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[lifeofher]

I always think about him. Every single day. He’s on my mind. I miss him. yeah. i miss him a lot. His smile, his laugh, the little lines by his eyes when he smiles. The way he put his hand on the middle of my back and guided me into a room. I just miss him. I don’t want to miss him though. I’m tired of missing him. I’m tired of loving him. It hurts far too much yet as hard as i try and how much he’s changed i still can’t help it. It seems like there’s no way of moving on.

[lifeofher]

Today wasn't a good one. But then, most aren't. He's always there. Taking over my mind and my heart. She texted me today. About how it'll take time and how beautiful I am. But she doesn't care. She's got him. She has nothing to worry about. She's got his heart. She gets that smile everyday. His kisses every night. She doesn't know what it's like to lose the one thing you'd die for. The person you would go to the ends of the earth to do anything for. When I lost him, I lost my happiness. I lost my strength. I lost my will to move forward. I lost my will to live. He uttered the words right to my face. "I'm sorry, I just don't love you anymore." I will never understand how "I'm in it for the long haul" and "I will love you forever" turned into "it just faded". Forever wondering why.