Baby Bean 2.0 @littlebeanagain - Tumblr Blog

I was always the person who never wanted children. It was not in the plan.

So when I am having trouble with my kids, I feel like they were not supposed to be mine. I did not prepare my whole life for them, so I don't deserve them.

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At the women's March She took her first steps the next morning ❤

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Because we need to crawl around while we eat...

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The kids And I have been sick the last few days. Ander with a terrible cough, my voice is almost completely shot and poor Eve. She is all congested, green snot running like a fountain. She can't breath to nurse. And now, I'm sitting here with possible mastitis. My entire body aches and my left boob hurts with a touch of blood in my milk. Honestly, I'm so tired of it. Genevieve is 10months old today

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November 21st we have the 3rd bottom tooth cut through and the second top tooth starting to push through

Honestly, I don't know at what point what I'm feeling stops being normal. Life is pretty stressful. And if I didn't love my kids so much I would run away. That sounds so terrible. I realized, years later, that I was really depressed after having Ander. But it was more the situation than ppd I think. But maybe not. I never had anyone checking to see if I was okay. Am I depressed now or is this how a mother of two feels? Because I've never handled stress well. I've been terrible under pressure my entire life. Do I just keep holding on as hard as I can? Sure, I break down and fight and scream and have to talk myself off the ledge of wanting to really die. But how do I do anything different? This is a long vent/rant/type-without-thinking post Gnight

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I spent the weekend explaining why I haven’t started solid foods yet. It’s nice to end that with the support of #worldbreastfeedingweek 💙

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When the baby finally unlatches

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Someone didn't want to eat from the left side today making pumping non optional... Side note... my milk kind of tastes like coconut milk.

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Toes. MOM LOOK AT MY TOES! #babygirl

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Good morning We are day two of nose troubles. Yesterday she was sneezing constantly and today she's all stuffy. My poor girl

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My Pizza John shirt has been a source of entertainment. Since entering this world, baby Genevieve has, without fail, spit up on it every time I’ve worn it. No other article of clothing has this record. Ander has started telling me there is pizza on my shirt. We don’t really talk about our shirts all the time(cuz that’s weird) and have never told him our Pizza John shirts said “pizza” So… the first word my son knows by sight is Pizza!

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