So much emöshion,
Such little energyâŠ
My headâs wound with commotion.
You say these things,
you preach these thoughts,
Yet, you never stop to think,
youâre little game, Iâve caught.
You act like a host,
Of some game show, or roast,
Whatâs really the difference though?
Both take the bar down real low.
You thrive for power, you seek control
But when things donât go your way, you push us all away?
Now it seems youâre all aloneâŠman, youâre on a roll!
You manipulate and twist,
Made my thoughts go amiss.
You claimed me as your own,
Tried to make me your clone
But sweety, news flash:
My skins made of flesh.
You tied my up,
as if I were I puppet
You took control of my actions
All for your satisfaction.
Day after day,
You pushed my thoughts far away,
The me in me? you chose to erase
So all that was left
was a bunch of empty space
You were quick to move
Filled up with more of you.
Iâd ditch pre made plans
to rush to your side
All for what?
My self worth to collide?
Youâd laugh it off,
Say itâs just a miscall
Everythingâs fine,
Pushing me deeper, as I fall.
I kept your problems private,
If you posted a call,
I texted within an instant
If anything, to stall.
Stall what, you ask?
The inevitable!
That one forever-lasting, deadly task! At least until a visits available.
I swore I knew inside your head,
When you felt down, I picked you up
And even moved to share a bed.
You were always welcome to my home
You were always given love and care.
But I never did anything for you, did i?
I never dropped what I was doing to rush right over?
I never went against your desires?
Please, what did I do?!
I did everything I could for you!
and after the 11th time of you blocking me and pushing me away because of your drama that you didnât want to bring to me for help, I canât do it anymore! Even now, I still check in on you⊠All for what? To find you private or Iâm blocked?
You poisoned the air I already stuggle to breathe.
You suffocate the thing that gave you her all. And hereâs a fun fact! I didnât attempt suicide Until you gave the first unfriendly act! You cry out, âoh why did I waste my time trying to save youâ Well sweety, you caused it in the first place. I tolerated my family and my problems before you joined the mix!
I went to everything I could for youâŠ
not once did you go to support me.
Not once did you drop everything and rush straight over⊠in fact, when I needed you most, the only way I could get you was if I went to you. I always had to aproach you with my problems and what I needed. At least I helped without needing to be asked!
I took so long to know you!
Ask me anything about you,
I can still answer.
yet if I asked âmy favorite desert?â
I bet you couldnât even answer.
You said all these things,
and played all these tricks
with my already fucked up head of bricks.
You constantly play the victim,
unless you apologize most passivelyâŠ
And even then,
only if itâs pointed out.
Iâm not your puppet,
nor is anyone else.
Respect peopleâs mind space,
just because you see one thing, they see another.
Care for peopleâs hearts,
you canât see how broken they truly are.
Honor peopleâs needs and desires.
Weâre all human, and both of those are basic functions.
Open your eyes, and learn how a human acts.
If people want you to throw them around, then go for it.
Thatâs their life.
This is mine.
As soon as I started gaining strength,
And your reins on me loosened,
thatâs when we started to separate.
You realized that your power over me could last no longer.
I really do hope you enjoy your life.
Mabe someday weâll meet again.
Every person you meet teaches you a lesson; itâs your choice whether or not to bother learning it.