Like A Complete Unknown

((sideblog for Robert Ontenient))

[likearollingstxne]

things have been up and down, they're spectacular one moment then I feel like crap the next. it's giving me fuckin whiplash

[likearollingstxne]

maybe I'm overreacting in my mind i shouldnt even really care at this point hes just some stranger right?basically??

[likearollingstxne]

oh my god they're really dating n shit

this is rly weird

[likearollingstxne]

why are things feeling so goddamn heavy right now nick is right here but I feel like I havent been enough I'm not enough I'll never be enough fuck

[amour-nourriture-deactivated201]

i was toxic to some and a blessing to others. im willing to admit i wasn’t always in the right.

[likearollingstxne]

Way to be dramatic last post

I feel like I've been out of touch, but I wanna be Here again.

[likearollingstxne]

if things are Good then why do I feel so Bad

[likearollingstxne]

I'm trying my best to like Not Think About it but im pretty sure that was his voice I heard while facetiming C the other night . He was in our house. I'm trying to process this but I dont even know how to feel about it but also like, whatever he can do what he wants I've seen him hang around C before it's fine.

I'm gonna not think about it

[likearollingstxne]

Nick's taking me to Ireland and I'm so!!! so excited!! I think he still feels bad for being so busy at work in the fall and he's still trying to make up for it, but I don't even care I know he's busy.

(it does feel nice to be spoiled like this though)

[drunkenlyhere]

It is you. It is fucking you. I cannot describe it anymore, it is you. You are the only one that I will ever want. I belong with you. You are my home. I look at you, and somehow I can see 50 years from now on the front porch of some old house in the middle of nowhere and we’re together. I need you. You are the only thing that matters. You are my good.

[likearollingstxne]

feeling

homesick

ouch

[likearollingstxne]

I wish I knew how to make all the christmas food my mom used to make

[likearollingstxne]

I didnt wanna feel down thinking about how I cant go back to my family, but everyone talking about staying for christmas made my heart so so warm

they're my family now

[likearollingstxne]

if I could get my man anything for christmas it would be the world because he deserves it

[likearollingstxne]

everything feels so sluggish, like it's taking forever for my brain to kick in and start doing shit

my brother messaged me a few days ago asking if I want to come home for Christmas. I haven't even read the whole thing

[likearollingstxne]

just going back to being us, I'm so glad that rhythm and spark is still there. I love you so much. I'm so glad you're back

[thehoneykush]

🌈 happy pride month everyone 🌈