Like a Cool Kid

In a world of absolutes nothing is genuine. Make it absolutly rediculous.

[like-a-cool-kid]

An open letter to my abuser:

Your worst fears are true. You are a failure. You aspired to be an actress, or, better yet, a trophy wife. And here you are, pushing 60, still working a 9 to 5. From party girl to pencil pusher, your personal hell encarnate. You made controlling the lives of others your entire persona because you can't control your own. You are the epitome of pathetic.

And here I am, free from you.

But I thank you for one thing. Because of you, I know how to fight. I know how to not back down in the face of the fiercest enemy. So thank you for being the monster under my bed, the demon in my closet, the rope that sought to hang me. Because of you, I will not be defeated by opposition.

The fight might not yet be over, but I am declaring my freedom. I've already won, you just don't know it yet.

[like-a-cool-kid]

Fractured Gemstone

Every witch knows to be careful when handling gems, as they shatter easily. How telling that our corporeal forms aren't granted that same kindness.

PM me if you're interested in prints 💜

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T has made my feet grow for the first time since 6th grade. That's how long I've had these shoes. Peep the doodles, circa 10th grade science class when the teacher took away my doodle book so I drew on my shoe instead. Oddly poetic that as my life is changing, the pair of shoes that I had since before life went to shit are finally getting tossed. Maybe it means I get to finally stop running and just live.

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Fossils I found in my yard today

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The sky is my family

It paints murals for me nightly

The moss is my family

It cushions each step I take

The wind is my family

It sings to me with every breeze

My blood

Is not my family

They are rotted crops

Causing pestilence to spread

That are best annihaled

Before they destroy the rest of the harvest

Leaving all to starve

Burn that which plagues

And the rest shall flourish

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~family~

When she pushed me down the stairs

Where were you?

When she explained away the bruises and I cried for help

Where were you?

When I begged for someone to get me out of my hell

Where were you?

Oh, that's right,

Helping her do it all

[psilocybinsushi]

More fiber art I just finished

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Last one I swear 😅 art I posted to my bbs account

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I've been doing fiber arts almost non-stop recently. Here's my latest peice, "Undertow"

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More art I posted elsewhere 😅

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I made another thing

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Things I made while posting from my fiancée account 😅

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A New Blog is Born

TW: abuse from a parental figure

I abandoned this account shortly after making it in high-school, mostly due to the constant abuse I was suffering at the hands of my parent. I'm now 24, and after a saga of a court case am finally fully no-contact with the monster who gave birth to me. I'm starting a new life, and I move into my dream house in less than a week.

That being said, I think I'm going to start more publicly talking about the emotional damage abusive parents inflict on their children. I've been lucky to find support groups, but I'm realizing a lot of people suffer in silence. Maybe sharing my story will help? Idk, maybe this will just be me shouting into the void to process unresolved trauma, but here's today adventures in dealing with childhood trauma as an adult™️.

Since I'm moving to the middle of nowhere, I needed to get a cellphone signal booster. I go to the store today, and they tell me I need to call the customer help line. No big deal, that's now on my to-do list for tomorrow. While I was at the store, I remembered getting notices about my device being eligible for an upgrade, and the salesperson actually found me a phone that would cost me about $30 LESS per month than the phone I was currently using. No brainer to do the upgrade.

And here's where the trauma kicks in.

If something wasn't absolutely broken to the point it no longer turned on, I wasn't allowed to get a new one. Even as an adult, when I decided I needed to replace my lap top that I'd had since high-school, I was chewed up and spit out REPEATEDLY for "wasting money on luxuries". The laptop couldn't load a basic word document without freezing and/or crashing, but when I informed my AM (abusive mother) excitedly that someone was going to help me get a new laptop, she called me every name in the book (including r*tard), saying I'm horrible with money and I should really just turn all my accounts over to her because I'm worthless.

I'm buying a house. I paid off all my credit card debts. All my medical debts. I'm very fortunate and am sitting in a better position than most of my peers.

But I'm sitting here in tears because I got a device upgrade.

Feel free to reblog with your own story. Let's work together to stop these generational patterns of abuse.

[carolj0cruz]

Every time I look into your eyes its like a unicorn threesome <3

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Oh, They're Underground...

So I've decided to periodically give shout outs to bands that deserve being heard. First up...

Harlequin Jones!!

This is a really awesome band that's great for fans of The Dresden Dolls or Emilie Autumn.  Check out their website to get a link to a free download of their first 6 song album, The Bad Beggining, as well as photos and lyrics. My personal favorote is Carve that Crap (it's a better song that it sounds). Check them out!

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Even if I see no evil, sense fills in the blanks.