Danger, keep out

Levi Samson Zedler. 17. House Ares. I'm sorry in advance for my stupid behaviour. It's not my fault, it's genetic. Also, very skilled at beer pong, avoiding my responsibilities and every variety of confrontation.

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

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Oliver sat in the car when Levi pulled to a stop, taking in some deep breaths like he’d learned to do in yoga, because he really didn’t want to freak out right now. He turned to Levi, taking his hand and pulling himself out of the car. “Yeah” he nodded, not entirely convincing, but at least he was walking in willingly.

“Thanks, by the way” he mumbled before they went in. “Thanks for coming with me and stuff, and for putting up with me. I know I’m a pain in the arse most of the time, and I probably don’t deserve it, but I just– thanks” he smiled, holding onto Levi’s hand a little too tight as they walked into the clinic. 

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Levi smiled over at him, shaking his head. “You’re not a pain, Olls,” he assured him, pulling his hand up to press a kiss to the back of it. “It’s perfectly fine. You’re fine. Don’t worry about it,” he said, giving him one last look before stepping out of the vehicle, heading into the clinic.

He moved down the halls to the mental health wing, smiling at the secretary at the desk. “Levi? We aren’t expecting you today, are we?” the woman asked. He shook his head with a smile, nudging his head toward Oliver. “No, just here with-,” he started, before being cut off. “The boyfriend! Heard so much about this one,” she said with a grin, handing Oliver a chart. “Just fill this out and she’ll be right with you.”

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

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“Yeah, okay” Oliver nodded robotically, finding an old pair of vans in his wardrobe, he pulled them on before pulling on his jacket. He found a beanie on his dresser and pulled that on too. Ollie closed his eyes at soft kiss on his forehead, trying to collect himself so that he had the courage to actually leave the room. “Sorry” he mumbled, when he realised he was being absolutely awful and Levi didn’t even have to be here right now.

He followed his boyfriend to the car, letting Levi drive to wherever they were going, and he nervously wrung his hands in anticipation. He wanted to hold Levi’s hand, examine his fingers like he did when he got nervous, or anxious, but he was driving, so he couldn’t. Instead he picked at the skin by his nails, leaving his fingers raw and harsh. “You’ll come with me right?” he asked suddenly, because he hadn’t clarified this yet. “Don’t leave me with alone, at least not today– please?”

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Levi was happy to drive him there, anything to make him feel better. All he wanted was for him to feel better. He didn’t like seeing Oliver suffer so badly, without being able to do a thing to help him. He let them drive in silence, his head darting up at Oliver’s question. “Of course I’ll go in with you, I know it can be scary,” he assured him, reaching over to give his hand a gentle squeeze.  As he pulled into the clinic, he kept glancing over to Oliver, making sure he was still okay. Once parked, he stepped out of the vehicle and moved around to open up Oliver’s door, smiling gently. “It’s going to be okay, Olls. I promise you,” he assured him, reaching forward to take Oliver’s hand. 

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

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“No” Ollie huffed, folding his arms across his chest, but of course he knew. He remembered the four different kinds they’d put him on before, and he remembered how each one made him just that little bit sadder. He was purposely just being a pain, and he knew it wasn’t Levi’s fault, but sometimes people took their bad feelings out on the people they loved the most. 

He groaned at the suggestion, rolling his eyes as he fished through his drawer. “I’m too tired” he shrugged, pulling out a pair of sweatpants and a clean pair of boxers, stripping out of the sweaty ones he’d been wearing before. “Maybe I’m an alien” he huffed again as he pulled the hoody off and replaced it with another. This was probably the first time Oliver hadn’t worn skinny jeans outside of campus in his life, but he just didn’t care. 

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Levi just rolled his eyes, leaning back against the wall as Oliver got dressed. It was obvious that he was in a sour mood and nothing he could do or say was going to change that. He figured he should just wait it out, by the time they got home, Oliver would be back to his old self again. He was sure of it.

“Well, maybe we could suggest the medication I was on, since that seemed to be working for you,” he said, shrugging his shoulders. “I could say that it helped me, so it would probably help you,” he suggested with a soft smile, leaning over to grab his jacket from the end of the bed and pull it on. “It’ll be over with in no time, don’t be so bitter,” he said, standing up and making his way over to him, pressing a kiss to his forehead.

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

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Ollie smiled back, but it was soon replaced with a frown and a groan. He nodded though, because he knew he didn’t have a choice. He flopped back down onto the pillow for a bit, staring up at Levi, secretly willing him to change his mind, pouting his lips and widening his eyes, trying every move, but he knew it wouldn’t work. 

“I hate the shit they put me on before” he mumbled, rubbing his eyes and sitting up. He grimaced at the shorts and hoody he was wearing from his run, but he really just didn’t have the energy for a shower, as disgusting as that seemed. “Will I just wear a tracksuit?” he asked, an eyebrow raised as he pulled himself out of the bed. 

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“So, do you remember what the medication was?” he asked, raising his eyebrows. “If you can remember that, you can just make sure that you don’t get the same shit. Problem solved,” he suggested with a smile, leaning forward to press his lips against Oliver’s forehead.

“Or....” he started. “You could, you know, get a shower like a normal human being would,” he suggested, a smirk on his lips. “Then dress in something that’s actually clean,” he finished. “Just an idea, though. You don’t have to listen to me,” he said, leaning back against the headboard. “But we’re going, wheteher you like it or not.”

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

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Unconsciously, Oliver leaned into Levi, turning so he could spread an arm around Levi’s torso and pull him in, like a teddy bear. He slept for a few hours more, no nightmares, no restlessness, just actual sleep, and it’s only when he wakes, he jumps a little at the other body, before relaxing once he realises it’s Levi. 

Ollie tilts his head up, his eyes opening softly as he takes Levi in, tracing a finger over his cheekbone with a smile. He doesn’t want him to wake up, because he doesn’t want to go to the doctors, and as much as he knows he needs to, and he’s agreed, he’s secretly hoping for Levi to just sleep the rest of the day away. 

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Levi hummed softly, his eyes blinking open to look at Oliver with a smile. It was clear that the other boy was still tired, despite the sleep he’d just had. He imagined it was hard to wake up completely after a long bout of not sleeping at all. He stretched himself out, sitting up slightly and yawning. “You wanna go?” he asked, his lips curling.

He knew the answer would be no. No one wanted to go to the doctor, especially when they had a bad experience with doctors in the past. “It won’t be long. We’ll be back in no time and hopefully with something that can help you sleep. Something prescribed,” he said with a smile. 

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

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“I will” Ollie nodded. “Pay attention” he shouted after Levi with a smile, and once the boy was gone he stripped down to his boxers. He didn’t get straight into bed though, he knew it would be pointless, so instead, he pulled out some shorts and a hoody, leaving the room to go for a run. He knew it was probably stupid, but he couldn’t think of a better way to tire himself out, so he ran around the campus, slow, because he was exhausted, keeping his hood up so he didn’t have to say hello to anybody, which was out of character for him. 

He fell into the room after, couldn’t even find the energy to strip, just collapsed into his bed and curled up, finally drifting off. He was curled into a ball in the corner of the bed, up against the wall, his hair spread across his face, and across the pillow. He didn’t even hear the door open, slept through it, whimpering a bit in his sleep but otherwise stayed still, his mouth open and eyes shut tightly. 

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Levi smiled gently when he saw that Oliver was asleep. He didn’t want to disturb him, the doctor could wait until later. He just liked seeing Oliver asleep, finally getting the rest that he needed. He dropped his backpack lightly on the floor, moving slowly up to his bed and crawling over him, curling up into his back with a sigh. 

As per usual, it was easy for Levi to sleep on demand. He didn’t even have to be that tired, he just fell asleep enough to recharge the little bit of energy he’d used that day. He was like a Sim in that way. He trailed his fingers through Oliver’s hair absent-mindedly, his hand going limp once he’d finally dozed off to sleep.

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

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“I am being honest!” Ollie said, puling at his hair, exasperated. “I’ve told you! I didn’t get much— any sleep okay?” he said, frustrated, even though he hadn’t told Levi that before. Not in those words anyway. “I’m sorry” he mumbled, tears prickling at his eyes because he was so overwhelmed he couldn’t even make sense of what he wanted anymore. 

Oliver leaned into Levi, resting his head onto the boy’s shoulder, closing his eyes, letting the tiredness finally take over. He nodded then, at the request, because it had gotten so bad that now he even realised that he had to fix the problem. “Just” he mumbled, prying his eyes open and pulling his head up to look at Levi. “We’ll go after your classes” he nodded. “I’ll wait here, you go to class and then, then we’ll go, we can go at that time, right?”

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“You never told me that at all, Olls,” he sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose as he tried to calm down. He didn’t want to fight with Oliver. He knew that wasn’t going to do either of them any good and it would only put a strain on things. He smiled gently, looking over Oliver with a soft sigh. “After my classes,” he repeated with a nod.

“You need to sleep, Oliver,” he warned, making his way over to the door. “I’ll be back in a bit and then we’ll go, alright?” he said with a nod before making his way out. The day was a busy one, filled with teachers constantly pestering him about all he had missed. It was all going in one ear and out the other. Once hours had passed and he finally finished with the day, he made his way back to Oliver’s and opened the door. “You ready?”

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

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“I’ve missed so much already” he frowned, which really translated to “I wouldn’t be able to sleep anyway”, but he didn’t want Levi feeling guilty or pitying him. He sighed a little, calming down once Levi was close, his eyes drooping as he watched him zip up his fly, and he had to bite down on his lip to hide how embarrassed he was. “I know” he laughed, but all he really wanted to do was cry, because he was at that stage of exhaustion where everything felt impossible. 

He looked down at his bare foot, and then to the door where his boots were, and his lips settled into a straight line on his face, because he didn’t even have the energy to pretend anymore. “So maybe it’s been a while” he shrugged, knowing Levi would understand that he was talking about sleeping. “You can’t miss anymore class though” he mumbled, the rational side of him speaking, leaning into Levi, resting his forehead onto the other’s. “I can’t sleep” he said then. “It’s even harder without you” he added, the irrational side of him peaking through now. 

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Levi looked at him incredulously, shaking his head. “That’s not what this is about at all, Ollie,” he mumbled, shaking his head with a sigh. He just wanted for them to be able to communicate now. “Listen, Ollie. I just want you to be honest with me, okay?” he asked. “I just think we’re at the point now where we both need to be honest. I know it sounds hypocritical...” he said, trailing off and shaking his head.

“I know I can’t miss anymore class,” he snapped too quickly, shaking his head in order to show that he didn’t mean it. He really didn’t mean it, he’d just been having a tough time trying to articulate what he was trying to say. “I’m just worried about you,” he mumbled, shaking his head with a frown. He sighed, wrapping his arms around him and pressing a kiss to his forehead. “Can we please go to a doctor?” he asked. “You can see mine. It won’t be so bad.”

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

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“Hmm?” Ollie asked with a raised eyebrow, tugging on his jeans. “Yeah got a few hours” he lied with a smile plastered onto his lips, pulling on a shirt, but he’d forgotten to zip up the fly on his jeans. He was moving through the small room, forgetting things like his other sock, and searching the room for his boots even though they were at the door like they usually were. “What?” he turned to face Levi then, his eyes trying to focus, but failing, darting from one side of the room to the other.

“What? No!” he shook his head, combing his fingers through his hair as Levi went on. He watched him sit on the bed, the books falling about, and he shook his head again. “Don’t be ridiculous” he laughed. “You can’t miss anymore classes, and I’m fine, honestly” he said, putting his hands out in a surrender motion, but they were shaking with adrenaline. He hadn’t even noticed. “Levi you need to go to class, catch up, get your work done, don’t be silly” he shook his head again, more of a permanent thing now. “Come on, I want you to graduate the same time as me, we can sleep when we’re done” he nodded, convinced that he was making perfect sense even though his fly was still undone and he was missing a sock on his left food. “It’s no big deal, so I’m a little tired” he shrugged. “Nothing new” he laughed again, even though nothing was funny. 

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Levi frowned as he searched Oliver’s eyes. He could tell he was overtired, his body rushing with adrenaline in order to keep itself functioning and awake. He didn’t know what to say in order to get Oliver to listen to him. He just frowned deeper, looking down to his lap in front of him. What was he going to say? It wasn’t like he could argue against the idea that Levi had missed too much school as it is. He was 100% right about that.

“Olls, you look like you haven’t slept in days,” he said, running a hand over his face. “Can’t you at least stay home for the day?” he suggested, sitting up straighter. “You really need to catch up on sleep,” he said gently, moving off the bed and toward him. “You’re a right mess, you know that?” he asked with a smirk, reaching his hands down to tug the zipper on his jeans up. “You’re missing a sock,” he whispered, before tilting his head toward the door. “And your boots are over there, like they always are,” he said, smirking playfully at him, even though he still couldn’t help but worry about him. 

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

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Oliver had had a particularly bad night. He hadn’t slept a wink since he’d said goodnight to Levi hours and hours ago, and he was going a little insane, because the weekend had already exhausted him, and now he couldn’t even sleep it all off. After he was sure Caden was asleep in the bed next to his, he’d gone about sorting through his things, the torch on his phone providing a light as he organised his clothes.. in colour order. It was ridiculous, and something he’d never think to do, but it was keeping his mind busy and away from silly thoughts, so he continued for hours, pulling down all the pictures on his wall and sticking them back up in different orders, over and over again. 

He’d lost track of time hours ago, currently sitting cross legged on his bed, clad in only his boxers, all of his books spread out in front of him, reading the titles. He wasn’t taking anything in though, just staring really, trying to remember if B came before C in the alphabet, because he was so tired he hadn’t even realised Caden had got up, got ready and already left. Ollie’s eyes finally left the books and focused on Levi. “Hi” he grinned, and his eyes were bloodshot and crazy, but he was so happy to see his boyfriend, he practically leaped off he bed, knocking half the books onto the floor so he could wrap his arms around Levi’s neck. “Shit” he mumbled when he realised. “What time is it?” he asked, pulling away so he could go about finding his jeans. “I’ll be ready in a sec” he hummed, pulling on a jumper. 

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Levi noticed the look on Oliver’s face and the clear exhaustion in his demeanour. He frowned, wrapping his arms around him as he collided into him. He missed Oliver too, but something told him that he was only this affectionate because he was in such a state of exhaustion. “It’s 7:30,” he mumbled, glancing over his shoulder to see that Caden had already left. “Okay,” he hummed, watching him warily. He knew that it was a touchy subject and one he wasn’t sure he should get into, but he couldn’t let it slide like this. He was far too worried about him.

“Hey, Olls?’ he asked, raising his eyebrows cautiously. “You okay?” he asked, moving behind him and placing a hand at the small of his back. “Did you sleep at all last night?” he continued, leaning against the dresser and attempting to find his eyes and meet his gaze. One thing was certain, these two were quite the mess. “Maybe we should skip the morning, yeah? It’s not a big deal. We can catch up on one half day. At least then you can get some sleep. Proper sleep. Even if it is just a couple hours,” he suggested, or more like, insisted. He sat down on the bed, shrugging his backpack off his shoulders. “Come on. I wasn’t ready for life yet anyway. We got back late.”

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Old Routine || Oliver & Levi

Levi couldn’t believe he was actually happy to be back at school, enjoying the same old things he’d always hated. The weekend had been eventful and he wasn’t exactly used to that anymore. He’d grown so accustomed to just hiding out in his room, away from the rest of the student body and staying with Oliver. He knew this probably wasn’t a healthy thing to get used to, because it would only make him dependent. He was never that kind of person. He was always able to separate himself from other people without much concern. But this was different. This was like being attached at the hip to someone, not even in a physical way. As if some kind of forcefield just kept him there in place and if separated, he wouldn’t know what to do with himself. 

Backpack completely packed and a light jacket over his shoulders, he set off out of his room and made his way to Ollie’s, having forced himself out of bed in order to get his work done. He knew he needed to start going to class and to catch up with the curriculum, or he wouldn’t be graduating with everyone else in the summer. He knew that he’d hate himself if that were to happen. When Levi made it to the dorm hallway, he knocked twice before just walking in, crossing his arms in front of him. “I hope no one’s naked in here,” he said, laughing softly as he leaned against the wall behind the door. “Are you ready?” he asked, glancing down to the time on his phone, surprised that he was actually early. 

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Meeting Mum || Oliver & Levi

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“Calm down a lot” Ollie smirked, smiling at Alice as she left them alone again. “Or maybe I could just distract you with a blowjob” he joked, laughing a little too loud before he pulled his arm around the back of the sofa, threading his fingers through the ends of Levi’s hair. “God, I love you so much” he shook his head, as if he couldn’t even believe it himself. 

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“Calm down a lot,” he agreed, smirking to himself. He leaned against Oliver, humming softly. “I don’t know,” he said, nipping his bottom lip. “Don’t know how people would feel about that in public,” he chuckled, smiling as he spoke. “I love you, too,” he mumbled, his eyes slipping shut. 

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Meeting Mum || Oliver & Levi

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“I don’t know how we’re surviving with all this activity” Oliver laughed, careful not to move too much so he wouldn’t hurt Levi any more. “We haven’t lazed around in a while, and it basically became a way of life” he smirked. “S’probably what caused all this drama” he continued. “Too much activity” he smiled, taking the tea from his mother who had calmed down, thankfully. 

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Levi nodded in agreement. “Yeah, we’ve been overdoing it. We should probably calm down a little,” he said, laughing softly. He thanked her for the tea, taking a small sip from the mug. “Next time I try to start a fight with someone, just knock me out or something. Drag me away from the situation,” he chuckled.

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Meeting Mum || Oliver & Levi

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Oliver collapsed onto to the couch beside Levi, laughing along with him, because if he really thought about it, he might cry. “She’s a bit dramatic” he smirked and nodded in agreement. “You know, I never thought I’d say this, but I can’t wait to go back to Westfield to chill out” he laughed. “The most dramatic place on the planet, and I can’t wait to go back so I can just chill the fuck out”

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Levi laughed and he nodded his head. He understood completely what Oliver meant. He really could use a nice relaxing nap in his Westfield dorm bed. He turned his head and buried his face into Oliver’s shoulder, sighing softly. “I’ve missed lazy days in bed,” he muttered gently. 

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Meeting Mum || Oliver & Levi

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Oliver smirked, because he knew his mother would react this way. “Mum, we’ve been to the hospital, it’s all fine” he smiled, but Alice just looked even more horrified. “Why didn’t you call me? I would’ve at least came and got you” she’s talking in that high pitched voice now. “Mum” Oliver tries to calm her down. “It’s alright, this guy was just—” he was about to lie, but looking at his mother, her worried eyes, he just couldn’t. “Levi was sticking up for me” he said instead, but that just made things worse because Alice’s eyes widened. “From who?” she asked, all concerned. “Nobody, mum, s’not a big deal, could you just maybe make us some tea?” he asked and she ran off to the kitchen. 

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Levi just smiled at her, trying his best to seem as chill as he possibly could in this situation. He really didn’t know what to say, how to calm this woman down that he’d only just recently met. He found Oliver’s eyes when his mother disappeared into the kitchen, sighing softly in relief. “Well... That was intense,” he said, laughing softly under his breath. “It’s been an eventful weekend, that’s for sure.”

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Meeting Mum || Oliver & Levi

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“Oh boys glad you’re home, i was just going to make lu—” Alice started as she opened the door, but her mouth fell open and she dropped the kitchen towel that had been in her hand. “Oh dear” she gasped. “What happened to you?” she asked, pushing Oliver out of the way so she could guide Levi into the house. “Oh god” she continued, just as overdramatic as Ollie was really. “Mum” Oliver said, in a tone that said calm down, but she was ignoring him, fussing over Levi’s face, hand over her mouth. 

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“It’s fine, I’m fine,” he said reassuringly, holding back the urge to laugh. He looked over to Oliver a little desperately, unsure of what he should do with himself in this situation. Should he apologize? Explain what happened? Instead, he just kept quiet, moving to sit down on the sofa. “Really, it’s fine. We went to the hospital and it’s... it’s good,” he said reassuringly, laughing awkwardly. 

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Meeting Mum || Oliver & Levi

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Ollie stopped before he knocked at the door, turning to Levi, he bit his lip. “Um yeah” he said, sighing. “She’s probably going to freak out” he nodded for clarification. “I mean, Levi, you look awful” he pointed out. “I mean— not awful, but like awful” he tried, but gave up and just knocked on the door. 

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Levi sighed, but he nodded his head. It wasn’t like he couldn’t really argue with that. It was pretty clear how awful he looked and he could see that in the reflection of the door window. He leaned his head against OIlie’s shoulder and heaved another sigh.