Jul 7, 2020
07-07-2020
I don't know what to do sometimes.... I love my significant other, but right now I feel like I'm losing him, without even trying... And that's the hardest part to think about, the fact that it's because I don't try.... I'm literally so freaking lazy and constantly stressed, worried, and smoking a pack of cigarettes a day because I sit in the same spots and chainsmoke, not spending time with my children and not communicating with my love like I should be ... I'm going to have to make some extreme lifestyle changes and quickly... Or I'm afraid I'll lose one of the only people whose presence makes my life.... MY life...
