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Heartbroken

Caught this clip years ago on my best friend at the times mirror cam thingy. I saved it because I liked the way my ass looked. Years later he tells me he is thinking about moving to Boston, I brushed it off. I really didn’t take it seriously at tf all.. Until he came to say goodbye. Even then I didn’t think it was goodbye, ya know? He asks me basically if before he left there was even a slight chance for us and I just turned him down. Now we had slept together, and just really had this bond. I loved him with all of me, I just wasn’t in the mindset for a relationship or anything that had to do with emotions as I was fresh out of a break up. Fast forward, he leaves and we keep in contact. One day I receive a message that he has to cut off all of his old life… He met someone who made him block me in translation. And in that moment, when I could no longer speak to him, my heart shattered. He chose someone he just met over me. He is now happily married and has a beautiful baby. That could have been me, and it kills me sometimes. He was the one man I knew really loved me. He was my once in a lifetime and I literally will never forgive myself. Anyways. It popped up in my memories and I had to get that off my chest.