welcome to my lost paradise.

hoping for an end.

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I was given another reason why I want to kill myself

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Apparently, I was judged because of being ugly and fat, again.

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ang hirap naman mag tiwala

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all I get from sleep are these strange and apocalyptic dreams, how do I make them leave?

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you're just heartless

[lostinmyscatteredparadise]

No idea what to feel

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I hate this so much. How do we start being okay again?

[lostinmyscatteredparadise]

hoping to hear your voice again

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I miss your voice

[lostinmyscatteredparadise]

Please just stop. We can't be together.

[lostinmyscatteredparadise]

Whenever you're sad you can read the e-mail I sent you.

August 12, 2021

[lostinmyscatteredparadise]

cry streak

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I want to die putangina

[lostinmyscatteredparadise]

Gago wala na ako maiyak ang bigat

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words can really fuck us up huh?

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Still finding myself at the same place and same fucked up situation, but why? Where's the way out?