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Will try my best to not binge in august. Fresh start <3

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07.04 ♡

lostdelicatedarling

Diet vent (healthy eating)

my way of eating now is simply eating to try and get the most nutrition as possible while in a deficit. Prioritizing nutrition over hyper palatable food.🍌🥗 🥔 🫘 🍓

Last time, I felt so miserable and I wonder if it was because I was eating small amounts of calorie dense foods with little to no nutritional value.

Now that I’ve learned to love eating healthy, it’s so easy not to eat processed foods. I think of the food I eat as vitamins and energy. Also prioritizing vitamins and electrolytes this time. I’m hoping I won’t feel super shitty when I get to a lower weight again. I’m 10 pounds away from my goal weight, and then I’ll have to learn how to fckn maintain. I don’t feel hunger or cravings, I would just not eat at all but then I don’t want to feel like slamming my head into a brick wall. For the most part, I felt miserable in the past because I missed eating all the food I loved.

When I used to go on 4 day fasts, I felt so shit and it definitely fucked my health way more then if I were to have just restricted. Also triggered binges and created a bad cycle. Cutting out carbs made me feel awful. Carbs are such good energy. There’s studies now showing the health affects keto diet has on women and women’s hormones, made me lose my period and I was always moody.

Obviously restricting isn’t healthy, but I just want to do this in the “healthiest” way possible. Build healthy eating habits and so it’s easy to maintain. I don’t want to go back to eating cake and doordashing whenever. Even as a vegan for 4 years, I was eating all the unhealthy foods. I spent the last few months just growing healthy eating habits and gained right at first because I still had binges from all the malnourishment and bad habits. Then just maintained, now losing and restricting again.

I think understanding the affects food can have on the brain is really interesting too. Hyper palatable food can literally have opioid affects because of so much dopamine and pleasure. Most the food out there is made to have that reaction on us, the fats combined with the sugar and carbs and salt. Or like chips especially, some of them have more seasoning on them and some with less so it makes us want more. It’s all in the mind. I notice when I eat sugar or processed palatable foods, I crave it again the next day. Slowly the cravings go away and your palette changes too. Used to literally hate vegetables and now I love the foods I eat. I don’t think fruit sugar is bad for you, it digests so different than refined sugar. Also potatoes for life, soooo satisfying. Okay that’s enough for this vent.

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rustingbridges

I like to fuck around and waste time for at least ~6-10 hours per day, and let me tell you, that really puts some pressure on your schedule. you have no idea how busy I am