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Kong: Skull Island (2017) Directed by Jordan Vogt-Roberts

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Really in the mood to go out, get drunk, dance, come home and have some bomb ass sex.

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So, Ive been struggling alot. Hense my Tumblr silence.

As it turns out, the super insane steroids thay my Gran was prescribed to try and take the swelling and pressure that is being put on her brain caused by the cancer, which is now wedged underneath her skull, are proving uneffective. This has taken her life span from "possibly 4 months" to "it could be tomorrow, the next day, next week...". She has now been advised to come off every medication she has been on for the last 30 years and enjoy what time she has left. As she does not want to go into any sort of care which involves leaving her house, my Mum and I are splitting responsibility of 24/7 care for her as she cant be alone. She is turning into a totally different person, someone I dont know and someone she isnt. She's started lying and making racist remarks which she has never ever ever done. She gets angry and swears at me which is not the person she is.

There hasnt been a day where I have not cried since we found out almost 6 days ago. Ive been struggling to peel myself out of bed every morning to go to work, Ive been getting into Manchester every morning and had to stop myself from jumping on another bus to her house rather than go to the office. I cant take any time off work as my employer do not pay any sort of compassionate leave and I still have to keep my roof over my head which makes me feel like a selfish asshole. I literally dont know what to do. Im sinking.

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