Wait for it.

Protagonist and antagonist in the story of my life. Sad is happy for deep people. If Michigan lost I'm probably in a bad mood. I knit, read and obsessively watch tv shows to keep things interesting.

[bookoffixedstars]

Alfred de Quervain’s Greenland expedition, 1912. ETH Library, Image Archive.

source

[my-dailydreams]

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America’s compact between science and politics is broken, and we’re all going to pay

How did we get here?

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I have been with BF for eight months today! Time flies when you are in love!

Despite myriad random complaints and issues, all the gunk and fuss of life, this has easily been the happiest period of my life thus far.

Eight months isn’t a typical notable milestone, but it is for me because every long-term milestone is the first I’ve ever experienced, AND he was with his last ex for “eight-ish” months, and it feels good to outpace the specter she has sometimes been in my mind.

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I needed a mental health day but my sick time is precious, so I just said I’m not feeling well and will be working from home today. And then probably not actually doing much/any work.

I am grateful my job at least has the flexibility for that, though it has been notable to me how much I’ve soured on in-person work since I took this job. I only have to be in the office two days a week and even that grates on me. I guess it’s partially that there is only one other person on my team, and he’s also the only person I really work with most of the time, so it’s not like I’m going in to connect with my team or whatever.

And there are a couple of nice women I eat lunch with, but they are not friend-friends the way I had real friends at my old job. Plus it’s just different because our work doesn’t interact much at all, whereas my friends at my old job were on the same team.

I’ve started worrying a lot, what if academia is the only environment where I’ll feel at home professionally, and I’ve left academia behind?

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I think if there’s one thing I’ve learned from this job (and my last, really) is that I do not do well with top-down structures. Particularly when I don’t respect the person at the top, and particularly when the culture at large is against continuous improvement and development of mature business practices.

Anyway I am having a very rough go of it at work today for seemingly no particular reason. There aren’t even any emergencies going on right now. I am watching Severance with BF though (I’ve seen it before, he hasn’t) and realized Ms. Cobel reminds me of Grandboss. I’m not sure if there’s any coming back from that, to be honest.

But I got rejected by the couple of jobs I’ve applied for recently and put minimum effort into applications for, and there aren’t any good jobs at all right now!!!!! And things have been better. I don’t know.

[huariqueje]

Cloudy Night , Pines - Alice Brasser , 2026.

Dutch , b. 1965 -

Oil on perspex on wood panel , 40 x 32 cm.

[hopefulmisanthrope]

We are all closer to Jeff Bezos' net worth than Jeff Bezos is to Elon Musk's net worth

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Sometimes Facebook Marketplace interactions feel like an exercise in how horrible of communication skills one person can withstand, but I’m so glad that I didn’t give up on these and made one last overture to the seller yesterday. 1970s lithographs that will go in our (our!) kitchen!!!!!

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It's been a really good weekend. The weather has been stupidly beautiful, the kind of weather that makes me think of Up North. I got in a longer bike ride this morning, and feel tired in such a satisfying way.

BF and I watched a lot of Severance, went on walks, and went to a crafting party hosted by one of his grad school friends.

Sometimes it feels as though I am being almost hypnotized into the rest of my life. I have known for a very long time that marriage and children would only be right for me under very, VERY specific circumstances, but even should those conditions be met, that it still wouldn't be a sure thing necessarily.

Now, with BF, and those conditions seemingly met, that future feels almost inevitable, and my heart wants it, I know, but it is a little hard for me to wrap my head around at times because I haven't really thought about it. My attitude has been, "If these unlikely things happen, then I will assess based off the situation." But now it's like, I suggest after we move in together maybe getting a Litter Robot because we will have four cats (LOL) and he goes, "Yeah, plus at some point while you're pregnant you really shouldn't be handling the litter at all." And I'm like...well...yes! But also, ME? PREGANTE?????

The idea honestly makes me very happy! It's just also scary and such whiplash from what I thought my future was going to be for so many years. I dunno, man.

[nobrashfestivity]

André Derain, Sorrowful Landscape, 1946

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Not really something I'm upset about, just something I find interesting because I've never dealt with it before, but anyway, BF was telling me last night how he went camping with a very good female friend of his last summer and now she is consistently and persistently trying to make it happen again and pushing to plan it, etc. He feels that it would not appropriate or respectful to me to go now that he has a significant other (which I am very grateful for because I would not like it!!!!), but while she otherwise seems to be a very good friend to BF, anytime he tells her no about something like this it turns into a Huge Incident. As in, she will text bomb him saying she's so hurt, doesn't understand, call him crying, etc., and this seems to happen about 2-4 times a year? IDK. I couldn't have a friendship like that but whatever!

Anyway, he has been noncommittal to her thus far because knowing he might prompt one of these incidents is understandably extremely stressful!!! But he also said being held hostage by a friend is not ok, and he will say no next time he sees her, but the whole thing has been weighing on him.

I guess I just find it interesting because if I had a good male friend who was in a relationship, I would never invite him to go camping just the two of us!!!! It seems like a very obvious boundary to me! Anyway it may shock you, but I am not a huge fan of this woman.

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fashion & beauty ss26

Inspired by that shoe post! These Pikolinos are my most-frequently worn shoe this time of year. The cutouts are *just* enough to plausibly call them sandals.

Some of you may recall a few months ago that I went on an epic hunt for a blonde mascara, with mixed success. Since then, I've found Tarte Tube Job Tubing mascara in Dark Blonde Taupe to be the color I was looking for -- it complements the natural color of my lashes perfectly, like applying bold font to my eyelashes. It comes off easily at the end of the day, another perk!

Lastly, I pretty much live in linen blend pants from Old Navy in the spring and summer. They're affordable and keep the heat at bay and they usually have pretty cute styles.

[hyliantomatoes]

wait now i’m curious what’s everyone’s go-to pair of shoes

[hinoneko]

*sigh* fine, fine, i'll be the new doctor who showrunner. bring me two twinks, britain's tallest woman, and 1000 pounds worth of alumininamian foil

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Meanwhile here’s Tonks ruminating on her regrets. Just kidding, she’s a cat! She doesn’t have regrets!

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TFW the robot vacuum starts