let this end

~vent blog~ 25F 🇮🇪

[lonely-anger]

I'd never do it myself but don't let that fool you.

I want it.

I tempt fate, I get high, drink, smoke- everything they say will kill you. It hasn't yet.

I don't look crossing roads.

The thought comes into my mind on empty back roads, what if I just "lost control" of the car?

I tempt fate.

Or if someone did it for me, I'd thank them from the grave.

[buteverythingisred]

[amiibo-archive-deactivated20170]

[youwillleaveme]

i don’t think i’m ever gonna make something of myself. i’m scared i’m stuck with these thoughts inside me forever, i just have so much to say but can never find the words.

[lavatorivm-deactivated20180119]

[memorypassage]

[traaumaa]

[dead-as-i-tread]

𝕭𝖚𝖗𝖞 𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖘𝖊𝖈𝖗𝖊𝖙𝖘 𝖎𝖓 𝖒𝖞 𝖘𝖐𝖎𝖓 𝕮𝖔𝖒𝖊 𝖆𝖜𝖆𝖞 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖎𝖓𝖓𝖔𝖈𝖊𝖓𝖈𝖊, 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖑𝖊𝖆𝖛𝖊 𝖒𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖒𝖞 𝖘𝖎𝖓𝖘 𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝖆𝖎𝖗 𝖆𝖗𝖔𝖚𝖓𝖉 𝖒𝖊 𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖋𝖊𝖊𝖑𝖘 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊 𝖆 𝖈𝖆𝖌𝖊 𝕬𝖓𝖉 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊 𝖎𝖘 𝖏𝖚𝖘𝖙 𝖆 𝖈𝖆𝖒𝖔𝖚𝖋𝖑𝖆𝖌𝖊 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖜𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖊𝖒𝖇𝖑𝖊𝖘 𝖗𝖆𝖌𝖊 𝖆𝖌𝖆𝖎𝖓

𝔖𝔬, 𝔦𝔣 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢 𝔪𝔢, 𝔩𝔢𝔱 𝔪𝔢 𝔤𝔬 𝔄𝔫𝔡 𝔯𝔲𝔫 𝔞𝔴𝔞𝔶 𝔟𝔢𝔣𝔬𝔯𝔢 ℑ 𝔨𝔫𝔬𝔴 𝔐𝔶 𝔥𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔦𝔰 𝔧𝔲𝔰𝔱 𝔱𝔬𝔬 𝔡𝔞𝔯𝔨 𝔱𝔬 𝔠𝔞𝔯𝔢 ℑ 𝔠𝔞𝔫'𝔱 𝔡𝔢𝔰𝔱𝔯𝔬𝔶 𝔴𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔦𝔰𝔫'𝔱 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔇𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔳𝔢𝔯 𝔪𝔢 𝔦𝔫𝔱𝔬 𝔪𝔶 𝔣𝔞𝔱𝔢 ℑ𝔣 ℑ'𝔪 𝔞𝔩𝔬𝔫𝔢 ℑ 𝔠𝔞𝔫𝔫𝔬𝔱 𝔥𝔞𝔱𝔢 ℑ 𝔡𝔬𝔫'𝔱 𝔡𝔢𝔰𝔢𝔯𝔳𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔥𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔒𝔬𝔥, 𝔪𝔶 𝔰𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔢 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔱𝔞𝔨𝔢𝔫 𝔩𝔬𝔫𝔤 𝔞𝔤𝔬 ℑ𝔣 ℑ 𝔠𝔞𝔫 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔤𝔢 ℑ 𝔥𝔬𝔭𝔢 ℑ 𝔫𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯 𝔨𝔫𝔬𝔴

ℑ 𝔰𝔱𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔰 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔩𝔢𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔰 𝔱𝔬 𝔪𝔶 𝔩𝔦𝔭𝔰 𝔄𝔫𝔡 𝔠𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔦𝔰𝔥 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔪 𝔦𝔫 𝔭𝔞𝔯𝔱𝔰 𝔬𝔣 𝔪𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔰𝔞𝔳𝔬𝔯 𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔶 𝔨𝔦𝔰𝔰 ℑ 𝔠𝔬𝔲𝔩𝔡𝔫'𝔱 𝔣𝔞𝔠𝔢 𝔞 𝔩𝔦𝔣𝔢 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔩𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱 (𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔩𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱) 𝔅𝔲𝔱 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔯𝔦𝔭𝔭𝔢𝔡 𝔞𝔭𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔴𝔥𝔢𝔫 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔯𝔢𝔣𝔲𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔣𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱

𝔖𝔬, 𝔰𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔟𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔱𝔥, ℑ 𝔴𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔫𝔬𝔱 𝔥𝔢𝔞𝔯 ℑ 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔨 ℑ 𝔪𝔞𝔡𝔢 𝔦𝔱 𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔶 𝔠𝔩𝔢𝔞𝔯 𝔜𝔬𝔲 𝔠𝔬𝔲𝔩𝔡𝔫'𝔱 𝔥𝔞𝔱𝔢 𝔢𝔫𝔬𝔲𝔤𝔥 𝔱𝔬 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢 ℑ𝔰 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱 𝔰𝔲𝔭𝔭𝔬𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔟𝔢 𝔢𝔫𝔬𝔲𝔤𝔥? ℑ 𝔬𝔫𝔩𝔶 𝔴𝔦𝔰𝔥 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔴𝔢𝔯𝔢𝔫'𝔱 𝔪𝔶 𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔫𝔡 𝔗𝔥𝔢𝔫 ℑ 𝔠𝔬𝔲𝔩𝔡 𝔥𝔲𝔯𝔱 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔦𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔢𝔫𝔡 ℑ 𝔫𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯 𝔠𝔩𝔞𝔦𝔪𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔟𝔢 𝔞 𝔰𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔱 𝔒𝔬𝔥, 𝔪𝔶 𝔬𝔴𝔫 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔟𝔞𝔫𝔦𝔰𝔥𝔢𝔡 𝔩𝔬𝔫𝔤 𝔞𝔤𝔬 ℑ𝔱 𝔱𝔬𝔬𝔨 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔡𝔢𝔞𝔱𝔥 𝔬𝔣 𝔥𝔬𝔭𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔩𝔢𝔱 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔤𝔬

𝔖𝔬, 𝔟𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔨 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯𝔰𝔢𝔩𝔣 𝔞𝔤𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔰𝔱 𝔪𝔶 𝔰𝔱𝔬𝔫𝔢𝔰 𝔄𝔫𝔡 𝔰𝔭𝔦𝔱 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔭𝔦𝔱𝔶 𝔦𝔫 𝔪𝔶 𝔰𝔬𝔲𝔩 𝔜𝔬𝔲 𝔫𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯 𝔫𝔢𝔢𝔡𝔢𝔡 𝔞𝔫𝔶 𝔥𝔢𝔩𝔭 𝔜𝔬𝔲 𝔰𝔬𝔩𝔡 𝔪𝔢 𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔰𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯𝔰𝔢𝔩𝔣 𝔄𝔫𝔡 ℑ 𝔴𝔬𝔫'𝔱 𝔩𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔫 𝔱𝔬 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔰𝔥𝔞𝔪𝔢 𝔜𝔬𝔲 𝔯𝔞𝔫 𝔞𝔴𝔞𝔶, 𝔶𝔬𝔲'𝔯𝔢 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔰𝔞𝔪𝔢 𝔄𝔫𝔤𝔢𝔩𝔰 𝔩𝔦𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔨𝔢𝔢𝔭 𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔱𝔯𝔬𝔩 𝔒𝔬𝔥, 𝔪𝔶 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔭𝔲𝔫𝔦𝔰𝔥𝔢𝔡 𝔩𝔬𝔫𝔤 𝔞𝔤𝔬 ℑ𝔣 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔰𝔱𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔠𝔞𝔯𝔢, 𝔡𝔬𝔫'𝔱 𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯 𝔩𝔢𝔱 𝔪𝔢 𝔨𝔫𝔬𝔴

𝔖𝔫𝔲𝔣𝔣 ~ 𝔖𝔩𝔦𝔭𝔨𝔫𝔬𝔱

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[the-moon-whisperer]

[valentina-poem]

[hazyhhh]

[traaumaa]

my own personal form of hell

[spewd]

[the-psychedelic-witch]

Dylan Klebold/Kip Kinkel

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[unheroically]