Okay but like. The concept of Chainsaw is actually so insanely perfect for Ronan?? Like this boy is spiraling when she shows up. He’s fighting his brother in parking lots, drinking himself into oblivion, scaring his friends into thinking they’ll find him dead. Gansey is hovering, Adam is sneaking out of the trailer park as soon as Gansey says he's missing (which we can get into how Ronan is worth the risk of sneaking past his dad later because WOOF hello), Noah is the one who’s seen the aftermath before, whose found him in pools of blood. Ronan’s whole deal at that point is destruction + self destruction.
And then. He pulls a bird out of his dreams. But not just a bird. Like not some big impressive hunting bird to flex about. She’s a BABY. She’s small and fragile and loud and she requires everything from him. He has to feed her constantly, keep her warm, make sure she survives. She’s dependent on him in a way nothing else in his life is right then.
And suddenly Ronan, whose favorite hobby up until now has been running himself into the ground, has to stay alive and functional because Chainsaw needs him. Like. He dreams her into existence and in turn she forces him to exist, to keep going. They’re both these messy, half-wild things that wouldn’t survive without each other and it’s just. God. GOD.
Anyway I'm never getting over the fact that Ronan Lynch survived because he accidentally dreamt himself a baby bird to take care of. 😭😭
That's his HEART
