A Bit More Emo

Not pro anything 18 she/her cw: 181 gw1: 173 gw2: 146 ugw: 122

[lemonscentedpledge]

I dont know what to do anymore

Sad music doesnt feel the same

Staying up all night feel the same

Starving doesnt feel the same

Drugs just dont work

I have no idea what im doing wrong i just want everything to end

[lemonscentedpledge]

Me: ooh !! Maybe I’ll weigh myself after my shower bc i wont have any clothes on

My brain: dont, you just weighed yourself yesterday

Me: i know,, but like why not

My brain: its just going to hurt you dont weigh yorself.

Me: but what if I lost weight !!

My brain: in what world would you have lost weight? You ate like shit yesterday and didnt even do your exercises. You’re always going to be fat.

Me: .... damn bitch im jus trynna at least see

[onefatspud-blog]

Hungry means skinny

[nnnicothin-deactivated20200512]

do it for her

disclaimer: these are my thoughts, and only mine. you are enough okay?

think about her, she is beautiful, isn't she? she deserves someone as pretty as her. she deserves a skinny girlfriend.

someone who raises to the challenge.

maybe if you were prettier, thinner, she would be with you. work hard. for her and for you.

you can do it.

from me to me

[lemonscentedpledge]

Convincing myself to break fast and eat dinner because ive plateaud is the hardest thing ive ever done

[insecurexaf]

Please send me meanspo and thinspo. I really need the motivation right now

[lemonscentedpledge]

I love starving. I dont deserve food. Its uncomfortable and sometimes painful how my stomach growls but i deserve it. I cant wait to see the bones in my hands and ribs i want to starve

[lemonscentedpledge]

When you finish a set and lean on something to stop from passing out

[lemonscentedpledge]

Every like is 10 crunches

Someone please tell me to do my workouts today ): i feel so unmotivated from yesterday,,,

[lemonscentedpledge]

My ed when i eat 60 calories

[lemonscentedpledge]

I feel so gross ugh. I had to break my fast because my dad cooked dinner and i already said i wasnt hungry last night. I had 238 calories and i feel so gross. It could have been worse because i tried to keep my serving small and I didnt have a pepsi but it doesnt matter because ill always stay fat if i cant starve myself

[lemonscentedpledge]

The way your stomach growls when theres only water 🥴😍

[lemonscentedpledge]

I know its not a huge change but this is the lowest ive been in years and i just really needed to post it somewhere. Im so hard on myself but im really.... happy. Next 5lbs down the 10lb then 40 💀

[lemonscentedpledge]

Day 3 of fast, on hour 57 and my workouts are complete! I didnt drink enough water yesterday so my weight has stayed the same but im still sticking with the fast because if i keep it up I think i can reach my first goal weight 🥰

[anxiety-owns-me]

I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat. I will not eat.

[loveliestdaydream]

I’m so excited to lose 10 L bees

[lemonscentedpledge]

How do you guys track the calories you lose, or is that not a thing? I just want to know what # i need to stay under :(