isn't good at this. never does things in halves. perhaps more in the extremes, at some points in her life. a need to protect herself, because her brother kept taking away these little good things in her life, in the name of trying to protect her from getting her heart broken. and as it went, he's the one that ended up hurting her. perhaps resentment has grown over the years. loves him of course. no matter what, he will always be her big brother. but he always did what he wanted. got what he wanted. willow had always been her sounding board. always agreed. and now that's changed too. another thing xander can have, but she can't. ❝ then i hope he makes you happy. ❞ there's a small shrug of shoulder, and deep down, very, very deep down, she hopes that. that she find happiness. just wish it had been with anyone but her brother.