, i havent been able to work properly for about a year, i need money to live snd to repair my laptop so i can work, i could use a little bit of help if you can spare it. If you cant or dont want to, that's fine, but i would very much appreciate a reblog of this post.

Best way to help is thru my Paypal. I can guarantee you that any help you extend would go only to the repair of my laptop and/or to paying off my bills.

Thanks very much for your time and your kindness, i truly appreciate it.

[ledamemangociana]

HEY Y'ALL, i hate to do this but im still in need of help.

My work situation right now is still Complicated AF™️ (ask me privately to explain if you want, i cant say it out loud in a post), and the loss of my freelance client means im BARELY scraping by, if at all. I know we're all having a REALLY hard time, and i truly hate having to beg like this, but it's curre tly my only option, considering that every month now im currently barely making 10% of my usual monthly salary, but my i still have bills and necessities. Really, ANY LITTLE BIT could help.

Paypal's the best way to help me at the moment. I would be SO VERY SINCERELY appreciative.

If you're unable to or would rather not share anything (perfectly okay of course), a reblog of this would also be super appreciated.

Thanks so much for understanding, hope you're sll doing as well as you possibly could.

[ledamemangociana]

hey everyone, im so sorry to keep reblogging this but things really are quite tight right now. I know we're all feeling the hella crunch of course, but if you've anything you can or are willing to spare, i'd be super appreciative.

[ledamemangociana]

HEY Y'ALL, i hate to do this but im still in need of help.

My work situation right now is still Complicated AF™️ (ask me privately to explain if you want, i cant say it out loud in a post), and the loss of my freelance client means im BARELY scraping by, if at all. I know we're all having a REALLY hard time, and i truly hate having to beg like this, but it's curre tly my only option, considering that every month now im currently barely making 10% of my usual monthly salary, but my i still have bills and necessities. Really, ANY LITTLE BIT could help.

Paypal's the best way to help me at the moment. I would be SO VERY SINCERELY appreciative.

If you're unable to or would rather not share anything (perfectly okay of course), a reblog of this would also be super appreciated.

Thanks so much for understanding, hope you're sll doing as well as you possibly could.

[ledamemangociana]

HEY Y'ALL, i hate to do this but im still in need of help.

My work situation right now is still Complicated AF™️ (ask me privately to explain if you want, i cant say it out loud in a post), and the loss of my freelance client means im BARELY scraping by, if at all. I know we're all having a REALLY hard time, and i truly hate having to beg like this, but it's curre tly my only option, considering that every month now im currently barely making 10% of my usual monthly salary, but my i still have bills and necessities. Really, ANY LITTLE BIT could help.

Paypal's the best way to help me at the moment. I would be SO VERY SINCERELY appreciative.

If you're unable to or would rather not share anything (perfectly okay of course), a reblog of this would also be super appreciated.

Thanks so much for understanding, hope you're sll doing as well as you possibly could.

[ledamemangociana]

HI IM AROUND IM STILL AROUND and i plan to continue my gifsets despite the fact they’re not really getting a lot of traction, the low traction on the recent gifsets actually de-motivated me for a while, as well as what feels like a seasonal bout of depression exacerbated by many MANY things (including but not limited to being very broke with too many bills to pay and not enough paying work, and also the fucking astronomical heat we’ve been having down here in Manila), but i’ll be back with more gifs soon. in the meantime, if u’ve got tiktok, i’ve been pretty busy there with Haisute edits, go find me there as mangociana.

also if u can spare even a little bit of change, my paypal is over here.