dedicated to a marine

here are all the things i wanna say while you're away.

[liquidlightandrunningtrees]

“I love you only, my best and last and only and one true love.”

— Ernest Hemingway, Across the River and Into the Trees

[letterstomarvin]

when will this shit stop being so hard?

[sunsetico-deactivated20250705]

and for this new year, i do not wish for happiness, i do not wish for things to get better. i will settle for stability, i will settle for peace at mind and no more tears at night.

2018. (via sunsetico)

[letterstomarvin]

welcome home sir 😍

[letterstomarvin]

the more I love, the more it hurts

[wordsnquotes]

I exist in two places.    here, and where you are.

Margaret Atwood, “Corpse Song.” (via wordsnquotes)

deployment is almost over, baby. then we can exist in the same place finally.

[tristamateer]

IG: tristamateer

[letterstomarvin]

it’s only a matter of time!!!

[letterstomarvin]

words of affirmation

[letterstomarvin]

the turning point

I've read many blogs about the roller coaster that is deployment in hopes of understanding what it is I'm feeling better. It's helped in some ways but in others, it hasn't because our situation is different. You left on a bad note. And as angry as I was at you, my heart still hurt because I love you and I knew being without you for over half of a year would be hard. I've been missing you so much while you've been gone but just because we hadn't talked about it in awhile, the pain you've caused is still there. We are coming up on four months since you've been gone. I'm supposed to be happy we are passed the halfway point. I'm supposed to be excited that we are in the final stretch. But I'm not... You wrote me today saying you know you've taken a certain joy away from me and it's twisting you up inside to see it in fruition. Honestly, I don't know how to respond to that. These tough conversations and low emotions, accordingly to the blogs, are supposed to come closer to when you finally get to come home. But it's happening now... What does this all even mean? I hate that I'm resentful. Both towards you and your job. You got to put our life on hold and leave... but what you failed to realize is you actually just shifted your responsibilities and it's more weight on my shoulders now. People truly underestimate not only the strength, but also the burden that milso's have and carry. I am trying to be strong. Today is one of those days where it's a little bit hard.

[letterstomarvin]

gram'd it so you know it's real

[rofko-deactivated20150430]

My thoughts cannot move an inch without bumping into some piece of you.

A quote I found written on a newspaper on a train the other day (via floranymph)

[letterstomarvin]

Either you're being really sweet or you're trying to tell me to eat healthier... 🤔 Thank you for thinking of me either way ❤️

[letterstomarvin]

flip flop

I get it - things are hard over there. I'm not naive to what you're doing in your line of work. I understand emotions don't process like normal and the things you see and do make it difficult to "feel." Now with that being said... why does that justify using me as your punching bag? And when I get upset with you, you hide behind your deployment as a means to not take ownership over your actions. I can't be positive and optimistic anymore. I'm angry all of the time and I've never felt this way ever in my life. We are both too old for these stupid ass games. Get over yourself.

[letterstomarvin]

Has it really been only one month?! 😭😞

[thoughtcatalog]

You have to be your own sunshine, darling. Always. You can’t ever depend on people because people tend to let you down, even your own best friend. Don’t ever let the weight of the world get to you because I know you’re much stronger than that. You can’t fall apart and go back to destroying yourself because unlike last time, you have no one else but your own self to save. When it’s 2 am and you’re crying and you’re screaming at the moon about how life is so unfair, who else is going to be there for you? When you’re screaming at the top of your lungs about how everything hurts so much that you just want to feel nothing, and you break down into tears, who else is going to be there for you? No one. Just you. It’s going to get better, I promise. I know promises are meant to be broken and no person should ever make a promise that they don’t intend to keep, but this is something I’m truly sure of. Everything is going to be okay. Not all days are filled with the wrath of hurricanes and what seems like an endless storm. It will get better, but you just have to get through this hard part. Someday, you’ll be living in an amazing apartment in a place you love, with a job that you’re passionate about, and you’ll be happy. You would be waking up to the love of your life, greeting you with good morning kisses and the sweet aroma of coffee and pancakes that he has cooked for you and everything will be perfect. You’ll look back to this day and say that you’re glad you held on for so long. But for the meanwhile, please hold on.

(Source: thoughtcatalog.com)

[letterstomarvin]

just remember, you promised

[letterstomarvin]

my heart hurts for so many reasons

but which is the most important? it's hard to say because you're gone. the six month countdown starts now.