'The Journey

Hey everyone! Im here to motivate and encourage!

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Well I woke up for my therapy session with a hole in my stomach. I didn’t think my anxiety could get that bad, about learning who I am and why I do what I do. But at the end of the day my therapy session was actually for July 17th so I rescheduled another one for tommorow at 12. I think it will be easier then to talk and speak but now I have another day to ponder alone with my thoughts. It sucks. I miss her more everyday. I feel terrible about it. I wish there was another way.

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Hey so I’m back going to use this just to jot my thoughts down. This has been the hardest week I have ever had. I lost the love of my life by my own doing because I decided to break things off. I just moved to a new city for work and I’m out here alone to deal with the thoughts. My first day of therapy is tomorrow and I’m ready to become better and find the piece of myself that I lost. I miss her tho, so much. She was everything. Although we may have had our differences and disagreements, I will always cherish the time we had together. She was my first love truly. I’ve been praying, reading the bible, and getting closer to God because i know he’s my only way out. It feels like I’m living in a hell that I created for myself and it sucks. I will get better. I will learn more about myself. I will become a better man. I will speak positivity and growth into existence so it will happen. My parents told me if it’s meant to be it’ll be so I’ll trust that notion. I just want a day where I can smile again and not immediately be reminded of why I shouldn’t be. I love my life but it’s very hard to deal with what I’m dealing with at the moment. I’ll never give up though. Thanks for listening

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Just wanted to give you all a life update. It’s been a bit difficult. Not knowing if I’ll ever run again, dealing with the mental drawback of not doing what u want to do because I can’t fully athletically, and overall just a hard semester. Mentally I’ve been low but driven to push myself further at the same time. I thank God daily for waking me up despite the hardship. I will continue to get better physically and mentally everyday and no matter what happens I will do my best to be happy. New hobbies, going outside more, and meditation will be my outlets for now including you all.

#grind #mindset #nevergiveup #mentalhealth

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When it hits 12 and you forgot to turn in the assignment you finished

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This is where warriors are born.

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"You have to be able to accept failure to get better." -Lebron James

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Side Quest Of Doom

SO, i first did this side quest job today in hopes to meet new people and to honestly see how people who im not familiar with interact with one another. It was a good experience and i think everyone should travel around New Orleans and meet others!

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My first son, eight!

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Foot recovery

Recovery has been so grueling and honestly, tiring. Its not an easy process and the hardest part about it is the mental fortitude ive needed to have. I've never been on crutches before but now that Im walking, my mind again has been crutched. Not ever knowing if ill ever get back to normal, not ever knowing if I'll ever feel normal again. The constant questions I get from classmates, it just hurts. I'm trying my best to keep positng consistently and honestly, Ill use this as an outlet once my project is over i enjoyed it. But this is a message to never let a setback define you and its ok to feel every type of emotion. If i can wake up and do it everyday, you can too.

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Thoughtful Thursday

Ljgodumb here again just wanted to share with you all how I've been thinking as of late.

As I am a graduating senior it feels like im drowning right now. With school work, recovering from my injury, and knowing that in 6 months time my life will be completely different. I have to remind myself that even though I'm only human, theres no excuse for mediocrity. You have to give yourself grace to get through all of yojur struggles. But, at the same time acknowledge when you flal short. I am doing that right now. I will overcome this and succeed in all my endevours. One step at a time!

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"Your greatest loss will not come close to your greatest win" -Lejaune george Jr

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Mindset Monday!

How are all yall doing today? Just wanted to speak to you all about my recovery and my mindset this week. I know it's Tuesday, but I Im starting a series called "Mindset Mondays". Every week, I will tell you all about how im feeling and how close I am to getting fully healthy.

This week Ive been going to PT and feeling stronger when i jump and put power on my foot. Im very happy with my progress. Im crazy about improvement and I cant wait to keep seeing how im improve.

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Focused Mornings

Still Energy

Small wins daily

"You get 1% better everytime you wake up and chose the grind no matter the circumstances"-

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“We all have dreams. But in order to make dreams come into reality, it takes an awful lot of determination, dedication, self-discipline, and effort.” — Jesse Owens

Discipline to me is choosing to do what will set you apart even if its not the norm of society or your age group.

Growing up I would always put in the work necessary to come out on top. In highschool i used to run up to 14 mile long runs at 6am while people were still outside partying and having fun. Not because I condemn them or dont agree with what they were doing, but because i knew where i wanted to be in my track career and what i needed to sacrifice.

I wish i had a little more fun instead of being so locked in all of the time. Those decisions shape your future. I could ahve had more balance but i regret nothing. Years later Im blessed to have 4 school records in distance running at Xavier University of Louisiana.

My motivation was to make my family proud and to get college paid for and I got both. I didnt have motivation all of the time but my discipline got me through those tough times. Progress isnt built on perfect days,. Its built on the days you have no motivation but continue to grind anyway.

Hope you guys like the content so far! Let me know in the comments what else you guys want for me.

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Intro!

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Welcome to LJGODUMB's space!

On my page I will be speaking about my growth as a student athlete, the highs and lows of college, how im feeling about certain things, and the real un-cut version of my life.

Ill be very opne to sharing my thoughts, lessons I've learned, and my motivations and ambitions. Along with my wins and losses. These wins and losses have affected me in many ways as Im 74 days away from graduating, Im so excited.

If your trying to build something bigger than yourself, your pupose in a sense, never give up and know you have a home here. Cant wait to grow and share with you all!