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[lovenojudgement]

July 10, 2026 17:47

Blue.

Ever since I knew about your diagnosis, the only thing I told God was to give me time. Time to give back and time to enjoy moments and vacations with you. Now I truly understand the hardships of people who work abroad. Leaving their own homes just to pursue their own lives and fulfill their dreams.

I try my best to keep myself occupied whether it be working extra hours, doing chores and the like just for me not to get eaten by the whole situation. The weight of my heart adds up each day. Every single day that I cannot do anything for you or even just to be with you saddens me.

Everytime my sister tells me to pursuade you to do physical therapy because she can notice that you’re getting weaker scares me. Simply because I know that you have lived your life wander around places even by yourself. I know this will definitely affect you when your symptoms progresses. This feeling of hope that my paperworks gets done so I can go home and spend time with you again while you still can is my only wish. I pray for you everyday. I pray that God continues to give you strength and patience to continue pushing for the better.

I miss you very much dad. I may not be able to call you everyday. I may only send you what I prepared for our dinner, but I always wish and pray that I can not only cook for you but take care of you in person as well.

My mind is everywhere. I feel like my path is obstructed and like there is no right way to go. But I never question God’s plans. I know that this might be very hard right now but I should always have faith in Him and that miracles happen everyday. I might be blue but life has many more colors to choose from everyday.

DGPS-Q

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“Not all will understand but all of these are floating in my mind creating a very loud explosion in thoughts proceeding to affecting my whole being. Then having a hard time coping up with everything else that’s scheduled for that day. The main reason why id rather move around than rest. The main reason why I always choose to do something even if im tired. I cannot be left alone during this time. The heaviness of everything just suddenly consumes me.”

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

June 13, 2026 12:46PM

“I will always lean towards the fact that no other reason is needed no matter how hard it is sometimes. Trusting God’s plans and keeping a strong faith in Him should be enough.”

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

June 11, 2026 8:51AM

Care.

“I woke up with this on my hand. I haven’t been able to spend a lot of time with my husband for this week because of work. He does not seem okay for the past days but doesn’t want to tell me why either. I kind of know why though—he feels bad because I get home exhausted from my 12 hour shift.

He knew I had to lift boxes and sort them at work yesterday. I was assigned to the section who takes care of reagent and supplies shipments as well. I don’t remember asking him for this but he knew I needed it overnight to feel relief.

This is how care should look like from a person who genuinely loves you.”

DGPS-Q

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June 3, 2026 18:47

Stuck.

DGPS-Q

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May 20, 2026 20:24

“Time isn’t really on my side right now. I can’t seem to catch up.”

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

May 2, 2026 18:15

“When you messaged your dad about how your recovery is going. Suddenly called you because he was in church and ended up finishing mass with him.

I couldn’t be thankful enough for how technology really helps bring family members closer despite the distance.

I am happy that I was able to join you at mass today, dad. I love and miss you so much!

May God continue to guide you and keep you safe each day.”

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

April 26, 2026 20:17

“Everytime that I am scheduled for a major operation / procedure, my mom makes sure of the following: I eat my favorites, my room is always clean and cold when I get home, my clothes are ready even before bathing and my surrounding is not as stressful like always. Thinking about it now, it is the only time that I felt valued. No fights, no harsh words before, during and a few days after my hospitalization.

To be honest, this upcoming surgery that I will be having, it is my mom’s care that I miss the most. It is the only moment that she doesn’t want me stressed or sad. She prepares even the smallest thing that I can be worried about. I remember seeing my favorite flowers beside my hospital bed. Simple things that they remember to do for me to help cheer me up in a devastating situation.

My mom may have a lot of issues in life that directly affects us in a negative way, but she made sure that everything is laid out for us especially when our health is at risk. She doesn’t just prepare things for us, she made sure that we won’t need anything else because it’s ready. She breaks rules just because she chooses to be with me post operation even though only one guardian was allowed. She makes sure that she can personally be present whenever I need her. She held me in her arms during the most painful parts of my recovery. Even as a child, I remember her pinching me so that I won’t feel lancet pricks or needle insertions. Those small things that she did to mold me to be a strong woman is instilled in me until this very moment.

If only she chooses to forgive and be happy, I would love to have her here with me during this time. I really miss the way she cares for me. When my health issues arise, it is the only time that I really feel loved and understood like nothing else matters. Her only target is to make my body strong before surgery through her cooking and make me happy until the day of surgery. Her thought about that is that you recover fast when you’re happy and not stressed. She just transforms to the kind of mom that every child needs when they had a bad day.

Surgery is coming up. I hope and pray that God would guide the hands of my surgeon. I hope and pray to skip the depression side so that I can recover faster and be out and about in no time. I hope and pray to not feel alone during the process—like I have been feeling for the past few days.

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

April 24, 2026

I started my day right 👏🏼

Just did walking today. The cool breeze of air and all the plants that are starting to bloom worked its way through calming my brain and body down. I suddenly missed my every Sunday Manila Bay jog 🌅

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

April 13, 2026 18:14

This hits hard.

“ I suddenly saw this reel while scrolling on Facebook. I realized that this has an impact to where my life is right now. I am from a family that did not have as much financial problems as other Filipinos have. When I was born, my parents are still working their way up but I have never experienced that we did not have enough. I studied all the way to college without any problems with tuition fees or anything else related to finances. My parents knew people—they had connections which some what made life easier.

But I always told myself while I was growing up and started to understand how life is. That I will not use my parents’ money nor their connections on my way up to success. I may not be at the peak of my dreams right now, but like what I said before, I am grateful for all the blessings. God has truly honed me professionally and I am contented with that. I can proudly say that with my chosen profession, I am capable and knowledgable. I am still willing to grow and learn as the years go by. We have to adapt to new learnings so that we do not get left behind.

Let us learn to climb our own way up to achieve our dreams”

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

April 11, 2026 15:23

Open doors.

“I love rainy days especially when all I have to do is stay home. No work, no nothing. But I think, things like that only happens before you enter adulthood. Once you step in the real world, things change. There is no such thing as a bum day anymore. Your supposed to be rest days becomes laundry, meal prep, grocery, general cleaning, car wash, gas and every thing else kind of day.

I remember asking my dad while I was in grade school. I asked him what he enjoyed better— going to school or working. Back then I thought that working was better because when you earn, you can buy things for yourself. He told me that studying was way better than working. Because when you’re studying, all you have to focus on is school work. I did not agree during that time.

But honestly? Now, I can confidently say that being an adult sucks most of the time. I believe there are phases of adulthood. And currently, I am at the stage where everything feels slow but surely tiring. I am a very hard working person but recently, just thinking about work already makes me feel tired. I am at the phase where my dreams are starting to feel so far—almost impossible to reach. I am at the phase of life where everything feels like a slow motion. The phase of life where pessimism is winning over optimism. Mind boggling questions such as where is this life going to take me?

I am not ungrateful of what I have and where I am at this point. I know that I am blessed because I have more than what I ask God for. Regardless of what phase of life I am at, my faith never gets affected. I believe in His plans and open doors. After this phase, I know opportunities will flow and make life feel lighter. Life will be easier to live again.”

DGPS-Q

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March 14, 2026 10:46PM

“Worked 12 hours shifts for 4 days in a row. Believe it or not, I do not feel tired. Barely sat at work so my feet and legs are a little sore but I am used to it. Menstrual pain is waving at me for a couple of days already but I can manage. But why does my world seem so dark? Why does it feel so heavy?

This will pass. It’s just another week maybe? I’ll be fine.

Praying for better days ahead.”

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

December 16, 2025 11:51AM

When things fall into place according to God’s plans.

“From his driver’s license, now to opening his own bank account in the US. Baby steps my dearest husband. Next would be the job that would fit your preference best 🤍. Thank you Lord for Your never ending guidance to our lives. Thank you Lord for all the blessings each and every day. I pray that may You continue to be in the center of our marriage and may You continue to remind us on how to live our lives according to Your will.”

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

November 13, 2025 8:28AM

Patience.

“Everytime I wake up for work, I tell him that he does not have to drive me that day. There are days where it is really hard to get up because of the cozy weather. There are days that he would sleep later than I do because he slept longer during the day. There are days when it’s freezing and I worry that he might catch a cold and get sick. This wasn’t his thing back home. But he always wants me to get even the shortest nap on the way to work so that my rest would be extended. I know it’s not big of a deal for some. And yes, I love driving for myself. But looking at it, the only thing my husband wants is for me to just rest when he’s around. That he would take care of the things that he can for me.

He doesn’t have to, but he chooses to.

Again, as I always say, I cannot thank God enough for blessing me with one of the most patient man on Earth.

I love you!”

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

November 2, 2025 11:14AM

Appreciate.

“I am at work but I couldn’t stop myself from writing. I am blessed to be in this kind of relationship. We both have our own flaws that we choose to accept and love. Marriage will forever be a learning process. My husband has his own small ways of caring and making me feel secured. He knew how damaged my heart was before we entered into this relationship. But instead of moving on to the next, he chose me. He chose to embrace my past, my present and most importantly to build the future with me.

One of the best gestures that he does is that when we’re sleeping, no matter what position we are in, he will persistenly look for my hand and hold it. And that’s how it most of the time looks like beneath our blankets. Our hands held tightly in the midst of the darkness.

He knows that I sometimes have anxiety attacks especially when its very dark and I am alone. My husband tries to bring me the best comfort that he can ever give. He tries to make me feel secure no matter what. And most of all, he never disrespected me in any way. He also shows me all of his sides regardless if it would hit his pride simply because he knows that no matter what, I will be beside him.

There are nights when we would sleep back to back and I would turn around to hug him. He would get my hand and kiss it before he sleeps again. Sometimes, I would try to move my arm and he would think of it as I am pulling it away but I am not. He will try to stop it so that I won’t be able to pull away leaving me hugging him all throughout the night.

We might be each other’s enemy too from time to time. But loving you everyday is something that I will always choose to do not because I promised you, but because I prayed for you.

Know that not matter how small your gesture is, I di appreciate everything that you do for me. I love you.”

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

October 29, 2025 11:42AM

Dedication.

“My husband and I are not perfect especially during these times that we are still in the verge of figuring out how living together feels like. The things that we got used to when we still had distance in between us. I have been alone for about two years. I took care of everything alone. Driving myself to and from work is not new except the fact when there’s a snow storm coming. Doing the groceries after work, bringing everything to your house and then sorting them followed by cooking after a long day of chores. But it doesn’t end there because I have to wash all the dishes and pots myself too. I got used to the routine. It seems like my brain had its schedule on when I have to have things done because it is only me who would do it anyways. As mentioned, my husband and I are still adjusting to each one’s likes and dislikes. Of course it’s not easy. We both had our days but I could really say that at the end of the day, we always choose us above anything else.

Both of us were used to living with people who would take care of things for us. I was able to adjust when I had to move out and live by myself for work. He had to learn to take care not only of himself but his wife as well. Which I know is not easy because we don’t have people around us to help. It’ll just be the two of us for the meantime. But I can truly say that his adjustments to our married life really made my heart so warm. The picture above is something that I always see on our table after taking a bath. Cooking has been his thing ever since but he cooks a lot more dishes now. He drives me to and from work. I have someone who helps me with groceries and the dishes. I know marrying doesn’t mean that you found someone who you can pass some chores to. But with those simple gestures, especially on a long tiring week of work, you will feel not only loved and taken care of but also his dedication to your marriage. His dedication to learn to love me in all angles.

We may fight like cats and dogs sometimes, but I will always choose to live life with him over and over again. All these adjustments of living away from family and even the crazy cold weather will never be easy for him. But he still chose me over his comfortable life back home. I can never thank God enough for him. He has truly blessed me with someone who took away all the pain that my heart experienced before. Simple gestures aren’t simple. Because if you can’t do simple then it means you can’t do more.”

DGPS-Q

[lovenojudgement]

August 25, 2025 11:46AM

“Whatever the result may be, God knows I am proud of you.”

DGPS-Q