lemon stealing whore

this is tmi time

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List

Horny

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If you cared you would have helped me

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The thought that grandma misses me and wants me to join her does not leave my head...

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Having a crying histeria in the morning is my norm now

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I am so tired to be

The ugliest one

The stupidest one

The unwanted one

The pleading and begging one

The needy one

The lonely one

The unhappy one

The one in pain

I am tired of hurting

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I did not cut myself therefore I did not break any promises

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Damn I forgot how much it hurt the next day.. I am glad i did it on the left hand and not on the right would not be able to write at all...

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Cutting is for vegetables. I am a cabbage

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I am so tired of being depressed I want this all to be over

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So I have been wanted to harm myself for a long time now but I was holding myself knowing that this is the stupidest thing I could ever do. I accidently cut my hand today. not bad at all. Tiny cut. But damn that felt good... I don't think I will be able to hold myself for long..

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i honestly cant wait to have a sit down with just this diary for an hour or so and write all the shit that is on my mind. 

I am just so offended with all that shit that is going on with him and i dont know what fucking meteoroid has to fall on his head to understand it. 

But on another hand, i though he would be afraid to loose me and as it have been proven i am the one afraid to lose him and he does not care about me one bit. 

Dude i dont know what to do 

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I wish

I wish that for just a day we would be able to switch roles.

I wish that just for a little while you would feel the way I do

Imagine if you were me, waiting for a miracle to happen.

Imagine if I was like you, passing every day for better.

If only you would feel the way I do, if only for a day. It would be clear to understand that things are not forever stay.

You are a guy who needs nobody. I am a girl who needs you bad.

Meh it all sucks.

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I am so depressed

There are so much studying that needs to be done and all I do is procrastinate or work. I got an exam next week and I am not ready at all. Ifeel like I am not ready for anything. I feel lonely and I don't have ant safe space for myself to easily access and cry freely in. Kinda want to ask Kier to move out for a week just so I could get my shit together but that's just rude and selfish.

[therampantraccoon]

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if i stop crying in public places that would be nice 

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I am just not happy anymore. 

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This is depressing. I would i could talk to someone