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Itās been 6 years!!
It has been 5 years since I last opened my Tumblr account!! I canāt believe how so much time has passed and I am going over some of my last posts back in 2018 now that it is 2023. I will revive my Tumblr account again and probably create a catch-up of what has happened in those 5 years I have been absent from real blogging :)
I canāt wait to be back here!!! Missing my Tumblr family (which is mostly just me, myself, and I)
Stunning, balanced, and straightforward--possibly the three words I could use to describe Tokyo.Ā
I canāt wait to go back to Japan and explore more.
Life may or may not explicitly give you the directions to your next journey, but that shouldnāt keep you from enjoying living this current moment.
I wish there is a way I can show how much you mean to me. I wish I could take the risk this time. I wish you could wait for me.
My Take on Depression
When I was in my teenage years I have experienced bullying from my classmates and even my own teachers. I struggled a lot through my high school years thinking only how I want to find true friends who will defend or support me against these abusive people who think only of themselves. I studied in a Catholic school, but it never occurred to me like I was studying in one (well except for the fact we had first Friday masses, patron saint festival events, and Christian-Living courses). I felt God was not seeing me and only allows me to suffer from the hands of these people. These abusive kids call me petty names and make laugh of almost everything I do and say for a reason until now I still donāt understand.
When I started on my college and university life in a new school, I felt that itās finally time for me to redeem myself and prove people I have the right to be respected and I am good and smart too. I studied hard to be an achiever in my class, to top most of our exams, to be the best in class, to be known to my professors and have the appreciation that I did not get when I was in my early years. I also strived to meet and know more people and be close to them because I want to have a new set of friends who will pay back all the years of loneliness I felt when I thought I have no real friends in high school. Ā All these things, I earned in College. I count these years as the best years of my life
When I graduated, I felt dignified, competent and happier. I was really happy although I want to achieve more things in my career. With all these success I came with the thought these were all because of me, my hard work, and my intelligence. I remember when all my classmates were going to the Church to pray and become a devotee of St Jude Thaddeus (Patron Saint of Hopeless Cases) to help them ace their exams especially if their chances of passing are so minimal. When they ask me to come with them to pray, I will excuse myself of just going home to study and prepare for an all nighter for an exam that will happen in two weeks. Well donāt get me wrong, I also pray that time. Just that Ā I became obsessed with earning the CPA title and more so becoming ahead of myself and of everyone of my age. I made hasty decisions without thinking about the consequences and risks of unplanned actions. I thought I am indispensible now than ever. Until I felt that knock again from Him saying, āYouāre not yet ready. You seem to have forgotten me.ā
Over the past two years, I seem to struggle a lot coping with the pain of accepting rejections from things I am passionate about. When I see people my age being so successful in their careers at an early age, having all the opportunity to prove themselves, I cannot help but feel envious of why God does not allow me to experience these things too. I felt He was being so unfair to me when I wished no one negative thought (I never wished people who bully me to be hit by a car and die so I will never see them again). I was very supportive of my friendsā dreams in life. But I felt like no one was supporting me at all. This was when depression hit me. Although I seem to disregard this for a long time, thinking I only have to wash out the negative thoughts and just be blindly optimistic.
I felt more anxiety attacks, tremors, stomach ulcers, and vertigo episodes. My weight has reduced significantly and my friends thought I am becoming so thin (even if I felt I am still healthy and normal). When these things got worse making it hard for me to work, I decided to consult a neurologist (I was only concerned with my shaky hands and frequent palpitations because of anxiety attacks). Somehow God made His way to me by referring me instead to a neuropsychiatrist (no solo neurologist was available in the hospital that time). The doctor diagnosed me of having a very active and impulsive nervous system so he put me in antidepressant. I took this medicine twice a day and it lessen my tremors although it made me nauseous and sleepy all the time. I decided I donāt want to take this medicine forever. I said if stress from work triggers this, then maybe I have to think again about my job and file resignation soon.
It also came surprisingly how over these circumstances, I met a coach who not only is my team lead at work but also eventually became my spiritual coach, career mentor, and almost like a second parent. She invited me to some bible study and as I became more invested to this activity, I found the reason of all the pain I felt. It was also because of my own doing. I put no enough trust in God that He will lead me to the right path and decision. That He has His separate and unique plans to each of His children. Without Him, I am nothing. I relied too much on the acceptance of the world around me: my own family, relatives, friends, colleagues, and even the people I want to help. These people I love, they are gifts of God to me, but their acceptance and love are nothing if I do not accept and love my own person. Loving yourself is not an easy task for there is a risk of pride and vanity that come along with it as part of our human nature. You can only love yourself, if you accept the gifts, flaws, and uniqueness God has given you. I realized that you have to accept His unconditional love so you can know how to love yourself. In this way you can only know how to spread love to other people too.
Ā The next time you hear someone is depressed, the best way to help them is to pray for them and remind them they are not alone. Someone will be willing to listen to them Ā and hear them out, and someone divine loves them more than any human being could.
ADVICE FOR THE SIGNSš
Aries; please donāt think that youāre not wanted, or loved. People need you, we need your fire and ambition; you light up the room and make everyone forget their worries.
Taurus; you will find someone to love as much as you love them, do not fret over romance. It will come to you in good time, you are like mother nature itself; beautiful but dangerous. Gemini; do not regret the things you could have or have done, live for the present. You are a fresh breeze of renewal, just because you messed up in the past does not mean you canāt change the future. All will be forgotten and forgiven soon.
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Is it a better choice to walk away when you know a friendship or relationship is not being healthy and mutually beneficial anymore? When you know youāre just holding on because somehow you think things will change and work on your favor? The thing about having an idealistās mind is you see things perfectly--that even if things go through rough times, silently you hope God will make that plot twist which will make things all right again.
As I grow older, I thought itās all a matter of being positive. When you pray, God hears you and He will answer. Then there comes reality and knocks you off your feet then makes you question everything you used to believe in. One coach of mine used to say,Ā āDonāt let other people take the kindness that you have in your heart.ā What if you get tired? What if youāre finally fed up of people using you for their own good? What if itās the people you thought you can trust who will turn their backs on you on the time you need them the most?Ā
Why hardly thought lessons are more rewarding than easy way outs?
I often ask myself why articles come up saying how kids who used to get failing grades in grade school or drop outs from college, often have more interesting stories to tell when they become old? Compare to that smart kid whom everyone expects to be good in his life, for me itās much more interesting to hear stories of success coming up from hardly taught lessons.
iāll probably be more interested to hear a story of someone humble enough to admit his past failures, than someone cocky who will tell he has all the means to get what he has in life. *eyes rolling*
Temporary people come and go..
I have always overlooked your presence in my heart, but I am always thankful how you show up in times I need you the most.
Youāre my best friend.Ā
My first ever solo travel taught me way more about independence than what I used to know. It's all about having the freedom to do what you want.
It has almost been a year since the doubt came in. Every bit of it, I can still recall. Probably no matter how much years will pass, the memory will still be there.Ā
It was a moment of snapping back and how reality knocks itself right into your face and fucks up everything you have ever believed in. I wish I could go on with my life being happy and nonchalant about it. Donāt get me wrong, I am happy now. I have plenty of opportunities waiting for me to say yes to them. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I finally got my shit together.Ā
God indeed has His own ways of letting you know when something is for you or not. He has His ways of giving to you what your heart truly desires, but it comes with a cost. It comes with a cost of having to get what youāre yearning for in ways you couldnāt imagine. Most of the time the answers are visual. For me itās even straightforward most times. You just have to accept it when it comes.
Sometimes itās not always pretty. But even if itās not pretty, itās not also so ugly.
Deep in my heart I will always remember every bit of the lessons it taught me. Probably, you are proud of what I became (or will become proud of who I ought to be). Who I am right now is still the same. I am still the happy, unpredictable, and gullible person I am right now. I am still childish for some aspects of my life, and I still listen to the same type of music (hehe). But now, I am much more realistic and cautious of how people think. People do not really change, they just become the worst or best version of their character/beliefs.
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Aries: āIāM NOT CRYING. I JUST HAVE ALLERGIES, LEAVE ME ALONE.ā Taurus: They didnāt pay attention to the movie because POPCORN!
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