Madison smiled at that. “Nice…” The girl pouted and took a bite of her meal. She listened to him and pouted. “It’s not… Enterely okay though.” She started. “I mean… You go all: I’m confused about my sexuality. And then we go have a threesome and it’s all okay. I mean… How conflicted about your sexuality you are now?”
James let go off his cup on the table and crossed his hands together. “ Not as much as I was before, I still have my doubts...I realized a lot of stuff before...during or even after what...happened yesterday”, he sighed heavily and looked down.”Honestly...I thought that since I like men for most of my life, so far, I wasn’t feeling that it was fair for you...and I supressed that feeling. I mean, it’s hypocritical of me to think that, because you denied liking men for most of your life, as well...but you’ve been with men, before...I...have never been with a girl...besides you”, he bit his lower lip hard, staring at the floor. “So, somehow...in my awkward head, I thought you’d like to have sex with Stephen again and be with him...because you had sex before and I was a convenience, because I’ve been with men before...and we’d be together so...it wouldn’t count, as cheating...like we said’, he took a deep breath and finally turned to look at her. “So, when....this started...your attention to me...felt weird...Weirdly good. I don’t know how to explain it...I mean...I expected something else”, he blinked fast. “But, it was better than I expected”, he said. “I guess I lived in my head so much time, while we’re trying to figure it out, I didn’t know you liked me that much and I actually liked you back...like in a way....more than friends. Not that I didn’t feel it before...but...I always doubted what was going on sexuality-wise for me and what people thought of me that way...”, he bit his lower lip. “The last part happened, before I realized I was something more than gay, but I let that be”, he said and looked down again.