And I was too young to know...

James.E.Lewis. 25 years old. not able to write proper descriptions of myself

[lewisejames]

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Madison started fixing her office and preparing to leave. As someone knocked on the door Madison smiled. “Come in.” She said and finished saving her things. “Tell Holly that if she does all the book shopping without me, I′m gonna be mad at her.” Madison said and came closer James and pecked him. “Are you ready?”

James was too absorbed in replying Holly, as he went in that he didn’t realize Madison came closer and raised his head abruptly as she pecked him. “Mad being mad at Holly....you can’t do that”, he giggled.  “Yeah”, he finally answered Holly and looked at Mad again. “I wouldn’t come here if I wasn’t”, he smiled widely at her.

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Birthday birthday birthday

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Madison looked around as they got into the club and sighed. “Little? I would say it’s torture. I mean, summer break are two words that should always come together.” She said. Madison pushed James to the bar. “Two sodas, please.”

James giggled with Madison’s answer. “You know what I mean”, he lowered the tone of his voice. “It’s one of the times that I miss school...Winter break, Spring Break, Summer Break....breaks in general. Now, we have specific days off each months...it’s good that you can gather them up though”, he mumbled and followed Madison. He leaned on the counter and sighed. “Yeah, for starters-I don’t know why we have used the uber anyway”, he smirked, looking around.

[lewisejames]

Ice Tea By the Porch~ Madjames(19/05/2017)

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Madison’s leg closed a bit, ivoluntarily, and squeezed James’ hips a little. Madison forced her legs to open and bit her lower lip, supressing another moan. Her hands let go of his neck and caressed his back down. “James…” She whispered in a moan.

Even if James’ movement was rather slow, Madison’s legs slowed him down even more for a few seconds, before he felt her loosening them up again. He could feel it coming any second and, once Madison said his name, he started moving faster again. After a few seconds, he thrusted his hips abruptly against Mad’s and stopped moving, having a numbing feeling spread through his body. His hands caressed her breasts and cupped them lightly, before caressing her sides.

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Oh my goodness, it has been a year?

Yeah. I don’t know if we are counting the...unofficial and denying part. It’s a year plus a couple of months?

[lewisejames]

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We’ll see.

As I’ve said before I’ve booked everything from airplane tickets to hotels and on.

Oh okay, fair enough.

[lewisejames]

~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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James smiled widely. “Oh is that so?” He laughed a little. “Good.” He nodded and gathered up his stuff. “I’m gonna wait for you in a few hours.” He said, winking at her, before walking out of her office.

Madison smiled at James. “You’ll find out. Eventually.” She said. Madison smiled when James winked at her and went back working as he left.

[lewisejames]

~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison sighed. “Because I give a good blowjob. And you haven’t seen it yet.” She smiled. “Right. I’ll meet you there and we can go in different cars, so that I can drive back home tomorrow.” She said and took a bite of her meal.

James smiled widely. “Oh is that so?”, he laughed a little. “Good”, he nodded and gathered up his stuff. “I’m gonna wait for you in a few hours”, he said, winking at her, before walking out of her office.

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~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison giggled. “Still cute.” She said. Madison couldn’t help and smiled as James asked. “I’ve never given you a blowjob yet.” She said and shrugged. Madison pecked James and went back to her chair and finished her lunch.

James shook his head, smiling at that.  “Oh”, he widened his eyes in surprise. “And you’ve given one to Stephen yesterday...”, he bit his lower lip. “Why do you have a problem with that?”. James finished his coffee and his sandwich and stood up. “Alright...so that we won’t forget....once you’re done, you come to my office...we get ice cream and we go to my house?”, he leaned his hands on the edges of her desk.

[lewisejames]

~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison had to giggled at that. “That’s… That’s kind of cute.” She said and bit her lower lip. “I had sort of a problem as well. I did something for Stephen that I have never done to you.” She said and shrugged looking at him. “But that’s fixable. With time.” Madison leaned her upper body ahead and used her hands to make James look at her. “I believe it will happen. And I’ll have to be a very attent girlfriend. Pushing away girls and boys that come to you.” She smiled.

James shook his head, smiling. “Right now that I’m saying it, it was...then, I was literally in agony”, he giggled. He raised his eyebrows, trying to remember what that was. “Uhm...”, he blinked.  “And what was that?”, he asked. He raised his head as Madison averted his attention towards her. He started laughing with that. “Sure, sure”, he nodded, smiling widely.

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~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison shrugged. “It’s okay. Sex bruises like that heal fast.” She said. Madison pouted and sat on the edge of her table, staring at James. “What problem?” She asked. Madison looked at James and smiled. “I’m not sure I would be… Turned on enough for a two girl’s threesome. As I told you, I haven’t felt sexual attraction to any girl since us… So, I don’t know how that would go.” She said.

James smiled at her and looked down. “Like...he came inside...me...before I got inside you....and I got...slightly stuck and couldn’t move my hips...I mean, thank god, he didn’t start moving we’d stay like that for a long time”, he shook his head. “I know, Mad...I’m just teasing you...I don’t even believe it will ever happen, since I have enough doubts with liking one girl...imagine being attracted to two”,he smiled, looking down.

[lewisejames]

~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison pouted. “Oh, I’ve noticed. I have a bruise on my crotch from how hard he was hitting you.” She said. Madison blinked as James pushed away and moved to be more confortable on his lap. “It was better than I expected. I mean… I really thought one of us would be left out, but we managed to make it work.” She said. “And well… I had lots of fun.” She smiled. Mad let her hands fall on James’ chest, lightly and smiled before getting up. “But I’m not sure we should accept Stephen’s offer for a second time.” She concluded.

James winced at that. “Sorry about that”, he looked down for a moment. He caressed her sides, as she was talking. “Same actually...I thought I would be the one that would be neglected...but ice cream stuff and all... nope”, he widened his eyes. “I had a problem during what happened...but it was kind of solved...but it got me too tense, anyway”, he rolled his eyes. “But, yeah...let’s finda girl for our second threesome...no guys now”, he chuckled, looking down.

[lewisejames]

~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison smiled. “No… I didn’t talk to Stephen about it, but I created that when were sleeping around.” She shrugged. “We can get some ice cream when we go to your house, today.” She said. Madison smiled widely as he said that and kissed him back, moving one hand on his nape.

James smiled shyly as she said that. “He aggressively liked the new flavor yesterday-just saying in case you didn’t notice”, he widened his eyes subtly and looked down. “That sounds like a great idea”, he smiled widely. He caressed her sides a little, before pulling away from the kiss. “So...what did you think of...what happened yesterday?”, he asked her, looking into her eyes a little unwillingly.

[lewisejames]

~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison shrugged. “It wasn’t a doubt. It was denial. You have told me a few times before. If I slept with guys, I wasn’t a lesbian. I just… It was like I didn’t want to admit that I could like guys… Because of what happened on my home town.” She said. “But… I have fluid sexuality. Since I started having feeling for you, I haven’t been atracted to any girl… Of course I still find them gorgeous… But sexual atraction… None.” She leaned her elbows on the table. Madison smiled. “That’s a really poor comparation but… Stephen functions that way. He gets into a ice cream store with all the flavors in the world. And he will experiment all.” She made a pause. “If he likes one, he will taste it again, but if there’s a new flavor to taste, he’ll go for it. But if he really likes a flavor, he commits and only eat that flavor.” She said. Madison stared at James as he said that and got up of her chair and walked to him. She sat on his lap, letting both her legs to the same side and held his neck. “I’m glad we’re okay.” She smiled and pecked him.

James looked at her, as she talked. “I’m definitely attracted to both, at the same time”, he widened his eyes, as he said it outloud and instantly closed his eyes. He blinked fast, as Madison analyzed Stephen. “Did you really talk about that with Stephen, when you were together? I really need ice cream right now, by the way”, he chuckled. He sipped some more coffee and smiled, as he saw Madison coming closer to him. He smiled, as he sat on his lap and moved his hands on her hips first and raised them on her sides. “I’m gonna try and talk to you, whenever I freak out again”, he smiled at her and kissed her lightly.

[lewisejames]

~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison felt her heart beat hard on her chest as he was talking. “Next time, talk to me. I wasn’t going to freak out. I think I wouldn’t. But still… You talk to me.” Mad rolled her eyes. “My sure he wanted to have sex with me again, but you were knew. Of course he would be all over you.” She said. Madison thought a little. “It is a little weird. Because I never used it on a boy… Well, on a hole.” She said. “But I’m willing to try it on.” Madison blushed lightly. “I bought it, of course I used it.”

“I’ll talk to you”, he nodded. “What about...your doubts...what you told me before?”. James blinked. “I still don’t understand that logic...yes, I was new...what about it?”, he said, looking at Mad. He bit his lower lip and felt a little shy himself, as Madison blushed. “I’m...gonna think about it”, he said and started eating his sandwich.

[lewisejames]

~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison let it James say all he wanted and then sighed as he finished. “First… We should talk about your doubts. I passed for something similar. I can help you. And I’m your best friend. Talk to me.” She said. “Second… That fear of yours that I wanted to have sex with Stephen and be with him was totally out of context. You were the one who absent-minded suggested a threesome. And I went with it because I was curious about how it was. I always wanted to try it on.” She made a pause. “I wasn’t the one who suggested it so you could think I wanted to have sex with Stephen again. I know you had no intention of suggesting it, so… Stephen was the one who suggested it.” She said. Madison sighed again. “I’m okay now. That you asured me it’s more okay than before.” The girl said and then she looked down. “You said something yesterday… About… The long time that no one… Topped you, and it hit me that you were used to that kind of sex… And not… Always have to top.” She looked back at James. “I know I was against use it when you first found out about it, because I thought it would be weird but… I have a dildo, that I can wear. And we can use it. From time to time.” Madison bit her lower lip.

James shrugged. “I think that if I actually talked to you, you’d freak out. I passed all the phases....that I was experimenting, while liking men, that I’m not ready for anything...I’ve reached a point that...what I told you...I thought that it was unfair for you that you were with me, so it would be better for us to break up and let me have some sort of space. But that passed only for a day, so I freaked out for another day or so that I actually thought about it and then, I let it go. I don’t know how to deal with it...I think it’s a little uncontrollable...it makes me uncontrollable”, he frowned. “That was  what I thought at first...okay and a little during it...”, he made a pause. “I suggested it...because as a second thought I realized that I was awkward, because I was a little attracted to him”, he closed his eyes. “What I said before about you wanting to have sex with Stephen...and I thinking that...I wasn’t putting you there...I was also putting Stephen....I thought that he wanted to be with you and he was all over me. SO all over me....I didn’t get to comment on it before he left”, he said stubbornly. “I don’t know if I’ve missed it...being touched like that by a guy...but I’m probably not used to being bottom anymore”, he shook his head. “And I was bottom a lot of times”, he chuckled, looking down. He raised his head abruptly, as she said that. “Uhm...”, he hummed, widening his eyes slowly.  “If you still find it weird, I don’t know...I don’t want you to do something that you don’t want to...I don’t remember asking you...but you’ve used it before, right?”.

[lewisejames]

~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison smiled at that. “Nice…” The girl pouted and took a bite of her meal. She listened to him and pouted. “It’s not… Enterely okay though.” She started. “I mean… You go all: I’m confused about my sexuality. And then we go have a threesome and it’s all okay. I mean… How conflicted about your sexuality you are now?”

James let go off his cup on the table and crossed his hands together. “ Not as much as I was before, I still have my doubts...I realized a lot of stuff before...during or even after what...happened yesterday”, he sighed heavily and looked down.”Honestly...I thought that since I like men for most of my life, so far, I wasn’t feeling that it was fair for you...and I supressed that feeling. I mean, it’s hypocritical of me to think that, because you denied  liking men for most of your life, as well...but you’ve been with men, before...I...have never been with a girl...besides you”, he bit his lower lip hard, staring at the floor. “So, somehow...in my awkward head, I thought you’d like to have sex with Stephen again and be with him...because you had sex before and I was a convenience, because I’ve been with men before...and we’d be together so...it wouldn’t count, as cheating...like we said’, he took a deep breath and finally turned to look at her. “So, when....this started...your attention to me...felt weird...Weirdly good. I don’t know how to explain it...I mean...I expected something else”, he blinked fast. “But, it was better than I expected”, he said. “I guess I lived in my head so much time, while we’re trying to figure it out, I didn’t know you liked me that much and I actually liked you back...like in a way....more than friends. Not that I didn’t feel it before...but...I always doubted what was going on sexuality-wise for me and what people thought of me that way...”, he bit his lower lip. “The last part happened, before I realized I was something more than gay, but I let that be”, he said and looked down again. 

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~ Lost & Confused~ Madjames

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Madison listened to him and giggled. “Wanna exchange jobs for a day?” She asked. “So… Is it still… Feeling weird when you sit?” She asked as she took out her lunch and placed on her table.

James chuckled at that. “Surely...but I’m hoping for changing it soon, enough...I can’t listen to employee’s complaints on new upcoming projects for another second. Seriously”, he widened his eyes. “Less than yesterday, but it still feels...that it’s there”, he pouted and took a bite from his sandwich. “Honestly, I didn’t expect it would go like that, yesterday...but okay”, he sighed, drinking some more coffee.