MANIA

》 If you're looking at me right now, won't you see all my pain? 《 they/them | 19 y.o | infp 4w5

[lilallama]

MASTERLIST

Welcome to the cooking club!

Hello! It has come to our attention that so many students seemed interested in our club. And since we sadly are not accepting any new members, we decided on an alternative. You can submit all kinds of questions to our club and individual members, yay ^^! We will answer them for you gladly.

We also accept recommendations of dishes we could try ^^. Thank you for all your help.

Also, due to demands of my fellow club members, I ask you to please refrain from asking about any of these following topics: the newspaper club, the gardening club, the kam club, the skate club, the art club or our teachers! Thank you for understanding ^^.

- Leader of the cooking club, Jung Hoseok.

Questions [asks]

• Can I read your lyrics, Yoongi? [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• You're absolutely adorable, Yoongi. [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• Hope you're having a great day, Taehyung. [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• I truly thought you forgot, Taehyung. [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• Namjoon, what is a bird's favourite type of math? Owlgebra! [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• Hey Author, just checking in. How's Taehyung? [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• Author, Taehyung, I decided to dress up as a kpop idol for Halloween! [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• Hey Author and Taehyung, how's the Halloween cooking going? [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• Jin, happy birthday, my prince~ [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• Taehyung, I found out about your secret shrine of me. [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• Taehyung, do you like me? [submitted by L/n Y/n]

• You forgot about me during the holidays, Taehyung! [submitted by L/n Y/n]

Recommendations [scenarios]

• Espresso [submitted by anonymous]

• Belgian Chocolates [submitted by anonymous]

• Chocolate Milkshake [submitted by anonymous]

• Ice Tea [submitted by anonymous]

• Angel Milk [submitted by @burberryplaid]

• Red Velvet Cookies [submitted by @lyra0cassiopeia]

• Chocolate Milkshake [submitted by anonymous]

• Apple Pie [submitted by anonymous]

• Strawberry Pudding [submitted by anonymous]

• Cherry Cheesecake [submitted by anonymous]

• Black Tea [submitted by anonymous]

• Chocolate covered Strawberries [submitted by anonymous]

• Wolfsbane Tea [submitted by anonymous]

Members Suggestions [One Shots]

• Golden Boy [submitted by Kim Taehyung]

[ Too edgy bitch. Fuck you for including Y/n in this bullshit - Jk ]

Club Info [Backstories]

• Umbrella Weather [submitted by Kim Taehyung]

• Anger Issues [submitted by Jeon Jeongguk]

Other [ft. Other Clubs]

• What are the members ages?

• What are the members ideal occupations?

• What if Y/n was protective of the art club?

• What if Y/n found out Jeongguk was their childhood best friend?

** All past Asks and Scenarios can be found under the hashtag yandere bts.

*** Additional note: When asking something in which you refer to the reader please stick to they/them pronouns. The reader does not have a specific gender unless requested otherwise. (Please do keep in mind that periods are not gender specific even though we mostly see them in context with women.)

[lilallama]

I just wanna thank you for using multiple gender terms for the reader in your work! I’ve only recently started reading your works but it was so enjoyable! I use he/they and very rarely she pronouns. It’s a little difficult for me to read books with the reader constantly being referred to as she/her constantly. And honestly it kills the experience a little. So thank you 💗 I know a lot of people probably don’t care. But it honestly, for me at least, makes reading so much more comfortable and freeing

lots of love - a new anon 🍤 shrimpie

I know I was on hiatus for a long time and still kinda am, but I do read all you guys' asks. So this made me very happy when I read it ^^

I purposefully try to make Y/n as gender neutral as possible so that everyone can read my works. It really brightens my day when I hear things like this! I'm so happy you enjoy my works ❤❤❤

[lilallama]

So is hyudawn still canon in your au? Cuz they certainly aren't irl 😭

I know 😔 I was heartbroken when I heard!!

But yes, in my au they're still canonically together and married.

[lilallama]

Hey hey, take care of yourself first, okay ? We all want you happy and healthy before anything else ! 💖💖 Also, I'll go beat up your school for being too hard dw 💪😤

Aww! Thank you ^^ that's so sweet!! I'll make sure to take care of myself. You too! Drink your water, eat well and get enough sleep ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[lilallama]

This might be a little bit of a weird question since I know you haven’t done this in a long time but- would you ever consider doing more hybrid y/n? I’m not a big fan of Y/n being this like sweet innocent lil thing the fanclub has to take care of- but I really enjoyed the wolf hybrid y/n short you wrote a long time ago and was just wondering if we would ever get something like that again (it’s okay if not tho)

[Of course! I hope this is alright. ❤]

It's been weeks since these strange humans have taken Y/n away. There has not been a single day where the wolf hybrid didn't attempt to escape. Every minute was spent searching through the limited number of areas they had access to. But they have yet to succeed in their attempts. The security was tight and not a single crevice was left unchecked for any openings. Y/n's chances of escape seemed rather disheartening.

The room they were mostly kept in was ridiculously huge. Paintings of them, that one of those bastards drew, covered the walls fraimed in gold. Y/n scratched and chewed up multiple, but those people just fawned over how cute they were. How patronising to be treated in such a way! It only made Y/n more furious at their captors. Constantly being coddled and pet was only stressing them further. If given the chance they'd jump to bite their hands off.

They've tried actually, multiple times. But they acted as if it was some great honour to be assaulted by the wolf hybrid. Not even a smidgen of fear seemed to be ignited within them. Y/n was convinced these beings were completely void of a survival instinct. How infuriating.

While they dressed them up, not without struggle and a bit of medication, Y/n could only think about their pack. Their family. How worried they must be for them. Y/n could only hope they hadn't thought they abandoned them. But the thought also gave them strength. The will to escape, no matter what.

"I was thinking of buying them this diamond necklace. Though I fear it might be a bit cheap for them." Namjoon studied the picture of a beautiful collar like necklace on his phone. Seokjin glanced at the price and rolled his eyes. "Only 30 thousand? Is that how little they're worth to you?" While Namjoon sighed and agreed with Seokjin, Yoongi cringed at the price. These rich people seriously have too much money. But Y/n does deserve the best so... If he had the money he'd buy them whatever they desired. Too bad his "friends" were a great deal luckier than he was. Finishing the last brush stroke, Taehyung took a step back to admire the painting of Y/n. "Aren't they glorious?" He sighed dreamily. Jimin, who was lounging on the couch, could not agree more, giggling about looking forward to getting to see their reaction. Taking a deep breath in, Taehyung already felt the anxiety bubble within him. Maybe this time his pure angel will deem his craft worthy? The youngest of the bunch, Jeongguk, had been circling the couch for a while while mumbling to himself. Hoseok scoffed, "Is that your sorry attempt of mimicking the circling practices of wolves to impress Y/n? Because I doubt that'll get you very far. You're not even using it in the correct way." Of course, Hoseok had read up on wolf hybrids, his darling Y/n was one after all. Jeongguk frowned towards the now laughing Hoseok. "Of course not!" But he couldn't help but debate for a second if that would impress Y/n. "It's just, Y/n has been very uneasy in their room. I was thinking of something to calm them down." Jimin looked towards them, "Maybe a big scratching post?" "They're a wolf, not a cat, idiot." Namjoon retorted. "Then a big ball!" "They're not a dog either."The youngest huffed, "I was more thinking of, like, video games or something." "What would a wild wolf hybrid want with video games?"

From the other room Y/n could hear their conversations and growled. How did these fools end up capturing them, how embarrassing.

[lilallama]

Hiiii should we be expecting some new work soon??~~

So sorry that it took me so long to respond! By now my followers definitely know how frequently I take breaks from posting tho ^^'. School has really been giving me a lot of trouble lately, I hope you understand.

I'll for sure try to post something by sunday at least. I hope you've all been very well ❤❤❤❤

[lilallama]

Idk why but I find taehyungs character here so enticing ? but more so in a 'i love it but if this ever happened to me i real life i would hide in a bunker never leave again and have all my food handed through a small hatch in my roof so i never actually come in contact with another living thing'

I'm glad you think so! Tae is probably my fave character to write. It's a very interesting concept since he's not just obsessive about his crush, but about a person he considers a god of sorts. A devine being. I'm not even 100% sure if cc Tae actually loves (in a very twisted, yandere way) Y/n. I doubt he even knows that himself.

But it's definitely best to stay away from people like that irl!! Luckily, there's not many people delusional enough for that.

[lilallama]

Omg I’m so excited you posted. Can’t wait for pt 2💗💗

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[lilallama]

I JUST GOT BACK FROM A TRIP! & UR BACK!!!! I’m so happy! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I missed u <333

YEAH I'M BACK! V v glad that made you happy ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[lilallama]

No lmao please, if taehyung ever introduced me to his parents after they found out about his crazy god thingy they would be so disappointed in him LOL...I literally dress like some emo girl in grade six who got dumped in pastel colours and became 6ft 3 everytime i see chunky platforms TT that and the fact that im literally the gayest man alive lmao bruh it would be so funny meeting them XD

PLSS 💀💀💀

Pray the gay away? Nah, he prays to the gay.

[lilallama]

What's the cc opinion on Y/n stepbro?

I have horrible news, my writing block caught up to me. But since I don't want to leave you guys with nothing, here's part 1 of this ask. I'll write the other part soon.

Hoseok respects Kai, but hates his guts. He understands that Kai is important to Y/n and that they value him. So it is very important to not mess with Kai too much. At this point in his and Y/n's relationship they're still unstable. He cannot be sure they won't leave him all of a sudden. Thus, he needs to play his cards right. The disappointing thing is that Kai is also possessive over his little sibling. Automatically Hoseok is perceived as a threat to Y/n, even by just standing next to them. Even worse, he once caught Hoseok sneaking into Y/n's room. That day he broke his right leg and wrist, due to falling out the window of their apartment. Luckily it was only the second floor. When Y/n asked about it he had to lie, and told them he broke his leg and wrist because he landed wrong during dance practice. They didn't look convinced, but didn't ask further. Hoseok can't wait for that bastard to graduate and go to college.

"Kai? Oh~ I don't know him that well. But he seems nice enough. It's really sad that he has to graduate this year..."

As the king of the school (and Y/n's heart) Seokjin does not view Kai as serious threat. So what, he's their step-brother and can potentially influence their perception of him? Pah~ Seokjin is their soulmate! Even if they don't want to admit it. Seokjin, unlike some of the other members, sees no point in breaking into their apartment or stalking Y/n. Because guess what, once they're officially announced to be dating he can go there whenever. And, really, it's just some average, poor person living space. Why would he go there? Truthfully, Seokjin is too full of himself to even consider the possibility that Y/n doesn't yearn for him 24/7. Had the rules of the club not forbade it, he'd have long told the whole school that Y/n is his lover. Kai hates Seokjin so incredibly much, but there is another member worse than him...

"Who? Kai? Uhh... no, I've got nothing. Who's that again?"

Poor Yoongi is seriously scared of Kai. Well, part of him is, the other wishes nothing more than to tear out his intestines and leave them for the rats to devour in some back ally. But.. he doesn't like to talk about it. For the first time he was honestly thankful that he seems to be invisible to others. He was sitting in the tree outside of Y/n's window, enjoying how peaceful they look while sleeping. He almost wanted to snatch them up and run away, leaving the entire building aflame and never returning. Obviously he couldn't do that... right? But then, suddenly Kai walked in and caressed their cheek, kissing their forehead and making sure to place the phone next to them on the bedside table. He didn't notice Yoongi. To this day, it's like he doesn't even know Yoongi exists. How easy it would be to just sneak up behind him and choke the last breath out of him. To push the sharpest raisorblade over his lips, untill they're just a fleshy, bloody mess... Oh, what is he thinking! Aren't intrusive thoughts just the worst..?

"Uhm.. Y/n's brother, right? I don't know... he- he's okay? Just very... I mean he's uncomfortably physical with... nevermind."

In all honesty, Namjoon hates Kai's guts. Though unfortunately for him, his dearest Y/n actually likes their stepbrother. The last thing Namjooon would ever want to do is ruin his chances with Y/n, so he approaches this issue strategically. In school he treats Kai with a healthy dose of respect, which he mostly reciprocates. Always making sure to never allow that pathetic- sorry, I mean, Kai to see the true extent of his obsession over his Y/n. The idea is to make a good impression on Kai. Since he's not delusional, he is well aware that Kai's opinion might sway the object of his obsession. It's best to portray himself as a responsible, mature person who's well off. I mean, who wouldn't want someone so intelligent and filthy rich as their in-law. Unfortunately Namjoon still is affiliated with the other members of the cooking club. That automatically makes Kai distrust him. No sane person could stand being around that bunch. Admittedly Namjoon agrees, though he hates to agree with that weird theatre kid. It's apparent that Kai and his lovely Y/n are not blood related. He in no way matches their kindness, their grace, their beauty, their intellect! But he'll have to live with it if Y/n's going to be his future spouse which they will.

"Yes, I am acquainted with Kai. I'd like to say we're on decent terms, but other than that..."

[lilallama]

Are you going to post?

Take your time 💖

Yes ^^ Expect something new within the next days, at most within the next week. I was a bit occupied, sorry that I didn't post anything.

But I'm not going on another hiatus ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[lilallama]

How you doooiiiiiiiiinng~?💗

I'm quite alright, thank you for asking. I hope you're doing good as well, or at least alright ^^

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[lilallama]

I’m so happy your back and you are feeling better, everyone needs a break sometimes. But I was just wondering if I can still request something?💗💖

Very true! Breaks are important, guys, don't push yourselves too far.

Sure, go ahead. I have many asks and drafts still waiting, so it unfortunately could take a bit. But feel free to request smt ^^

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[lilallama]

Yayyyy, you're back!! I missed you a lot 💖 don't push yourself and only write when you feel like it, alright? There are so many people who care for you c:

(Also, if you're having a rough day, you can always talk to me about it 😊)

I really appreciate that! I didn't think my blog was memorable enough for ppl to miss me. But you're all so sweet, it's unbelievable! I don't even know what to say!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[lilallama]

OMG

Lately one of my comfort accounts announced they won’t post fics anymore and I was so sad BUT THEN I saw that you posted and now I know that your doing okay and that you health is getting better :) made my day

I'm so glad I could cheer you up a little! That's soo nice, thank you so much! Today was a pretty rough day, but this made me smile ^^

I hope you're doing fine as well, take care of yourself ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[lilallama]

Your literally my fav yandere writer, I love your content and please TAKE YOUR TIME. We all need a pause sometimes but just know that we (at least me) will wait for you to get back.

PS. Your content is 😍😘😇🥰😍

AAAAA I don't even know what to say!! I feel so honoured, thank you!!