je veux arreter d’exister

i’m gonna post some of my poetry here please for your sake don’t read . . . a lot of this is sad and stuff and i’m gonna really advise against reading this this is purely for me to let things out . . . also these are not posted in order of when i wrote them so there’s that but i’m gonna write the date they were written for the newer ones and ones that i can remember

[leschampignons]

the windows are all blocked up

the lights have all gone out

no ones left here in this house

no more worries cares or doubts

it happened all so suddenly

but so expected it was

it was drawn out for so long

bad thoughts were all abuzz

then catastrophe

misery

melancholy and woe

they crept into my life and tossed my feelings to and fro

the storm was unforgiving

the aftermath was dreadful

i tried to be understanding

but the feeling was just too awful

i said it was fine and we called it off

i packed it all away

the rooms were already kind of empty

our lease was ending anyways

we’ll talk i’m sure

i doubt you’d let this be the end

we’re still friends after all

at least i hope it’s not pretend

[leschampignons]

there’s nothing left to feel and nothing left to think

my eyes are dry but yearn to cry and flood like the kitchen sink

my mind is gone my feelings numb and i don’t know what to do

i wish i could at least pretend to wish i was with you

[leschampignons]

je veux arrêter d’exister mais je ne veux pas mourir

je veux tomber de la réalité mais ne dit pas « au revoir »

[leschampignons]

I wish I could dissolve

I really really do

I wish I could disintegrate

Just to be with you

[leschampignons]

The universe is swirling and my brain has somehow stopped

It's heavy in my head and my thoughts have all just popped

[leschampignons]

I wish I could dissolve in the stars

The moon would be my friend

She'd love me and take care of me

But it's useless to pretend

[leschampignons]

I kind of want to stop existing

But I don't want to die

I want to fall out of reality

But not tell people goodbye

[leschampignons]

I wish I could just disappear, dissolve like water from snow

I wish I could not reappear, just sink down deep and low

I wish I could stop and go deaf and not think, I wish my life were that simple

I wish I didn't have to deal with time, I wish I could live in a dimple

I wish I could live among the stars in space, and travel throughout the void

I wish I could go to my own empty planet, to rot away on an asteroid

I wish I could have shorter hair, but longer all the same

I wish I could be everything, but life just loves to be lame

[leschampignons]

once upon a time in a far away land lived a tiny little girl just the size of a hand.

she wandered through the forest and resided in a tree and she never looked as happy as when sipping on her tea.

she picked flowers in the garden in the early morning light and went to bed whenever she felt the moonlight was just right.

her home was simply perfect in the roots under the tree and she loved how it was decorated “of course! it was done by me”.

she had furniture from branches, moss carpets on the floor, her bed made of chrysanthemums, forget me nots galore! she tied them in her hair and used them everyday in simple things like tea and blush and nothing at all seemed gray.

she was happy living there with the flowers in her hair and nothing would ever change that, mother nature wouldn’t dare.

she never bothered anyone and she never ever could for she enjoyed the company already there in her little wood.

[leschampignons]

I miss the way you feel when I hold you in my arms

Your warm embrace surrounded me, as did all your charms

You held me tight and kissed me and I never felt so safe

But now the world feels empty and the feelings are gone without a trace