moriarty's

ne me cherche pas, je ne suis plus là

[littlegirlandsunshine]

Hey, it's been years, and again, we're really sorry for anything we did. At first I thought I knew exactly how you felt, since I used to believe I was also the victim. But as time passed, I realized things were more complicated than that, you were the one who was hurt the most, even though it wasn't easy for me either.

We're really sorry, we did hurt you and made mistakes. We truly want to apologize and sincerely hope you find your own peace and clarity as well. It hurts us to think that you might still be struggling, and we never want to make you feel left behind or hurt in any way.

From the deepest part of our hearts, we sincerely hope you find happiness, meet your life partner, and never feel insecure again. You're smart, pretty, and full of dedication. You have value. We know you can get through all of this. We genuinely wish the very best for your life.

-SZ

[quoteastic]

If your partner isn't obsessed with you, get a new one.

[littlegirlandsunshine]

Some say, “the best kind of long-distance relationship is not to have one.” And I would say yes, I agree. Don’t do LDR if you don’t have strong communication skills. Don’t do LDR if you don’t trust your partner. Don’t do LDR if you’re still comfortable with lying. Don’t do LDR if you can’t manage your ego.

Is LDR complicated? Yes. It becomes really complicated when you keep hiding what you’re doing and never say what you actually want. You’re not dating a witch, honey. Be honest, or don’t bother at all. [27.12.22]

[littlegirlandsunshine]

Do you know? It feels so hard being in the middle, it's when there is nothing particularly attractive about you. You don’t have a pretty face, nor a sharp mind, nor even good communication skills. Sometimes, I wonder… Ah, it must be wonderful to be beautiful, to be admired by everyone.

We don’t even have the chance to date someone we truly like. Being a woman is different from being a man, we don’t get to choose. Well, pretty girls can choose, but we, the "middles," don’t have choices. We are the ones being chosen. And if no one picks us, we simply don’t get to date.

And when the time comes, when I finally get the chance to be with someone I love, I won’t take it for granted. I will love him with all my heart. I will love him wholeheartedly and give him the best of me.

So please, stop asking what kind of man I would date if I had the chance. Baby, I don’t even have a chance.

Baby… if anything happens to me, please go and find someone new. Date a medical student, just like you always wanted. Find someone who will love you wholeheartedly. Whatever makes you happy… then I will live (or die) happily too. 💗 [30.07.23]

[littlegirlandsunshine]

The night has been quite calm these days, so calm that I can hear the birds chirping, so calm that I can feel the haze over my window.

How are you? It has been days since I last heard your voice. I envy the tasks and papers you talk to.

How have you been? Do you remember to take your vitamins every day? How does it feel to be far away? I mean, we are always apart, but this time, you are multiple times farther from me. Far and busy, such a deadly combination.

Don't you miss me? Don't you miss arguing with me? I know we fight sometimes; we don't always have good conversations. But that doesn't mean I don't miss you. I miss you every single minute and hour.

Hey, the night has been quite calm these days, but I forgot to tell you, what is the point of a calm night without you? [03.04.24]

[littlegirlandsunshine]

hi there

[remanence-of-love]

[surqrised]

“Be strong, but not rude. Be kind, but not weak. Be humble, but not timid. Be proud, but not arrogant.”

— Unknown

[littlegirlandsunshine]

all i care about is a peaceful mind

[torrentialmonsoon]

our bodies touch and we connect like constellations cassiopeia with cepheus, our love flowing like eridanus among the colours of aurora borealis. stars glistening on our skin as the moon dresses like saturn by the beside sky. our bodies intertwine and we create our own constellations.

[littlegirlandsunshine]

i gained weights! finally after a rollercoaster ride.

these two years ain't easy for me. i had lost my weights after all the things i went through.

lately i found my own way, how to managed emotions, how to lower my ego, and how to forgive. i slowly receive my inner peace. it is so relieving to know i've changed for good.

shout out to everybody, i finally moved on♡

[ruhlare]

i think deciding to love someone continually is like reading the same book again, but each time finding a different line that hits deep and makes you think about something you didn't realize before. and you decide to read it again and again, knowing you'll never get enough of it, knowing you'll always find something new about them to love.

[littlegirlandsunshine]

my favorite cool down movement. i love hugging myself.

[n-ehpamoi]

And in the dark I never had any way of telling if I was spiraling downward or twisting in place – some pointless toil in some endless cycle – when you’re used to spinning out of control it gets to be normal.

I thought, “this really will be it, won’t it?”    "my new forever,      dark,        dizzy,   and alone.“

And I was okay with that. But life seems to think, that maybe I’d had enough – and suddenly here you are – hands pulling me from the twist, like it was so easy, smile like an ethereal light, so bright to replace the dark –    where had you been?

And where had I?

And I’ll stumble, now that I’m steady, and I’ll squint, now, till I can adjust, but I will.

And for once, I trust you’ll be there to help me through, know you won’t be letting go, like so many others, before you – this time, I don’t fear myself naïve for letting someone grab a hold of my heart just as simply as they grab me by the hand –

You’ve got me. Don’t let go, Don’t let go, and neither will I –

We can both find our way, to wherever, whenever, together.

Take my hand?

[littlegirlandsunshine]

it's been a year since the big tragedy, and the details still revive every time i saw the rain and clouds. it haunted me for months, can it be years? i don't know. but one thing i know, i'm way calm than before, such a good move. i'm proud of myself that i got good progress. i could go through it. good job.

and about forgiving.. it was hard for me to forgive people who were involved. but now i'm trying to.

[littlegirlandsunshine]

so i pray to God to make my life longer, at least until i can be genuinely happy on my birthday or feel that bliss called sincerity.

[littlegirlandsunshine]

i miss the time when it was raining, i ate my dinner and listened to doja. also hometown cha cha cha after that! oh, such a relaxing time.