beautiful dirty rich **

SHE  GIVES  THEM  BUTTERFLIES,  BATS  HER  CARTOON  EYES

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ANYONE STILL HERE? I MOVED! @lovelornes

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When your smile is so wide and your heels are so high   /   You can’t cry   indie. priv. selec.     J S. Callensburg   of   J no Subete      penned by Linnea.

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I ABANDONED MY WIFE

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vilifeye·:

❝  mm. you run with an interesting crowd. ❝  partially mumbled, attention stolen away by the bustling throngs of people, so many people, that meander about his peripheral. if he were a lesser ghoul it’d have driven him mad. even now the taste hit the back of his tongue; brought the pale column of his throat to constrict. a dry swallow brought forth the dip of his adam’s apple. and his center was found anew, head angled to level the woman with yet another loft of his brow. should their conversation continue … he shifted his weight, made himself more approachable.

he propped his chin atop an open palm. hummed in thoughtful reproach. ❝  why hang around people that think they’re better than everyone else ?  ❝  he didn’t understand. or. perhaps a part of him did? a beat passes and he nods, as if answering his own question. ❝  do they entertain you ?  ❝  tutting. something akin to admonishment. even so. it couldn’t have been worth her while to continue with such a taxing farce. as it were, uta shrugged. it wasn’t any of his business what she believed worth her while, how she conducted her life nor the company she kept. 

❝  they stink. like they’re rotting.  ❝

IF SHE’S BEING HONEST WITH HERSELF, SHE’S SO FUCKING TIRED. She desires sleep more than anything, sometimes even a slumber that’s only dreams and no waking. The rocking of the mortal coil as it begins to disintegrate around her. And eternal slumber. But she never expected to live long either. She didn’t think she’d make it to thirty and she’s not afraid to say it. She just wants to be famous and loved! And that doesn’t need to last too long does it? But as her pursuits crumble like a cupcake she has to pick herself right back up. She’ll do anything to reach those dreams but ... that’s just it. They’re dreams.

Her jubilance faltered for a moment, but she didn’t mind. Her smile slowly faded in pursed lips once more. She squeezed her cheeks and looked upwards towards the light fixtures. 

“ I don’t know if I hate them. They treat me like shit... but that’s all. I can live with it. ”  J hummed, twirling her drink in a manicured fingers.  “ I wanted to be something I guess. I wanted to a starlet! Famous and all that. Loved, cherished, admired. They’re using me as much as I’m using them. ”

Melancholy envelopes her. She starts to laugh. She laughs like a god all glitter and diamonds. It wraps you up in warmth, shining and radiant. “Such a sad thing huh! But I promised myself when I was little, I’d become bigger than what I am, what I was told. I dunno, maybe I’ve taken it too far.”

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vilifeye·:

❝  a snake ? ❝  loft of a bleached brow, head canting to level the woman adjacent him with an odd expression; equal parts wonder and befuddlement. the music was subdued, tantalizing though unobstructive to allow for idle conversation over drink and food alike. the patrons of this haunt are markedly divided, most who held a modest approach at attire and conduct. others much like the man whose piercings refract the light, chains that clink against one another with the way in which he unceremoniously slumped against the bar. like a snake. deliberation, black polish tapped against the glass of the drink he’s not touched. 

his free hand lifted, index and thumb plucking the maraschino that bobbed within the contents of his cocktail, brought it to his mouth. incisors worked the cherry away from the stem and he set the fruit itself aside, muscles of his jaw flexing with the effort of which it took. his labor yielded the tied stem of said maraschino; twisted, resting just at the end of where the split of his tongue tapered off. something of a show. all for the sake of delighting the woman who seemed so intent on calling attention to him. foreign, perhaps? he isn’t certain. in the end uta discarded the ty-off, placed neatly upon the folded napkin at his left. ❝  it’s just a mod. plenty of the alternative crowd have them.  ❝

WOW !! TOTALLY FREAKY AND TOTALLY INTO IT !! The starlet stared at the stranger in amazement before clapping her hands, manicured nails pink and polished. Genuine amusement radiated from her. It’s a rare occasion ya know! Talking with someone she wants to and being generally perky for a good reason.

“ That’s amazing !! I don’t get to see em’ too often. Those who tend to be in my company...they’re... well they all smell crude and half of em’ got crotch rot. Serves them right i’d say.” 

J huffed leaning on the bar and propping her head up in her hands. She pouted a bit, shaking her head feverishly bouncing golden curls framing her face when she stopped. IT’S A PAIN IN THE ASS. SHE JUST WANTS TO HAVE FUN! 

“ They’re all suits and sleaze. It’s the same everywhere. They don’t got those ‘mods’ bet you couldn’t pay them all the money in the world to get a tattoo. Unprofessional they say! Yeah well, so is sleeping around but ya don’t see them preaching about that. ”

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@vilifeye un - fucking - believable 

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YA’ KNOW !! IT’S EXCTING JUST LOOKIN’ AT YOU !! same ol’ same ol’ type of people, all around the world. There’s always the sleazy businessman and the uptight prick. Always with the money, always with the snide comments, always with the bad breath and shitty cologne. With their slick suits and expensive cocktails. When you’re around that lot nearly 24 / 7 it can be agonizingly repetitive. Sick sick sick of it! SHE WANTS SOMETHING MORE AND SHE KNOWS IT but she can’t slip up with that smile. 

J had found herself far from home and still she knew she’d be right at home with the same ol’ same ol’. She sat by herself at a bar now having escaped her current paramour’s grasp. It was nice for him to take her all the way across the globe for fun times and shady dealings, but he wasn’t anything that special either. Just another guy using her for arm candy (and maybe she poked a prodded a bit for him to let her tag along) SHE PURSES HER LIPS, PUCKERED UP FOR A KISS BUT SHE SIGHS SO LONGINGLY INSTEAD. Emerald eyes seem to shimmer as her gaze glances to the right, spotting someone pretty easy to spot. A small grin curled across her cheeks as she called out sing - song.

“ HEY !!~ You got one of those, tongue thingies? Not like a piercing but like, a snake? ”

@vilifeye​ for Uta 

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J

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details @ ermanno scervino spring 2018

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just a note (since I don't really have it written anywhere) J spans from 18 years old to 23-24 years old on this blog. By default J is like 23, but while interacting with like, highschool age muses she'll be in her highschool verse, for ease of interactions.

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… startercall    !!

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Awkward 80′s Dating Video Sentence Starters

All from here. Adjust as necessary.

“I’m an executive by day and a wild man by night. “Hi. You’ve probably already noticed that I have incredibly blue eyes.” “I like to talk to people, uh, deep into the night.” “I play guitar.” “I don’t smoke and I don’t like people who do smoke.” “I’m not afraid to get sand on my clothes if you’re not afraid to let the wind mess your hair up a little bit.” “Perhaps even a…a nice bath with champagne and candles.” “Hi Mom.” “I consider myself a refined valley dude.” “I’m looking for a trendy girl with a simple smile – uh, wait, no that’s not right.” “What I’m not looking for is some big…overgrown monster that’s always thinking about food.” “Who so binds to himself a joy doth its winged life destroy.” “Vivacious, foxy…” “I’m looking for the goddess. Are you the goddess? Who is the goddess?” “I’m looking for a figure that is sexy, slim, tight, excellent legs – mm…” “I’m a 25-year subscriber to both Playboy and the New Yorker Magazine.” “I operate a ‘damsel in distress’ hotline. I guess you’d call me a knight~” “One of my favorite foods is pizza.” “Sugar and spice and all those things that are nice…” “I’d like someone who is fun and adventuresome as well.” “I enjoy having fun, yes.” “I’m looking for someone to have fun with.” “No fatties, no hamsters, no Donna Juanitas!” “We don’t like to write checks.” “We don’t like to take out the garbage.” “What I’m doing right now is making a movie about World War II.” “I’m currently involved in cleaning up toxic waste.” “I’m not having fun doing this.” “Do you like cats?” “I like to wear bright socks.” “Life is a playground and I want somebody to play with.” “I really have a zany sense of humor.” “My mother still writes to me regularly.” “I average about 4 hours a night’s sleep.” “I will cry at a commercial.” “I’m interested in most phases of data processing.” “Type A I’m not. Comfortable, caring, and serious about a relationship…I am.” “I’m really looking for somebody I can feel special about!” “Are you that woman? Please give me a call!” “A journey always begins with the first step!

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i don’t have enough sexy headcanons on this blog. just let J top you.

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J has a tendency to get herself into IMBALANCED RELATIONSHIPS. It’s a predisposition due to the events of her past. J has never been in a relationship that wasn’t one-sided or there was an obvious power imbalance between the two. While many of the men she has been off gallivanting with has given her money, jewelry, clothes and what seemed like genuine affection she is often dropped when things start going south. She has been used many times, and every time she knows it’s coming. It’s in the back of her head but it still hurts immensely when it finally comes to light. She will try to shake it off quickly, getting right back on her feet.

While J shows off confidence and pride she is actually very much unsure of her own self worth. It comes with her childhood trauma, but she attempts to cover up this self-consciousness with make-up and flashy outfits. Distracts herself with men and her passion, her dreams. J has does not feel as though she’s good enough for anyone. She says she’s beautiful and radiant and to an extent she believes that, but when insulted she will lash out violently. She trying to keep up that facade of confidence despite constantly being beat down and degraded. While she sleeps around in her spare time as a way to give herself back control, she’s effected a lot more than she thinks. She has stated that her company, her body, and every aspect of herself can easily be bought and sold for a pretty penny. Being tossed around from person to person has taken a serious toll on her mental health but she continues to live that life without hesitation because she so desperately hangs onto this dream of hers.

J is easily manipulated by sweet words and seemingly sincere affection. She gets into relationships that are one sided, that she is often used in and she still latched onto the other because she feels she has to. J longs for true love and she longs for attention so when someone portrays that to her she will jump on it. This has happened multiple times throughout her life.

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I love J so much she’s so funky

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❝  HEY  !!  give  me  a  boost  !!  ❞       she  calls  out  in  a  half  yell,  half  whisper.  attempting  to  be  hushed  but  she’s  getting  more  and  more  aggravated  by  the  moment.  this  happens  every  so  often  (  a  shock  she  hasn’t  been  fired  yet  )  but  getting  kicked  out  of  her  place  of  work  because  apparently  starting  bar  fights  with  disrespectful  patrons  is  a  no  -  go.  J  was  reaching  for  a  low  window  in  the  back,  one  she  couldn’t  quite  reach  but  knew  was  unlocked.  it  was  her  only  way  back  in  where  she  wouldn’t  be  seen.  huffing,  the  bouncy  blonde  turned  towards  the  stranger  a  again,  with  a  frantic  beckoning  hand.      ❝  COME  ON  !!  if  you  help  me  out  i’ll  get  ya  anything  you  want  from  the  bar.  even  the  stupid  expensive  stuff.  anything  you  want!  ❞   .。･:*:･   @lvebtes​