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[They/It] Greetings!! Really nervous but i will try my best 🐑 You can call me Truthless Recluse/Apolo 🐏 Pls keep all interactions SFW, Thank You! (side blog of @apologetic-artist, but keep all agere discussion here)

[little-recluse]

Hi uhh im Recluse[They/It, Truthless Recluse fictionkin], this is my little sideblog, I do art, I write, I love DHMIS and CRK, petitioning for more Pure Vanilla agere content(silly)

Im nervous to post to this space sooo im sorry if im a lil awkward but I'll share art

[little-recluse]

I'm not even an age regressor and pure vanilla can still make me feel a little emotional when I imagine him taking care of me. That's our (yes OUR) dad

Yesss he just seems like an amazing carer in general!! Pure Vanilla, both in and out of regression for me, has been my favorite character and I just love the idea of him being around and helping take care of others. He's so gentle, it makes me overwhelmingly happy. He's also the type to love everyone no matter what and will try to help them in any way he can

Definitely our dad for sure, one of the best dads ever <3

[little-recluse]

It would be nice if Papa Nilla can hold me. He would probably be so nice with his littles, cooing and rocking them. He'll probably help them with anything like brushing their teeth and eating and washing their face. I love Papa Nilla, I wanna be held. Emotional little i am hmmm :<

[little-recluse]

Rotates you

Woah... dizzy \@ ~ @/

But fun!

(Gonna put the spinny Recluse animation under cut bc very spinny and dizzy. Also it's funni ehehe)

Me getting rotated, like a washing machine

[little-recluse]

Almost done with big Smilk refs so after I can draw them little and playing with stuffies!! It will be a nice break for both of us bc ive been working on it for about 3 weeks, want to make sure my big brain is happy with all the uhh symbols and stuff ehe. Then I can draw them small and happy and having fun!! Yayy!!

[little-recluse]

I wanna say interesting stuff but my brain turns off so all I wanna say is

Hiiii hewwoooo hlloo hiiii people elloooo

Mmm tiny baby brain time is fun ehehe weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee- look at sheepy emojis 🐑🐏🐑🐏🐑🐏 Baaaahhhhh!!

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Sheepy big oooo

(Taking "Recluse's babbles" seriously ehehe)

[little-recluse]

*throws a sheep plush at you*

Gasp!!

Sheepy!! I love sheepys ehehe, thank you 🐑

[little-recluse]

Hiii hewooo hiiiii hiiii ehehe hewwoooo 🐑🐏

[little-recluse]

Black Sapphire getting rolled up like a burrito in many blankets because his wings are too small to wrap around himself normally. He's a little baby bat that wants to feel safe in his wings but can't so he has one of his carers do it and hang him upside down for a little bit. It is his favorite activity

[little-recluse]

Imagining Pure Vanilla with his little at a meeting

"How come they are here?"

"They have good input! They're even taking notes."

He looks over his little's shoulder to see them coloring a picture of a sheep he printed out for them

They wanna be like their carer, me thinks, just following him around while doing work

[little-recluse]

Hope yall dont mind all my rambles recently. I just really like writing its a lot of fun! I'll try and make some drawings soon here but im redesigning Smilk for the 50th time. Making them mooorrreee jester bc I have a big fixation on clowns, street performers, jesters, stuff like that. Thinking like I just know I can do better. Too many cool ideas in my head that I need to put on a canvas, then I can make them baby/vsilly

(Maybe I'll sketch some Sapphire as a warmup sketch, I wanna give him a ringmaster hat :>)

[little-recluse]

Since I'm rewriting the Spire and the Deceit Trio for my AU, I've been thinking:

My favorite part about the Spire is definitely the lil bunny assistants, they bring me genuinely so much joy. I would like a stuffie of one of them.

Anyway, I like to think that the main center piece of the Spire is basically a circus tent. Arena, seats, tightrope, trapeze, everything. Shadow Milk mainly uses this area the most when they need to get energy out, which becomes increasingly rare as time goes on due to how fatigued and horrible they began to feel. However, even if they weren't using the equipment, they would still sit there and take in the room.

Shadow Milk regresses for the first time(well, first time they are aware of it) and is a bit scared by what is happening to their mind, even if they don't want to admit it. However, since the Spire is basically their body, it senses their discomfort. The bunny assistants immediately rush to their aid, forming a line for them to follow throughout the Spire, passing many other workers and residents as they go.

They finally make it to the center piece, the bunnies sitting them down in the front row. They bring them snacks and drinks, making sure they're comfy. One of the bunnies wiggles it's way into their grasp, letting them hug it as tight as they want.

The assistants wait for their attention before starting a small show, showing off magic tricks and doing fun skits. This, obviously, keeps Shadow Milk very entertained, giggling and bouncing in his seat, gripping the bunny in his arms a little tighter for comfort. It doesn't mind, just nuzzling closer.

In the end, they will get drowsy and sleepy after watching such a long show. The assistants help guide the little one back to their chambers, helping them get dressed and even finding a pacifier in all the random props and junk the jester has lying around the place.

After getting tucked into bed, all the bunnies will curl up next to Shadow Milk to make sure they feel safe. They'll hold onto any bunny closest and fall gently into slumber.

[little-recluse]

Baaahhhh!! 🐑🐑🐑

Petting Sheepy, I love Sheepy :>

[little-recluse]

Shadow Milk drags their heavy body towards the bedroom they share with Pure Vanilla, already feeling small. Maybe Nilla can take care of them tonight?

As soon as they open the door, Pure Vanilla is already small, comfy in his bed with some coloring supplies and stuffies surrounding him. The two stare at each other for a moment.

Shadow Milk smacks their lips.

"... We're both in the same predicament, aren't we?"

"Suppose so."

"..."

"..."

"... I warm us up some bottles and make some munchies, you set up the room."

"Deal."

I feel like the two enjoy regressing more when they get to do it together. They're very independent babies but they prefer to have someone close to make them feel safer. They get all snuggly with each other, constantly leaning against one another and/or hugging. They also play pretend a lot with their stuffies, even if the both of them don't usually speak when they're small (they feel that speaking shows you have a lot of authority over a situation due to their statuses so they only speak when they need to, which is usually never).

[little-recluse]

Thinking about babyre!Black Sapphire and cg!Shadow Milk rn in the context of my own AU and it's making me just really sad :<

Mad at myself for having such a compelling story that it make me feel what I want others to feel >:'[/vsilly

Just imagining Shadow Milk walking in on Black Sapphire after a bad episode and picking their kiddo up in their arms. They know why he has these moments, it's all because of their stupidity as a Virtue, but there is no time like the present, they can fix this.

They carry Black Sapphire into their and Pure Vanilla's shared room and sits down on the bed with him in their lap.

"I have you, kiddo, everything is going to be okay."

They state simply, going through the routine of bouncing and rocking, shushing and cooing, anything to get their baby to calm down. Then they get an idea! If shape-shifting helps them feel safe, maybe it can help him?

"Sweet baby? Do you think you can stay big for a few more moments? Mama wants to do something with you." They pull Black Sapphire to sit upright, gently petting his hair. "You know your little bat form you turn into? Yeah, we're gonna do something like that, okay? Mama does this all the time to follow the leader like the lil duckling you are."

Shadow Milk would go through a small lesson of shape-shifting but making it easily understandable for his little one, even assisting with their own magic.

In the end, Black Sapphire ends up a small dough, both physically and mentally. Shadow Milk was right! It did make their little one feel safe! After a quick wardrobe change, the little one is lying in Mama's arms with a warm bottle, being fed and coddled.

By the time Pure Vanilla comes back from working, Mama and baby are fast asleep, little hands grabbing onto fabric with soft snores filling the space.

Black Sapphire will end up waking up the next morning in between Mama and Ma, safe in their arms. However, his body is back to it's original size. Even despite this, he decides to stay there, comfy in his Caregivers' arms, falling back into a peaceful slumber.

(I love writing these longer drabbles bc I love writing in general hehe)

[little-recluse]

Chocolate milk is genuinely my favorite drink. I tell myself it's iced tea bc of how easy it is for me to carry and with chocolate milk I am very specific with it so it's harder for me to drink it (Iced tea is still amazing it's really great). But nothing makes me happier than having a nice quick meal before bed with a tall glass of fresh, cold chocolate milk i mixed myself. It never fails to make me all content and fuzzy inside

Big appreciation to chocolate milk

... don't get me started on milkshakes, thats just the best drink but I cant make it as often so chocolate milk it be

[little-recluse]

CG!Pure Vanilla is really gentle around any little. I like to think he's constantly humming and/or singing around his baby at all times, even changing some of the lyrics to be about his little. He'll gently lift the little's hands into his own and makes them do a little dance with their arms as he sings, helping them do the motions.

Pure Vanilla also loves to be sung too when little himself. Even if he's regressing by himself, he'll pull out a record and put it on, usually falling asleep to the singer's voice or the melody. If not the record, his mobile can also play music, but he's usually too scared to set it up out of fear he'll forget to put it away and someone will see it. But he still prefers when someone is present so he can feel his caregiver's voice rumbling through their chest.

(Deapite his regression being known between close loved ones, he still has the fear of someone seeing out of habit, poor baby...)

Conclusion: Nilla is a musical Caregiver and Little