Don't Nobody Want Someone That's Been With Everybody
Seeing you having sex with multiple guys does not make me want you and I damn sure wouldn’t want myself if I pass my ass out to any dude that holla’s. Letting friends, strangers the world into my walls into my passion, into my spirit into my pleasure.
I can’t get into sex for myself. I love watching it, I love fantasizing about it…my Tumblr features sex within it. But I can’t get into it for myself. Love it but can’t get into it if that makes sense.
Sex to me is more about the passion and the love that we have for one another. The time, the love, the effect the intimacy outside of sex the conversation, the laughs and smiles and the beautiful memories that we will create. I can’t have sex for sport my body wouldn’t respond to it. I have so many men in this world that want to get into my walls but not into my mind and heart. So many sex-crazed animals in this world, men that only come around because they want to get they dick wet. And with connectpal being popular they want to put their phone in your face to charge other people for money to watch us take place in our private affair. I’ve liked a few guys, but soon as I discovered they had a connectpal and having sex with multiple dudes turn me off. I felt as tho they wouldn’t value me or our passion since they’re having sex willy nilly just to make a few coins. Already in my mind us having sex wouldn’t be special because you’re giving something that meant to be special away to someone that you bearly even know or to your friends. And I look at snapchat these dudes would meet other dudes on snapchat just to give their bodies away, just to get views and followings. I couldn’t fathom anyone just wanting me only sexually. It puzzles the shit out of me when dudes ask or put they locations up, just to meet someone they don’t even know to have sex with them, is it really that easy to give your body up, and if so why? “Who in Dallas, who in NYC, who want to meet me here or there?”
It’s hard to trust, it’s hard to love. Not knocking anyone that enjoy the sport of sex not saying it’s a bad thing. But can anyone take you seriously when you’re ready to be loved? When they’re so many videos of you sucking 20 dicks in the bathroom by a toilet, twerking butt ass naked, getting double penetrated, getting a train run on you, getting pee’d on, drinking and taking bodily fluids having sex with this guy that guy. And even for you can you trust anyone that comes around that wants to love you knowing your history/past. Do you question yourself if the person that wants to love are only there to get what you’re putting out?
But maybe I’m overthinking, What I’m really trying to say is sex just isn’t as special as it once was. Sex is a reward for deep connection for someone you care and love most deeply about, it’s the ultimate intimacy, the ultimate affection that you have for some one and I feel like that part is taken away because everyone is looking for a quick nut or to update they snapchat and connectpal accounts. But all and all go out there and enjoy you, enjoy what you do. I don’t judge anyone for the things they do or enjoy. Hell, I enjoy you doing them, you’re giving me something to jack off to I admit. But all I’m saying is when its all over and done and you’re ready to be loved, things done in the past can creep up on you and it can fuck you over. And my opinion it would be a hard pill to swallow when there are 100s of videos of my boyfriend or your boyfriend getting fucked left from right. But that’s me some ya’ll want to date pornstars.
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